this is gotta be the shortest fic I've ever written, the chapters I mean...once again I'm gonna put the blame on word. I swear I thought it was longer. oh well...

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I wasn't wrong when I said Steve would be an amazing father. They way he looks at Elisa, the way he holds her close to his chest, the way he speaks to her as if she can understand him. That was more than enough to prove to me how much he loved her.

"You want something to drink?" I ask him, slightly distracted by his goofy smile at our daughter.

"No, actually…" he puts Elisa back into her crib and walks a little closer to me, hands in his pockets. "I was wondering if could talk for a minute?"

"Oh yeah, sure."

We step out into the living room, he sits on the couch and I do the same next to him. The way he plays with his hand on his lap shows me how nervous he is; I never thought I'd see the day Steve would be nervous while talking to me. I always thought I was the one freaking out while being around him.

"There's something…" he whispered. "I've been thinking about this for a while, and I just haven't found the right time to do this."

"Steve, you're scaring me," I said. He was seriously scaring me. This wasn't the same Steve McGarrett I know, this was so unlike him.

"Kono, this feels right to me. All of this." He looked like he was talking to himself rather than to me. "I've been thinking about us for a while, even before Elisa was born. I want to move forward, I want us to be something more…"

Wait. Is he really…

"Wait," I stop him suddenly, because this conversation is all too familiar. "Have you been talking to Danny?"

He frowns, not really understanding the direction this conversation was going.

"Well yeah, but…"

"Did he ask you to do this?"

"No!"

"Because this sounds strangely like this conversation I had with him."

"I did talk to him but he didn't…"

"I cannot believe this," I say, a little too loud but seriously annoyed. Of all the ways I pictured Steve proposing to me, this was definitely not the right way.

"I'm not doing this because Danny told me to," he explained "I did talk to him, and he did say you want to move forward but…"

"I cannot believe HIM!" I step away from Steve, because seriously I don't know what to think. I'm not sure whether this was his idea, or if Danny pushed him to ask me to marry him because I wanted to.

"Kono, I've been thinking about this way before Danny ever mentioned it. I just never found the right time to actually do it," he holds my hand. And God I'm so confused right now because this is what I've been dreaming of for months but I don't know if it feels right. Does it feel right?

"I'm sorry… I just, I can't do this right now," I speak and the heartbroken look on Steve's face makes me wanna cry. "I want this Steve, I really do. But I don't want to feel as if you wouldn't do it unless someone convinced you to, you know what I mean?"

"Danny was just…"

"I know," I caress his check softly and he leans in a little, feeling the warmth of my palm. "But I'm gonna have to…"

"Don't say no," he interrupts me, almost begging. "Just think about it for a little bit. Take all the time you need, just don't say no."

He puts his hand in his pocket and pulls out a small, blue velvet box. I catch my breath for a moment, already sensing what is in it. He puts it in my open hand and I hold on tight to it.

"Keep it," he whispers. "Just let me know when you're ready, okay? I'll see you in the morning."

He drops a soft kiss on my lips before standing up and making his way to the door. I open the box once he's out, because I know my emotions will go wild and I've cried so many times I already feel embarrassed from him seeing me tearing up again. Inside there's a beautiful single diamond ring, simple but breathe taking.

And I sob and cry until I have no more tears left because I felt I was making a mistake once again.

TBC

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