Chapter 6
Harry POV
Walking up to the house I could smell dinner. I took a deep breath in.
'Mmmm, smells good.' I muttered under my breath. As I got to the porch the curtains were hanging in front of the glass doors so I couldn't see in. I opened the door and walked in on everybody eating. They all stopped and stared at me. I scanned the room and came across to Lydia, she didn't have a plate at her mat, 'mustn't be hungry,' I thought to myself. She looked pale and thin, her eyes were red from crying and she had bags under them from the loss of sleep. I wandered into the kitchen which was joined next to the dining room and dished myself something up, I felt everybody's eyes still stare at me as I helped myself. 'Stuff this I'm eating this in the living room,' I thought to myself to avoid the awkward mood. I wondered out of the kitchen and dining room straight to the living room and ate my dinner.
Lydia POV
It had been our second week three more weeks left and we will be going home. I had been feeling a lot better my sprained ankle was fine and so was my bruised rib. The only thing that wasn't fixed was the situation between Bexy me and Harry. I sent Bexy a text as seeming she kept avoiding me and ignoring me.
-Lyds Price 3:17 PM
Bex, come on stop ignoring me, why can't you see that I'm sorry for what I said? I didn't mean any of it, I'm tired. I know I keep using that excuse but you gotta believe me! Xx
I had no reply back, I knew she read it but didn't want to talk. So I sent her a note like Harry's.
Bex, please talk to me. I have tried so many other ways of communication to sort this out but you keep ignoring my efforts! Can't you tell I'm sorry? If you can't then I don't understand how because you have seen me bust a gut for us to sort this out. Why won't you let me have a chance? I don't want to lose you as a best friend or as a sister, please, please talk to me. I love you Rebecca Holder. Xxx
I found the note later that evening ripped up in the bin. I gave up and went to my room; it was the only place I felt where I could go without being judged. Everyone was angry at me except Louis, he was heartbroken at what I said, every time he saw me his eyes would well up, he would give me a faint smile and walk away. I came to my door, my room was exactly like Bexy's my name on mirrors and doors but in a silver colour, and I had a sparkly floral wall paper with a charcoal background and the walls were painted cream (it used to be blue and cream but I wanted a changed whereas Bexy loved hers too much to change.) I entered my room and fell onto my bed my hand felt two bits of paper on the bed. I got up and look at them they said nothing on it so I opened the first one.
Lydia I got your note. Yeah you were right I didn't want to see you. Yeah you were right again you were being selfish and insensitive. You hurt everyone Lyds. I love you I do but, it just hurt that you accused me for nearly killing you. You know I didn't jump in the swimming pool with you on purpose. You might have not meant it but it still hurt and why would you even say something like that? I need to know the truth, meet me down at the beach at 10PM don't bring Louis though, we nearly had a fall out about you last week.
Harry xxx
I reached for the other one.
I don't know what to say Lyds, you really hurt me. I have never been so hurt by you in my life. Yeah we have had our fall outs but that's what best mates do now and then but, never like this. I might have been a bit harsh towards you but you crossed the line totally. I want to forgive you but I don't know if I should at the moment. I know you are sorry and you want to sort it out but, I'm not in a good place to deal with all this, there are more important things that I need to deal with. Come into my room at 10:30PM tonight we can sort everything out then.
Bexy xxx
Both of the notes really hit me. They both hurt me deep inside. I was glad they were both willing to sort everything out but, I was worried if was ever going to be sorted out. I laid there staring at the note, my eyes started to close, I drifted off into a sleep.
I suddenly woke up a few hours later; I quickly reached for my bedside clock to check the time. 9:58 PM it flashed.
'Shit!' I exclaimed. I was meant to be meeting Harry in two minutes! I rushed over to my wardrobe and looked for something decent to wear I pick out my favourite light blue denim Hollister shorts with blue and white heart for the lining of the pockets, they had a worn out distressed look. Then I grabbed a blue and white striped checkered Hollister top I was panicking around looking for a vest top to shove on underneath but time was ticking and I gave up I picked up a navy blue bikini and put it on then, shoving on the shirt. I put my hair up in a messy bun and added concealer to the blemishes on my face, I looked terrible without make-up but, I was in a rush. I slipped on my navy Hollister flip-flops with white seagulls all over and quietly creped out. When I left my room it was 10:03PM so everyone would be in their rooms or in the slouch room so no one would even notice me gone. As I was coming to the top of my gigantic staircase I heard someone whisper my name.
'Lydia!' The voice whispered. I froze, I slowly turned round to find Louis leaning against the rail looking at me confused. 'Where are you going?' He asked.
'Down to the beach, I need some air.' I replied trying to cover up the truth. It wasn't working he knows me to well.
'Really? At this time? In the dark?' He asked again sarcastically. I nodded not looking into his eyes. 'Harry's not about in the house and the last time I spoke to him he said to me that he was going for a swim, you two going to meet up?'
'No, I told you I'm going for some air now please leave me I feel dizzy.' I said harshly, as I scurried down the staircase outside. When I got out onto the porch the moon was in the middle of the midnight sky, there were loads of piercing white stars scattering around the moon, like it was the main star of the show. I saw a figure standing still down by the sea not moving at all, the shape of the figure was easy to tell it was Harry by the outline of his curly hair. I slowly walked down towards him enjoying the peace and quiet, all I could hear was the sound of the waves washing up onto the shoreline.
'Psssst, Lydia!' A voice called again. 'Lydia!'
'What Louis?' I whispered back irritated, why wouldn't he let me be?
'Spray this on, it's his favourite perfume that you have.' He threw down on of my favourite type of perfume, Harajuku by Gwen Stefani, it was Baby, I sprayed some on and put the doll shaped bottle on the floor next to a deck chair and carried on wandering down towards Harry, my heart beating faster the nearer I got.
I stood next to him look at the moon. 'Wow.' I whispered gazing into the moon deeper. He looked down at me and smirked then looked back up.
'Even when you don't think about what to wear you still look beautiful.' Harry admitted out of the blue. He looked down at me again, I looked up and joined him, I blushed and turned my head away towards the moon again. I felt my cheeks burning up, they were slightly pink. Harry laughed. He slowly entwined his hand with mine and lead me over to a tree trunk which had fell over from a storm which struck a year ago. I pulled myself up on the log having a better view of the whole beach, Harry came in front of me smiling. He moved some loose bits of hair out of my face running his hands down my arms and stopping at my waist where he rested them. We looked deep into each other's eyes, I had so much to say but, the words wouldn't come out.
Harry POV
I looked in her eyes. They were beautiful, different, unique. Ice blue, not many girls had that and if they did they wouldn't look as good as Lydia's did. I breathed in her perfume, it was my favourite. She looked so beautiful and yet she doesn't realize it! It kills me. If only she could see what I could see. I had so much to tell her, how sorry I was, how I over reacted, how much I loved her and much more! But, the words were stuck, in my head. It was like my brain and my mouth wasn't connected anymore. For the first time Lydia has made me speechless, she has never done that before.
Come on you stupid, just say it! She'll understand this is Lydia for gods sake! She is kind natured she'll forgive you, just say it! I thought to myself. I took a deep breath in and I was about to speak when Lydia spoke.
'I, don't…..think it's gonna work Harry.' She spilled looking straight down at the ground. My heart felt crushed, what? I thought, stop thinking things and say them you idiot! I thought again.
'I can't ever forgive myself of what I said in my room to Bexy, and seeing how crushed you were made me think that I don't wanna hurt you like that again, not saying I was going to but the slightest thing could upset you and I would be devastated if I hurt you again.' A tear rolled down from her face, I held her hands and squeezed them. 'Like you said in the note, I was being selfish, I have hurt so many people's feelings already, I don't wanna kill our relationship anymore Harry, I'm sorry, I love you Harry Edward Styles.' She sobbed. She hopped down from the log and started to walk off. Go get her! You're gonna lose her! I thought to myself. I raced up to her pulling her back by the hand.
'Wait.' I gasped. 'Don't leave me, I was going to apologize for overreacting. You're hurting me now by leaving me.'
'I'm nothing Harry!' She spat. More tears came down her face. 'You can get any girl with the snap of your fingers, anyone you want, girls older than me, more prettier than me, bigger boobs! Why hang on for me?' She asked between sobs.
'Because I love you Lydia, I do I love you always have always will. When we first met at Louis' I couldn't help but stare, you have stolen my heart Lydia, please we can sort all of this out.' Tears were streaming from my eyes. She shook her head her hand covered her mouth and she ran off down to the beach hut crying as she went. 'Lydia, come back!' I yelled. 'Please.' I muttered. I picked up a stone and threw it into the sea, I sat down on the beach and watched and the water came in.