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JPOV (Jasper)
I sulked with my family in an empty hospital room knowing we would wait until Alice was ready to go no matter how long it took.
I was tired of waiting and not because I was selfish or impatient but because the emotions in the room were almost overloading me. Carlisle and Esme were filled with remorse and concern, Emmett was filled with indescribable rage and guilt, while Rosalie felt guilt that she was trying to mask with indifference.
It kind of hurt me to see everyone holding each other comfortingly when now I had no one. It was hard to feel my own emotions when they were feeling so much. I tuned them out and found my emotions. I was feeling heartbroken and guilty, I should've helped Alice especially after all we had been through together. She saved me from being the monster we all were born to be, the monster Edward embraced.
I recalled the argument between Rosalie and Alice earlier. Alice's words still irked me: "Do you know how it is to feel alone and empty every second of every fucking day!" The strength of her emotions let me know that she had felt that way for a while. To know that she felt alone even with me stung more than the venom that brought me into this new life but now I deserve that pain. At times I felt that she never loved me but I know she had but it was never true love.
I know deep in the recesses of her mind she feared I would become like Edward or hunt humans again but no I am strong! I thought of Edward again and anger filled me how could he be so volatile to the one he supposedly loved. I knew many things could break you and now I know denial was one of them.
I let my mind go blank and counted to a billion a few times while wondering if Alice was ever going to leave the room. Every once in a while somebody would ask what emotions were coming from her room. At first it was rage, then love, then despair, then more rage. Of course I still loved Alice so all of those emotions got to me twice as bad plus everybody else's overwhelming guilt.
After a little longer the emotions in the hospital were driving me crazy. I walked out of the hospital and waited until I was out of the view of humans to run to the forest. The quick run to the forest reminded me of times before Alice had envisioned Bella, the simpler times when me and her used to run through the forest chasing each other completely in love. To be honest a part of me wanted to fight for Alice but my power stopped me because I knew I could never win even with Bella out of the picture. I climbed a aged tree and focused on the sun which was blanketed by dim gray clouds.
"Jasper..."
I turned around to see an obviously shattered Alice with bloody tears streaming down her face staring at me from the ground. Instead of staring at the strange tears streaming down her face I hopped out of the tree and immediately pulled her into my arms. She hugged me tight enough to almost chip my skin.
"I can't make it if Bella doesn't live."
Was this a confession of her possible suicide? I couldn't let her do it. She may not be my mate but I still and always will care deeply about her.
"You have us. We can't let you do that."
She pulled back and from the look on her blood stained face I knew that she was going to do whatever it took to kill herself.
"Jasper I barely have you. To lose Bella after her confession killed me. To lose a love when it was just a seed in a ground never having a chance to watch that flower bloom."
The love and tremendous pain that rolled off of her was almost to much to bare.
"I am here for you. I will do whatever it takes to win back your trust."
She ran her hand through her muddied and disheveled hair.
"Take care of Bella when I leave."
I looked at her confused and worried that she would off herself.
"No I'm not going to kill myself. The wolves are coming two days to kill me and if Bella loves me as much as I love her she'd be devastated."
I hissed at the thought of the wolves even landing a hand on Alice.
"We can fight them. You'd never be able to come back to her if you left."
She shook her head adamantly.
"I don't want any of you to touch them unless provoked because if she is left unprotected and something happens..."
The devastation leaving her was almost enough to make me tear my head off.
"I vow my immortality that I will protect Bella as I would protect myself."
With out a response she ran back into the hospital to see her Bella. I was surprised at how collected she seemed but it was all bottled up until she reached the room and started sobbing loudly. Where would she go? Did she want me to tell our family? Would Bella wake up?
RPOV
Alice's unending sobbing was was drowning me in a river of guilt. The worst part was that she probably hates me now. I sighed irritated by the whole situation. I swear I will throttle Edward if I ever see him again, the jealous little prick. After being here for several slow drawling hours I finally found the courage to go see Alice.
I stood up and shook my head when Emmett wanted to follow. I walked down the hall slowly and tried to contain my nerves. I stood in front of the door and heard Alice's sobbing stop.
"Go away!"
I exhaled and walked in anyway and was shocked to see blood smudged down the sides of Alice's face.
"You've been crying blood?"
Instead of answering me she ran up on me and pushed me against the wall.
"I. Said. Go. Away."
The anger in her eyes was worse than any glare I could ever give.
"Alice I'm-"
She scoffed. "Do you think saying you're sorry is going to help a damn thing? Look at her!"
I looked passed Alice to see Bella significantly paler than before with a oxygen mask,a tube down her throat, and needles in each arm hooked to several different machines. I felt even more guilty.
"I'll kill him for you. I'll hunt him down now and kill him."
Alice shook her head adamantly.
"He is MINE. The most you could do was take care of her when... if she wakes. I'm leaving, the wolves are going to kill me for breeching their land."
WHAT?
"We will fight them! It's partially their fault it happened to her. We will fight and we will win."
Alice actually smiled a little. I pulled her into my arms and hugged her tightly. A few seconds later the rest of our family walked in nodding in agreement. Alice laughed bitterly.
"Now you assholes want to fight. Let's get to practicing."
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