Roque was incredulous. "HER name?"

Clay wasn't surprised to hear a woman's name. After all, look at his past.

Pooch was taken aback though. At worst he thought perhaps the brother of one of Carlos' old flames or some other male relative but not an actual ex. After all, he doesn't date the crazy ones like Clay does.

Jensen just sat there waiting for once, but once it was clear that Cougar was having trouble continuing-or didn't want to continue-Jensen spoke up. "I remember that name. She was the one you dated right before I joined this unit. No wait. You had actually broken up with her before that but the last leave before I joined, she tried to get you back."

Cougar nodded. "Si. I had decided to stop dating due to our type of work. Seriously dating anyway. She was trying to convince me that she could handle this kind of life. Pero I told her no. I…I just didn't feel that way about her even if I was willing to give it a chance."

Jensen nodded, knowing that if Cougar had actually truly felt something more for that woman, he would have found a way to make it work. Which Jensen is glad he didn't because then Jensen would be sitting here, heartbroken and holding a torch for an untouchable man…which would have driven him insane. So much so that he just knew he'd never be able to stay in the same unit with him. Which is why Jensen didn't even like contemplating what would have happened if Cougar hadn't loved him back because first, Cougar has his heart and no one else could ever satisfy Jensen and second, the Losers is the most awesome unit he's ever been a part of and he wouldn't be able to work with and for anyone else. Even if his unit members all have their strange quirks, doesn't everybody? Although, granted, not everyone's quirks can get them killed.

Not that it matters anyway because COUGAR IS HIS!

Roque wasn't sure what was going on. "Okay. So you dumped her and she didn't accept it well. That's no reason for her to come here, so far from her home, to mess with our weapons and to leave a feather that will trigger a beastlike reaction from you. I mean, Cougar, you looked like a Lycan about to turn with the growling and the ferociousness on your face." Roque feels a bit of awe. "It was awesome man."

Jensen would be in awe of Roque knowing what a Lycan is let alone using a simile that's fairly correct, if not for the fact that right now, he's focused on Cougar and the story he's telling…or not telling.

Clay though had no problem teasing Roque. "A Lycan Roque? Seriously?"

Pooch joins in slightly, still paying most of his attention to Cougar and Jensen. "Yeah Clay. They've got those claws you know? He's envious. Although, I'm surprised he's not a Wolverine fan. BAM! Now those claws…" Pooch chuckles a little before refocusing fully on Jensen and Cougar.

Jensen's worry and concern show clearly when he doesn't even react to the Lycan/Wolverine discussion. "Carlos…why is she here? What is with the feather?"

Cougar breathes in deep. He doesn't like being the center of attention, the one who speaks while all the others listen. He's used to grunting and tilting his head and for the others to automatically know what he means without a word. Although he will utter a single word upon occasion, when needed…maybe two. But this time, Cougar knows is different. If he doesn't tell them everything, they won't understand how serious this is. They must not underestimate her, like he did.

"Vanga's…" Cougar began only to have Clay interrupt him.

"Vanga." Clay scratched his chin. "Isn't that the name of a bird?" Clay wasn't sure but he once dated-well, what he calls dating-a woman who had a thing for birds…and beefcake bikers who smuggle weapons.

Cougar nodded. "Si. Her Mama had a thing for birds. Their house was covered in paintings, tapestries and knick-knacks of the creatures."

Jensen tries to not show his jealousy at the fact that Cougar knows what her house looks like and instead focuses on what he's saying about Vanga herself.

Cougar looks to Jensen, knowing how Jensen would have taken that last statement. "Our families lived a few houses away from each other growing up."

Jensen knew there was a lot more that Cougar wasn't saying, and that he wouldn't say. After all, it hurt Cougar greatly to speak of his family…and the fact that they were killed when he was younger and that that event changed him so greatly and still haunted him to this day. So Jensen just nodded, letting Cougar know that he didn't have to go any further, and loved his boyfriend so much more that Cougar would even bother to try to explain, knowing that he would be jealous…whether or not it was warranted, which, between the two of them, it never is. They both had complete faith in the other and in their relationship.

Cougar moved on, not wanting to rehash those other memories that were being triggered. "She names all her daughters after birds. With Vanga, she had cravings for blueberries and the color blue just seemed to relax her baby in the womb so much that she named her daughter Vanga, after the bird with the vibrant blue feathers." Cougar looked at the feather in Jensen's hand and growled. "And ever since we were young, the indigo feather has always been Vanga's calling card. Whether for a fiesta invitation or…something else, it's how I know that she is the one who left it."

Jensen is trying to understand, truly he is, especially since Cougar is so serious about this but he must be missing something. "Okay. Carlos. I understand that you know it was her that was here. But…Baby, why did you react the way you did?"

Three sets of eyebrows raised at that for the others had never heard Jensen call Cougar "Baby" outside of the bedroom. When Jensen and Cougar were inside the bedroom though they heard it a lot because Jensen did tend to scream very loudly, loud enough even if the others were on another level of the house entirely-which they had learned was best shortly after Jensen and Cougar first got together.

Cougar gnashed his teeth together, wanting to explain but not wanting to go too much into detail and traumatizing Jensen with his past yet again. "Jake, amor…"

More raised eyebrows. Clay, Roque and Pooch weren't used to being privy to such an intimate conversation between their two unit members. At least, not while on a mission. On leave was another story, especially since they tended to congregate at Jensen's sister's house before going their separate ways.

Cougar breathed in deep before continuing, "Vanga hasn't had an easy past either and when I started dating her after being away for a while I didn't realize all of what had happened to her, not then anyway. But when I knew I couldn't date her anymore, not with my lifestyle, and I broke up with her, some things happened and she became a patient at a mental wellness center. I did not know this. No one told me then."

"She had been fine; the wellness center had helped her deal with her emotions. She even seemed okay when she attempted to get me to get back with her that time on leave but I told her that there was never a chance that we would be together. At the time she seemed to accept what I told her." Cougar rubbed his thumbs against the frame before carrying on, as if trying to wring the stress and worry out of himself that way.

"Then you joined the unit Jake. And I never looked back. I knew that you were the one for me, even if you could never feel the same way for me. So on that next leave, went I went back to visit my friend, Antonio, Vanga's brother, I wasn't worried about seeing her, thinking that she had moved on. Her brother too thought she was officially better and wouldn't need any more help or therapy and wasn't worried about my visit either." Cougar looked at Jensen before looking back down at his hands.

Cougar shook his head before continuing, "So I visited them and everything seemed fine. Until she tried yet again to convince me to get back with her, to make her my wife and for us to live our lives together-while I was on leave. I couldn't believe she was trying this again. She had seemed to accept my rejection and understood that I didn't feel that way about her but yet…I suppose she didn't if she was asking me to take her back yet again."

Cougar looked at Jake and stared into his eyes. "Jake, I knew that I loved you and that there could be no one else for me. Even if you didn't feel the same for me, I knew that I could live my life alone, being a soldier until the day I died. But I wouldn't lie to her when she asked if there was someone else."

Jensen shook his head. "Of course not Carlos; you never lie. Unless we're on a mission and it's to the baddies. But you'd never lie to anyone else. I know that."

Cougar nods. "So I told her how I felt about you-I didn't use your name or anything like that, I wanted you to be the first to know if I was to every tell anyone but still, I did describe you-and told her that even if you never felt the same for me, I'd never be able to love anyone else like I loved you so I wasn't even going to try. She seemed okay; she just nodded. I finished my visit and then went back to my hotel room. I had left the hotel the next day for a lunch with Antonio when apparently an incident happened between her and my hotel room, her leaving one of her feathers behind."

Cougar paused a moment before continuing, "Antonio was with me when I went back up to the hotel room. He saw the feather and he knew. That's when I found out that Vanga…well, she had some trauma in her past that she never properly got over and while we were dating, she must have become obsessed with me. Antonio thought that all of that was over after her stay at the center but with my return and complete denial of her, he knew she must have been faking it, waiting and hoping for the day when she could get me back."

Cougar looks at Jensen imploringly. "Jake, I knew none of this until that leave when I confessed my feelings for you to her. I didn't realize how she would react and I didn't consider her to be a danger. I promise you that. We did everything we could to find her but apparently she had another mental breakdown and went missing. I helped Antonio look everywhere we could think of but she didn't turn up. I had to get back from leave but I made sure to keep an eye out for her, just in case."

Cougar scooted even closer to Jensen, practically in Jensen's lap, and finished his tale. "And I have gotten things from her. Letters, packages…all including her calling card. All taunting me with you. Somehow, she knew that it was you and not someone else. But she never acted upon her threats. I don't know if it's because she knew we weren't truly together yet or what but…when we did finally get together, her packages and letters changed. Instead of taunting me with you, she began threatening your life…and the life of our daughter. She thinks Ana is our daughter."

Jensen smiled at Cougar's use of the word 'finally' when speaking of when they got together but when he heard that Vanga thought Ana was their daughter, he had to speak up. "She's THREATENING Ana? But Ana's not our daughter. And if she's been spying on you, on us, she'd know this. Hell, Ana's mere age should make it clear."

Pooch helped Cougar with this. "Yeah but J-Man, she's crazy. In her mind, there's no telling how time passes for her or what's capable of happening in her world or…or anything."

Cougar nodded before gripping Jensen's hand in his own that wasn't holding the picture frame. "Pooch is right Jake. She thinks Ana is OUR daughter."

Jensen nodded. "Yeah Carlos, you just said that."

Cougar shakes his head. "No amor. She thinks…she thinks you gave me a daughter."

Jensen remains quiet for about five seconds before he explodes. "WHAT? She thinks that Ana is OUR DAUGHTER."

Cougar nods.

"And not by adoption or surrogacy but from ME?"

Cougar nods again.

"She thinks that my body could give birth to your daughter?"

Cougar nods again. "It would appear so."

Jensen's outraged and amazed. "That's one of the craziest things I've ever heard."

Clay raises his eyebrows because he knows they've ALL heard crazier shit but he knows Jensen's having a moment so he keeps quiet.

"She thinks that I'd be able to let my body go to hell and back to give you a child and that I'd just pop it out willy-nilly, easy peasy?" Jensen is now pacing around the ramshackle couch looking back and forth between Cougar and their ruined picture of them and Ana. "Which, don't get me wrong Baby I would. If I could give you a daughter I would in a heartbeat…or 9 months, whichever works. But that's simply NOT possible so for her to even think that…"

Jensen breaths in and out, trying to control his rampant breathing, before what should have been more important in the first place seems to hit him. "Wait a minute. Then…" Jensen's eyes widen. "We have to get Ana protection. We have to warn my sister. We have to-"

Roque interrupts, "Easy there Jensen."

Pooch nods, "Yeah J. We got this. We'll make sure they're safe. Right now though, we need to find her before she tries something with you. She's here J. Remember? Not there. She was in this house a few hours ago."

Clay agrees. "That's right Jensen. Right now, we need to focus on finding her." Clay looks at Cougar before continuing. "And finding out everything she's capable of. Cougar?"