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CHAPTER 8- Decisions

How do you choose between two good things? I spent a whole week locked up in my room, contemplating the most difficult decision I would ever make in my life.

"Bella?"

"Go away," I moaned from the floor, where I was laying. Charlie opened the door anyway, stepped over me, and sat down on the edge of my bed.

"It's because he came to visit isn't it?" I grunted.

"It isn't easy to forget your first love Bells, trust me I know." I could sense the awkwardness in Charlie's voice and it slowly began to creep up on me as well, we don't usually talk about feelings.

"You're mother was my first love." I rested my head on my arm and looked up at him. "You know the biggest problem about your first love? Believing it will never end. I married Renee and look at me now. Divorced. Just because Edward was your first love, doesn't mean he is the right choice for you either. Of course he will always be in your heart, forever, he taught you how to love and be loved, but maybe there is someone out there who is better for you." Forever indeed, I thought to myself.

"I know you rather me be with Jake, Dad," I mumbled.

"Loving someone just because they love you isn't right either, Bells. I want you to be happy. I trust your judgment. Whoever you choose to love, I will have to accept." With that, Charlie got up, stepped over me, and left the room.

"Next time I'm getting Renee on the phone," I heard him mumble to himself from the hallway. I smiled for the first time in a week. Two days later I was in the forest behind my house, waiting for Edward to arrive. He was there within minutes. I couldn't help but to smile as he strode over at human pace.

"Edward–" He froze in front of me and just stared for a long moment.

"It's not me, is it?" My face faltered, and immediately I began to break down. I was so determined to remain cool, but there was no way to do this with dry eyes.

"I'm so sorry Edward, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry, I'm-I'm-"

"Shhh," He pulled me into a vice tight hug and stroked my back.

"I can only blame myself."

"N-n-no, don't!"

"Shh Bella shh, it's ok, I understand. I'm happy for you." I gazed into his eyes and could see the venom glossing over them but of course, his tears would not spill over. He was crying, I began to sob harder.

"I love you Edward Cullen, I'm so sorry!"

"I love you more," he half smiled.

"I can't even stand the thought of never seeing you again," I wept, "that's so selfish. I'm a terrible person."

"Who says we'll never see each other again?"

"I thought you would never want to see me again after this."

"I won't deny I might need a little time." I hung my head as silent tears continued to cascade down my face. "But you've done what is right for you, and I can't argue that. I love you, so I must let you go."

"I'll miss you so much, but I understand," I sniffed. "This sucks." Edward smiled at that.

"Think of everything you can have now Bella. You can keep your friends, be with your family, have children. You can follow the natural course of life, like you are supposed to. For that, I am truly happy."

"That's what I'll have to keep telling myself."

"I guess I will leave it at that then," Edward said softly, "I love you Isabella Swan."

"See you?" I asked.

"Without a doubt." He kissed my cheek, my eyes closed. "I will always be waiting in the wings," he whispered. When I opened them again he was already gone, the last tear rolled down my cheek as I walked back into my house two hours later. Time to call Jacob, I thought.

I chose to meet him at our beach. I really loved it here. It was always empty, peaceful. I sat on our driftwood bench and gazed out upon the open ocean. I closed my eyes and felt the cool breeze rolling off the waves. You could just taste the salt in the air, and the feel the crunch of the pebbles under your shoes.

"Let's just get this over with," a particularly husky voice said softly from above me. I jumped out of my reverie and slipped off of the bench. Jacob caught me easily and sighed. "Bella," he almost pleaded.

The second I looked into his eyes the widest grin spread over my face.

"I love you."

"I love you too Bells." He seemed to be bracing himself, holding his breath, waiting for the 'but' that I wasn't going to give. Not this time.

"Jacob," I smiled, "I love you. I want to be with you always, if you still want me too that is," I added nervously. His face was priceless. It looked as though he were struck by lightning before, out of nowhere, I was in his arms. My feet were dangling a foot from the ground as Jacob swept me up and kissed me unlike any other kiss we had ever shared. I could feel the passion, feel the love, feel his warmth, his hair, his back. My hands were everywhere, and so were his. He had one clasped tightly at the small of my back while the other roamed from my back to the base of my neck, to cradle my face. Our lips were moving in new ways, and our tongues battled for dominance. We pulled apart to gasp for air.

"I thought I lost you," he said hoarsely.

"I will always need my personal sun," I beamed. With the wind in our hair, the waves crashing nearby, and my heart taking flight, I knew I had made the right choice, no matter how hard it was. He needed me and I needed him. This was home, this was my Jacob.

Far away, unnoticed by all on the distant horizon, a flash of red flame sank beneath the sea.

This was the original end to the story. What did ya think? However, I have ALWAYS had the intention of a sequel and now I'm debating if I should just make it one long story or a separate sequel type thing. Any suggestions? There will be an update soon and most likely it will be just continuing the story unless you guys think I should make it into a sequel. Thanks for sticking with me guys and I hope to hear from you in the reviews!