I'm glad people are getting in to this story. I wanted to thank Whiteskin and Darklips for bringing to my attention the similarities between this story, and one called Green Eyes written by the talented writter Gabsikle. Just so there is no problem I have pmed Gabsikle about the situation, and was told that as long as I don't make it the same, there would be no problem. A little thank you to Gabsikle for not having a problem with it, and would like to send some readers her way. Gabsikle are very well written. Now onto this on here is...
Chapter 2: A Little Help
I looked up from my hands when I felt Miss. Wainwrigh rubbing my back. "Logan, you know you can talk to me. Tell me whats wrong maby I can help you?" It may sound strange that I am this close with Miss. Wainwrigh, but she has been friends with my mother and father for the last few years. I have seen her enough and trust her enough to think of her as a close part of my family, just like my friends. I usualy felt better after talking to her she never judged anything I said and would always give me great advise, but I don't think anything she could say to me now would help me at all.
"I just don't know what to do anymore?" I brought my hands to my face again.
"Logan I can't help If you don't let me, now tell me what happened" She grabbed my wrist trying to pull my hands from my face. I let my hands fall and wrapped them around my knees bringing them up to my chest.
I still was crying when I told her "it was Kendall again. He pushed me into a locker and called me a faggot."
"Oh, sweetie you've already talked to us about this. I know it hurts to hear that but you can't listen to that, you need to be strong. Just forget what he said and don't listen."
"I know it usually dosen't bother me when someone calles me names, but for some reason it just hurts when Kendall does it to me, alot." Kendall's voice kept on running through my head, always yelling at me faggot, faggot, faggot.
"You just have to relax a little, it dosen't matter what you are, it's who you are that you need to let people see." Miss. Wainwrigh always told me that, as long as I like myself others would like me to. I was having a hard time believing that now. I mean how could I not, someone I thought was my best friend hates me for who I am.
"But it's who I am that some people can't stand. It's because of who I am that no one could even care for me. Sometimes I think it would be better if I wasn't even around." I began to ball my eyes out at my own words. I had never felt this hurt about anything but maby if I wasn't around then maby I wouldn't have to worry anymore about what people thought about me.
I felt her move at my words, and when I looked up she was kneeling in front of me with her hands on my shoulder, looking me in the eyes. "Don't you ever, and I mean ever say that agian. Do you hear me Logan! Don't you ever say that anyone would be better off if you weren't here."
"But what about..." I was stopped mid sentence when she shook my shoulders.
"NO buts Logan, one person who said something stupid, can't even compare to the people who care about you. You need to forget about this, if you were gone there would be people who would miss you, who would be hurt. Do you want that?" I shook my head no "good, now do you feel any better?"
"I do, but what if anyone else says something like that to me?"
Miss. Wainwrigh looked around for a second. "OK you didn't hear this from me but, if anyone else says something like that to you just say in your mind they can go fuck themselves, i'm better than them." I started lauhing outloud forgetting about what happened to me a few minute ago. When I heared the bell ring I collected myself and my bag. "Well we missed lunch, but at least it's last period. What do you say we get going, if I remember you and the rest of the class have a history paper do today."
"Thats right we do, and Miss. Wainwrigh" she turned to look at me "thank you" I said and pulled her into a hug.
"Any time dear, now we need to hurry or we will both be late." She was right and I still had to go to my locker, so I ran back into the building waving over my shoulder.
When I got to my locker I spotted Jo fishing some stuff out of hers. "Hey Jo."
She turned when she heared my voice and pulled me into a tight hug. "Logan are you okay, the others and I went looking for you before the bell rang."
"Yeah i'm fine Jo thanks. Miss. Wainwrigh talked me through some things and that was a big help."
Jo smiled at me "thats great Logan, I am just glad to see that frown off your face, we all like it alot more when you smile."
I was brought back to what Miss. Wainwrigh said, if you were gone there would be people who would miss you, who would be hurt, and then hearing Jo's words I was smiling again.
"Did you get your paper done Logan?" she asked drawing my attention.
"Yup all set to go.''
"Wish I could say the same, maby it was a bad idea to let James help me write it." Jo said shrugging her shoulders
"It can't be that bad" I told her.
"Maby you didn't hear me, I let James help me write it" she said putting an emphises on James' name.
"That may have been a bad idea" we both started laughing as we made our way to class.
"Good afternoon Miss. Taylor, Mr. Mitchell please take your seats. Class will begin soon" Miss. Wainwrigh ushered into the class room. Jo and I took our seats near the front of the class, but I couldn't help but realize that everyone was here, but there was still one empty seat in the back corner. I knew exactley who's seat that was.
"What happened to Kendall?" I leaned over and asked Jo.
"I don't know, maby he ran away after James and Carlos talked to him." Jo said making air quots at that last part.
"What do you mean they talked with Kendall?"
"Well what do you expect, we weren't going to let him talk to you like that and not do anything. I mean no one threw a punch or anything like that, but the guys wanted Kendall to apologize for hurting you." Just the idea of Kendall ever apologizing for something he did to me was a joke in and of itself.
"What happened after they talked to him?" I was eager to hear what Kendall had to say.
"After Carlos pushed him down in a chair, he got right in Kendall's face and told him that he hurt you and that he needed to go and apologize to you. Jett and Wayne wanted to get involved but there were to many teachers around for anything to start up." I was at least happy my friends didn't get hurt because of me. "Camille and I couldn't hear much, James and Carlos told us to stay at the table. They were talking to him for like ten minutes, untill Kendall pushed Carlos away from him, and he walked away towards the school parking area. After that we don't know what happened to him." Jo and I turned to the front when we were asked to pass our papers up to the front.
My friends may not know what happened but I knew, seeing Kendall walk away from me with tears in his eyes. The image came back into my head, why was he crying anyway?
The bell rang some time later and we all packed up our stuff and left the room. After we finished at our lockers Jo and I meet up with James, Carlos, and Camille in the parking lot. "Hey Logan, how ya feeling?" James asked patting me on the shoulder.
"I'm good, thanks James" I was felling better but not completely. Things were still running through my head, things like what Miss. Wainwrigh had told me, Kendall still calling me a fag, but most of all I wanted to know why Kendall was crying.
"Thats good, because I want you to be in a good mood when I tell you I am taking us all out on next saturday. A new amusment park just opened up in town, and I'm dying to check it out." James said with a smile on his face.
"Really! oh I can't wait, I can't wait" Carlos was jumping up and down, and brought Camille into a tight hug and continued to jump.
"Ugh, Carlos i'm glad your happy, but put me down or i'm gonna be sick" Camille started turning green in the face untill Carlos stoped shaking her.
"Sorry" Carlos placed his hand around her waist and kissed her on the forehead. We all broke out in a fit of laughter at the sight.
"Anyway, do you need a ride home Logan? I could drop you off before I drop off Camille." Carlos asked me. Him and James both had cars off their own, I was the only one with a license but without a car.
"No thanks Carlos I can walk. I might help me clear my hear a little." I told him giving him a small smile. I only lived fifteen minutes from the school so it wasn't a problem for me.
I waved good bye to my friends I started to walk home. I was right, I needed this time to think, I couldn't figure out anything though. The only thing I knew was that Kendall hated me and I don't know why. I never did anything to make him hate me, we were some of the best friends you would ever see. We did everything together, we both played hockey, we rode our bikes together, we went to the movie. I even helped him with some of his stupid ideas, he even gave me the nickname Logie. I never actually liked the nickname, but I never wanted to hurt his feelings. So why would he hurt mine now after all this time. Maby Miss. Wainwrigh was wrong, maby it is because of who I am that Kendall hates me. It was only after I came out to my friends did Kendall start to ignore me.
(Flashback 2 years)
"Come on everyone, the firewoks are going to start soon." I heard my mom yell for everyone.
We were all at the park on The Forth of July, and we had just gotten done having a nice bbq. Everyone was there James' family, Carlos', Kendall's and mine. My mom had even invited Kelly to come with us. We all rushed over to the gazebo my parents had rented for the day. Carlos and James ran, not wanting to miss the firewoks, but I draged my feet.
"Something wrong Logie?" I looked over to see Kendall smiling down at me.
"I'm fine just thinking" I said
"Well come on we don't want to miss anything" He said and started to run and I ran after him.
We got there just as the sky started to light up in different colors. The colors were beautiful the blues, the reds, but most of all the greens. I noticed I wasn't looking up anymore I was looking over at my best friend. I always found myself watching his jade green eyes, I couldn't take it anymore I had to tell him. I taped his shoulder getting his attention, he looked over and I melted into his eyes.
"Can I tell you something Kendall?" I had to shout a little so he could hear me.
"Sure, what is it Logie?" He just had to keep using that nickname.
"I wanted to tell you i'm..." The finally of the fireworks was going on so I shouted louder so he could hear me.
"I'm gay" he placed his hand behind his ear telling me he couldn't hear me.
"I'm gay" he still couldn't hear me, I took a big gulp of air and almost yelled at the top of my lungs.
"I'm gay" I never noticed the last firework had gone off, and now everyone had heard me. I looked around to see everyone staring at me. I couldn't take it I ran as fast as could and hid behind a tree, no one was supposed to know but Kendall. I slid down against the tree, and broke out into tears.
"Logan, Logan were are you?" I could hear James calling for me
"Please come out Logan, there's nothing to be ashamed of" Carlos yelled.
I let out a small hiccup that I didn't think anyone could here, but I guess James could. "Carlos, he's over here."
The last thing I really remember after that was walking back, with Carlos' and James' hands on my shoulder, and them telling me that evreryone was fine with me, and that no one cared if I was gay or not. When we got back my heart almost shattered, the one person I was hoping for that would accept me was gone.
(End Flashback)
It was after that, Kendall stoped talking to anyone of us. Everyone tried to make me comfortable, and it made me happy that they were ok with me. I walked home continually replaying that night back in my head. I wish I never said anything to him, I miss my friend, I thought to my self with my eyes closed. The next thing I knew I fell with a thud to the sidewalk.
"Why don't you watch were your going Mitchell!" I gazed up to see I had bumped into Jett who was coming out of the store I was passing.
"Why don't you watch were you'r going" I said with a sarcastic tone in my voice.
"What did you say you little" Jett was picking me up by the collar of my shirt. He was pulling his fist back and was ready to hit me sguare in the jaw.
"Put him down Jett, I don't have time for this" Kendall was walking out of the store with Wayne-Wayne next to him.
"Your lucky punk" Jett let go off me and I fell back down on the ground. Jett walked passed me, I saw him give me the finger then walk away. Wayne-Wayne walked passed me next earning a flinch from me when he pretended to kick me.
Kendall walked passed me not even sparing a seconed glance at me. I put my backpack back on and started to walk away.
"Sorry Logie" I heard in a small whisper. I turned around and watched as the other three walked away from me. I was shocked when Kendall turned his head and looked over his shoulder a me. He turned around and continued walking with his head hung low.
There is now way, did Kendall just apologize to me I thought maby he isn't that bad.
I hope this came out as good as the first chapter did. Please leave any riew you want, and if you have any ideas, likes or dislikes about the story you can tell me in a review.