Hey you guys! I dont want to write a long note and the beginning because I know i have left you waiting!
So I wrote it in the end please read it!
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Rachel stood up from where she was laying next to Sam. She picked up her underwear from the floor and grabbed Sam's t-shirt and slipped it on. She then sat down on the stool of her dresser and brushed her hair observing her self in the mirror in front of her, her lips were swollen of kissing Sam the night before. Her eyes had a hint of redness of not sleeping after she woke up. Her hair was no longer a mess, after she brushed it out. She smiled at herself and then saw that Sam was observing her from the bed. She turned back to look at him and gave him a little smile and then thought about what she was about to say and pursed her lips. "Noah."
"What?" he looked at Rachel confused.
He voice shook "I choose Noah."
He looked at her his face looked hurt and he looked at her sadly but still managed to form a smile, he nodded and then stood up he grabbed he got dressed and then looked at her expectantly. She looked down and noticed she was still wearing his shirt. She took it off and gave it to him. He stepped closer to her and embraced her and kissed her one more time and then said, "You should get dressed." he walked out of her room and she heard the door close downstairs. She got in the shower and as she took a shower she thought of what she had done.
'How could I do this, how could I let go of the love of my life when I finally had him when eveything was about to be perfect but it wasnt perfect and it would never be when there was someone I could hurt.'
She heard the doorbell ring, she ran downstairs to find none other than Jesse St. James at her door.
He smiled at her and she asked "What are you doing here?" Rachel did not expect for him to come back after she had rejected him in the auditorium but he did and he was standing on her doorstep. "I came to see you." he said like it was the most obvious thing.
"What do you want?" she told him coldly, glaring at him.
"I was in town, and decided to come see how you were doing."
"I'm fine thank you. Now you can turn around and get your ass out of my property." Rachel said angrily. She couldnt believe that he had come to see her, she was so mad. She wanted to slap him across the face but she had no reason to, and oh how she would die for a reason to punch him in the face.
Jesse was surprised that she cussed and she lashed out at him, she had to reason to, he has been a complete gentleman to her ever since he came back from being kicked out from UCLA. He was just being honest to all the losers in her Glee Club and trying to help them win nationals so maybe he would get a chance with her.
"Aren't you going to invite me to come in?" he asked, Rachel couldnt believe he had the audacity to ask that.
"Really Jesse? Just tell me what you want from me, anything, and then leave me alone!"
"Anything?" he asked with a mischievous smile. She wasnt sure what he wanted and didnt want to know either but he had to leave her alone. So she probably do almost anything at this point. She simply nodded and waited for his response. He stepped closer to her and slipped his arm around her waist as he pulled her towards him. He leaned down and whispered in her ear "I want you."
Rachel couldn't she was Sam's, yes she had gone close with Puck but she had never had sex with him, she couldn't and she wasn't going to do it with anyone else than Sam at the moment. So she shove Jesse off her, "Not that" she said her voice was shaking slightly and Jesse just laughed and shrugged "Planning to be the next virgin mary?" he asked her, "No," she said forcefully,"I am no longer in the Celibacy Club." Jesse stopped laughing and looked at her shock was spread through out his face. Was she serious? he thought. He couldn't believe it,he never thought it of her, she was so sweet and maybe sometimes he could be a jerk and an asshole to her and he admitted it to himself, but that was only because he loved her. "You're kidding right?" he said, his face a mask of anguish and jealousy. She just said "Please just go." He looked at her once more and stalked off to his car leaving her standing in her doorway, Rachel couldnt believe she had just told him she was no longer a virgin, he would spread it around school she thought her stomach knotted, she closed the door and felt vomit coming up she ran to the restroom, she cleaned her face and went to lie down on her bed she pulled to covers up to her chin and fell asleep.
Sam lay on his bed all day wondering how she could choose Puck over him, when he loved her so much. He wanted to scream, he wanted to go ask Rachel why. He didnt know what to do he was so frustrated with himself with her. He wanted to do something punch someone. He was so mad, and sad he wanted to cry to scream. Ice cream could not be able to fix this. He lost the girl he loved and all he did was lie down on his bed and be angry. He stood up and walked out of the apartment, he went to the park and sat down on the swing. He liked feeling the wind in his hair. He felt crushed, he no longer felt angry he felt sad and desperate like there was nothing he could do to get rid of the lump forming in his chest. He wanted to yell that he loved Rachel Berry, and nothing could change that he wanted them to be together. He wanted for them to be together forever, he didnt know where this strong feelings came from and didnt want to know, he just wanted Rachel. He stood up from the swing and started walking once more.
He walked and walked and walked until it got dark, and he finally decided to go back home and as he walked back home he could feel warm tears running down his face.
When he got home he went back to lay down on his bed and pulled the covers over his head.
Puck saw Rachel standing near her locker, he approached her.
She looked up at him as he got there. "Hey." She said slowly. Puck hugged her and kissed her on the cheek.
Rachel just smiled at him. "Hi," he finally said. Her big chocolate eyes were on him, she knew she had made the right choice although it hurt to let Sam go.
He grabbed her hand and they started walking down the hall to his locker, he opened his locker and stuffed his backpack in it taking out a folder. He smiled at her once more and started walking down the hall as she grabbed his hand, Rachel sensed something was wrong, he wasnt usually this cold towards her, "Whats wrong?" she asked quickly. He looked at her and then he frowned "Rachel I dont know how to say this but," he paused for a few seconds, "Never Mind," he said quickly and started walking faster down the hall. She stopped him and put her small hands on either side of his face and she looked at him and kissed him, "Noah, no matter what you have to tell me you will always be my best friend nothing will change that, my best friend always comes first than my boyfriend, understand?" he nodded, "Now will you tell me whats wrong?" He looked at her and he started walking again he went into a secluded hallway "Rachel, I love you, you know that right?" Oh no here it comes Rachel thought, why couldnt he have broken up with me earlier, ugh im such an idiot. She nodded at Pucks question, "I love you too, Noah." she told him. "But its not the way maybe I've been wanting to love you, I want to be in love with you, but I cant, Its so difficult, I mean you're beautiful and smart and so many other wonderful things, but you're just my best friend and all these times we've come close to having sex it felt so wrong and if you didnt stop us all these times it would be a mistake I could never forgive myself for, we would be like linked you get me? Because we're so close to each other." She hugged him, "Rachel," he said slowly, "Im breaking up with you and you hug me?" She laughed, "Oh, Noah, this is such a relief I don't think I could have spend another day with you, you're like the bestest friend ever, but boyfriend that was just wrong." He looked at her surprised, "Well then, I'm glad you feel the same way." They both laughed and they hugged "Im glad we're back just to best friends Rach."
Finn sat down next to Rachel in the first class, the class didnt start for another ten minutes, he knew Rachel always liked to be early during class. "Hello, Rachel." he told her. "Hey, Finn," she beamed up at him. He felt his heart stop and he couldnt breathe for a few seconds, it was just like if they were a couple again before the whole Puck and Santana mess. "I havent talked you in a while" he stated slowly. "Oh," she looked at him, "I've been busy, how have you been Finn?"
(Finn/Rachel)
I've missed you Rachel, you're the only girl I will ever want, and you've broken up with Noah, and you have no chance with Sam since he's still with Quinn.
The answer is no Finn, I need my time alone, and the whole school knows about me and Puck now, well then thats nice.
Please one more chance Rachel, thats all im asking.
You ask for too much, we cant be together anymore theres someone else, thats not you or Puck.
It's Jesse isnt it, ever since he came back from LA, Rachel he threw eggs at you, for gods sake!
Its not him, just leave me alone Finn, I just plan on being single.
For the rest of the class Finn kept glancing at Rachel, she didnt seem upset she was just happy, he wanted to know who was the other guy, he needed to know who the other guy was.
Sam walked down the hall to second period, Quinn caught up to him when he saw him walking. "Where were you these past days? Ive been trying to reach you!" He stopped walking and hugged her "Hi, Quinn its nice to see you too. I've been busy." She laughed "Too busy to see your girlfriend!" he started walking again, he wasnt in the mood to listen to her. "Samuel Evans, do not walk away from me!" she told him as she ran to catch up to him. "What do you want Quinn?" he told her.
(Quinn/Sam)
We're running for Prom Queen and King! You havent forgotten?
I dont have time for this! Do it yourself!
No Sam, you have to run with me, we have to take pictures afterschool.
I dont want to run, well do whatever you want but dont expect me to help you with the campaign.
Fine then Sam. But we have to take the pictures after school.
He started walking away again, I said no Quinn, he said sternly I'm not taking the pictures with you.
But Sam... her eyes filled with tears, Quinn couldnt believe that he would do this to her.
Sam sighed and said FINE! Ill take the goddamn pictures!
Thank You. She nodded and looked at him with a tear streaking down her face...
He looked at her and hugged her, he apologized, kissed her on the forehead and dried her tears. She kissed him and he kissed her back not knowing that Rachel was at the end of the hallway looking at them.
Rachel walked away teary eyed. She had thought someone could really love her, but like always they end up falling for the pretty girl again. She headed to her locker, she had a free period, so she had nothing to do so she could distract herself from what she had just witnessed. She shoved all her her things in her locker not caring if some papers got wrinkled or something fell off the carefully organized shelves she had put in her locker. She slammed her locker with a little more force than she had intended. She walked down the hall to the auditorium, expecting to see no one there but when she walked in, there was Finn she walked in slowly; without a sound she sat down on the very last row. She didn't want Finn to see she was there. Finn started singing a song she didnt recognize, he sang the first few lines and she couldnt help but join in she just made up the words as Finn furiously wrote on a sheet of paper as they continued singing together, they didn't know how they thought of the same lyrics at the same time. But all that mattered to Finn was that Rachel was here, the love of his life.
Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close, yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay
As Rachel sang she walking up to the stage were Finn was singing.
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be pretending
Rachel was now on the stage standing in front of Finn, who had now long forgotten the paper and was staring at her intently while singing he stepped closer to her had he grabbed her hand. They sang the rest of the song holding hands.
How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
And we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be
Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no one's letting go
And it's such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be (pretending)
will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be (pretending)
will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be pretending
Rachel looked at Finn who had now let go of her hand and returned to writing the rest of the lyrics. "There." he said as he stopped writing. She smiled at him and he stepped closer to her and stood in front of her, Rachel stopped smiling and looked at him. He took her hand again and put in on his chest, "Thanks, Rach," he paused and when she didnt talk he said, "for helping me finish my song." She looked at the floor and then back at him, "I- I liked singing with you again" her voice small, he smiled at her "Me too, Rach." He leaned down and was about to kiss her and Rachel stepped back, "I can't, Finn" he looked at her sadly and then just nodded "Okay," she was about to say something but he continued,"that day when I saw you and Jesse singing Rolling in the Deep, I sat down on that same exact spot you were sitting on right now, I loved seeing you sing even though it was Jesse and then when you guys finished I saw..." Rachels eyes widened she thought no one had seen, he continued "I saw you guys kiss, Rach, and you know what I was holding in my hand, what I was waiting for?" He looked up at her from where he had sat on the piano bench. Their gazes met, and Rachel shook her head slightly. He stood up once more and grabbed her hands in his and put them on his chest their faces inches away. "I had a lily in you hand, cause Rach thats your favorite flower remember? and I was waiting for him to leave, to fix everything, to tell you that I didnt mean to hurt you I was just so confused to tell you that I was in love with you... but it's too late now, Isn't it?." Finn patiently waited for her answer.
Hey You guys! I know i took forever to update! But i will try and write faster and update sooner!
It's not going to end just yet you guys! I will keep writing, my last chapter will be CHAPTER 25-30..
I'm not sure yet...
But thanks for reading I appreciate you patience!
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