Authors Note: I have been writing more stories lately because of A) been really stressed and writing makes me feel better and B) I love to... but i have a little less time to do updates (only for next month or so) I plan on updating stories more frequently but here is the catch. updates will come quicker to the stories with MORE reviews on newest chapter i post. I hate to do it this way but its just easier for me to keep up. (just for next month or so.) so please review and enjoy :)

-Jokersmiles:)

"I love you Shizu-chan."

Shizuo's gaze from me didn't falter, I watched his eyes slightly widen, but only for a mere second before then returned to their unreadable expression. What was he thinking? The main thing about Shizuo that I could never understand...his decision making. He was always so easy to read until it came to his actions. I could never fully predict what he would do...but that was what made him worth messing with.

"Izaya."

Finally he speaks, I was getting worried for a minute. His voice held seriousness, a strict but sincere voice I have never heard from him.

"Yeah?" I couldn't look at him as he held my wrists in his grasp. I couldn't looks at him if he stared at me with those eyes, not when they were looking at me like that. I felt fingers slip under my chin forcing my gaze to his brown eyed stare.

"Look at me...you can't just say something like that and look away from me." I watched his intense eyes stare at me unmoving and unfaultering.

"I-I-" For the first I was at a lost for words. Me, Izaya Orihara, speachless before him.

"This is the first time I ever seen you without a comeback for me. Its too weird." Shizuo laughed. He lowered his face closer to me, with each second I could smell more of him with each inch he got.

"Why have you been avoiding me?"

"You should know that by now." Shizuo said as lifting me up off the ground on to my feet then pulling me into his arms.

"What? Thats not-"

"We are going to the Shinra to get these checked out." Without another word he pulled me down the streets of Ikebukuro to Shinra and Celty's home. We didn't speak, we just walked down the pavement with him pulling me along the path to our destination.

After knocking on the door, Shinra opened to door and looked at us with a surprised expression. "Ah Shizuo, Izaya what are you-Wait did you guys hurt each other again?"

"Not exactly, just take a look at his arms and fix him up." Shizuo pushed me forward to Shinra who immediatly grasped my arms looking at my wrists. He studied them, and lifted a finger who lifted his glasses up slightly while looking at me.

"They're going to need stitches. Come with me." Shinra led me to the back where his medical supplies were. After a few painful minutes of a needle jabbing through my skin my wrists were bound in gauze.

"If they begin to hurt in the night just take some pain medication and it should feel better." Shinra informed me.

"No problem." I replied heading out the door with Shizuo following behind me.

Deciding to break the ice I spoke up. "So, what did you talk with Celty about?"

"We didn't really talk too much, she was just asking me some questions." Shizuo replied as liting a cigarette on the end of his lips. More silence striked my ears. Where were we going I didn't even know anymore, nor did I care. "I avoided you because I was afraid." What?

"Afraid? Why?"

"I was afraid of what I felt for you. I don't remember when, but I grew afraid of harming you if I saw you. If I saw you I was afraid if I hurt you because I didn't want to harm that make sense? I just...don't want to hurt you anymore." Shizuo pushed me slowly against a wall burying his face in the crook of my neck. His warm breath cascaded across my skin, his breathing grew heavy and slow. "Don't try and kill yourself." He whispered. "I need you alive." With that answer he kissed my neck leaving me in his grasp.

Authors Note: pretty much if you haven't read above authors note i would recommend to do so :)