Disclaimer-Not mine. End of.I'm posting this early because I go on holiday tomorrow and I'll feel guilty otherwise :D
Dear James
I know that there is very little chance in you reading this, the unfortunate truth is that you will most likely be dead by the time this letter is finished and for that I am sorry. I only write this in the hope that you will see the reason behind what I have done.I was not tortured nor was the information forced from my lips with a knife or a wand; I did this out of choice, a choice that I do not regret.I don't expect you to understand why I betrayed you but the truth is that I don't see it as a betrayal. I see it as keeping my best interests at heart. Some people are born to protect and be brave - like you James, you are a true Gryffindor. Then there are people like me, our primary purpose in life is to survive. It's a basic instinct - to adapt. I was never meant for Gryffindor. I don't really know what house I was meant for but I know for sure that it's not the one I was placed in. As you try to make sense of what I am saying I beg of you - please know why I did and Sirius were always the popular boys, the ones that every girl wanted. I watched as you chased after Lily and as girls chased after Sirius. I even saw them go after Remus on occasion. That is the thing though, I only watched. I know that Remus tried but I was never one of you, was I? I was never really a Marauder; the only person that knew that was Sirius so I suppose I should thank him for something. Because of him I never got too attached to the group, if I did then I doubt that I could have done this. I always felt like an outsider within the group I helped found, despite trying my best I was never good enough for you. I'm not good looking and I was never clever like you three. So consider this payback for all those years of been used as something to make yourselves feel better. I tried to comfort you when Lily turned you down, I looked after Remus after each full moon and not once did I snitch on Sirius and his many exploits. I don't hate you James. I don't even dislike you; I just have to put myself first. So consider this you repaying your debt to me and doing what you were born to do. Protect. In doing this you are saving me and I am securing you a worthy death.
Consider this an apology.
Peter