"Darling, are you sure?" Jonathan wasn't sure this was a good idea, one baby was hard enough especially since Emma was still so young

"We can't just throw this child to the wind, and clearly she's been given to us for a reason so we're going to take her home and be her caregivers," Jennifer said picking up Bailey and walking out the door

Jonathan was angry that she had made this decision without him but he couldn't let the doctor see him leave with Emma angrily so he picked up her carrier, thanked the doctor and left to join his wife in the waiting room.

"We should really talk about this," He whispered quietly to her trying not to cause a scene or wake up both babies

"Darling, this isn't something that can be up for discussion," She was surprised at the fact he would even question her decision, she assumed that since this was a baby and he knew what it was like to be an orphan, he'd jump at the chance to save a little life

He shook his head angrily and went to pull the car around, leaving both babies with her

"I hope Daddy calms down because Mama is in no mood," She muttered struggling with Bailey her arm and Emma in her carrier

Jonathan came back about 10 minutes even madder than when he'd left, he picked up Emma's carrier with a word leaving Jennifer standing back with Bailey. She was stunned at the level of rage and become angry when he started to jostle the carrier

"Give me the baby!" Jennifer said trying to take the carrier from him without dropping Bailey

"I can carry own my daughter!" he growled

"You're going to drop her!"

"Look Don't tell me how to carry my kid!"

"Jonathan, you're going to give her brain damage!" She gave one final yank on the carrier and landed on her ass on the pavement with thud and both babies wailing in her lap

"Darling, are you alright?" Jonathan's anger dissipated the moment she hit the pavement, suddenly people began gathering around them wondering if Jonathan had really pushed this woman with the two babies

"I'm fine," She said through gritted teeth, "take the babies" he picked up both girls and she peeled herself off the ground but not before answering a dozen questions from the crowd around her, whether she wanted them to call the police and report her husband for abuse, and whether she should go back into the hospital to get checked out, she thought about briefly getting the girls checked but they seemed to be alright, the carrier had acted as a cushion for both of the

The ride home was silent, Jonathan knew he was in trouble and he tried to hold her hand but she had Bailey her lap and her other hand was holding onto Emma's pacifier in the backseat her arm straining in between the seats.

He pulled into the front of the house and got out of the car, she started to get angry thinking he was just going to leave her to struggle with two babies until he was walking over to the passenger side backseat and opening the door pulling out Emma's carrier, leaving Jennifer to handle the other baby

They walked into the house in angry silence, Jonathan in front of her, not even looking in her direction, whatever he was furious about before had built up again.

In their marriage, they had never really fought a few arguments here and there but never where they didn't make up right after, this would be a true testament to their bond

Or the Down fall.

Jonathan put Emma in her playpen by the fire place and Jennifer wasn't sure whether to put Bailey beside her just in case Jonathan blew his stack over a stranger baby in his daughter's playpen but she decided she didn't care and put the baby down.

"What are you so angry about?" She broke the silence

"You made this decision without any consideration!" He tried not to yell but his fury was written all over his face

"Consideration for who? An infant who was left out in the cold?" She searched his blue eyes

"How about for your husband? You just assumed that I would be on board for this, to take on the added responsibility of another child that isn't ours,"

"Why are you fighting this? You of all people know it's like to grow up without a family, why don't you want to give this baby an opportunity you never had?" She hoped he would come to his senses

"It's different now, the times are different and our lives are different, we don't need this!" He yelled waking up both girls

"See what've you done!" they shouted in unison and picked up the girls

"I don't understand, you wanted a family, I gave you a daughter, you've always talked about having another baby, we have another baby what's the problem" She said over Bailey wailing

"Because you just went ahead and said we'd take her without any thought of how it would affect Emma or anyone else, we don't have the time or energy to take on another baby!"

"Jonathan, This child was sent to us! We need to assume responsibility for her," Jennifer said walking up the stairs, Jonathan trailed behind her

They managed to stop arguing long enough to put the girls in Emma's crib, Jonathan didn't object because they weren't set up for another baby which was another point he made as they put the kids to bed.

"We can always get another crib," She said kissing Emma's head and walking out the door

"That's not the point, it's not about the money it's about how we aren't ready to take this on, we barely survived Emma's arrival and now you want the responsibility of another infant" He sat down on the bed pulling off his shoes

"What do you mean barely survived Emma's arrival," She stopped pulling the sweater over her head ,"We did pretty well considering,"

"Did you happen to forget that you wanted to terminate six weeks in," He knew he was hitting below the belt but he need to make her understand she was not ready to take on another baby

"That's not fair! And I thought we agreed never to speak about that again, Bailey has nothing to do with that," She said finally pulling off her sweater

"She does, I think you are taking on her for a different reason than what you think" He walked into the closet

"And what reason is that, Darling?" She narrowed her grey eyes at his back and followed him

"I think you are trying to replace what you've lost," He said going into the bathroom and shutting the door

He came out 10 minutes later to find her leaning against the door wearing his favorite night shirt, the one that showed off her long legs and made him crazy

"So what am I trying to replace what I've lost?" She asked with a brush in her hand

"I think you're trying to replace Sophie with Bailey and that you aren't keeping her for the right reasons," He said walking past her to get into the bed

"I can't even believe you would say that to me, I'm not trying to replace one baby with another, I couldn't!" She was so hurt and angry that he would even think that

"Then why are you so insistent on keeping this child?" He said up and saw the tears fall out of her eyes, he knew he'd gone too far and that there was no going back from it

"I think she's worth it! She's a child, who's been thrown away and I will not do that again to her and the fact that you are so willing to just toss aside a child like you were, makes me doubt everything I've ever known about you" She walked past the bed and to the door, she flung the brush in her hand across the room and didn't care that it bounced off the window and spider cracked it

"Where are you going?" He asked

"I can't be around you, Not right now, not until you start acting like yourself again and see what an arrogant jackass you are being" She slipped into the hallway and sobbed against the door

ONE YEAR LATER…

London England

She didn't want to do it but When a job opportunity to work at a prestigious UK magazine, She jumped at the chance, her home wasn't hers anymore. Any love that had existed between them was long gone and She chose to leave with the girls rather than let him walk out on her. At first when the opportunity come up, she thought about talking it over with him but by then they were sleeping in separate bedrooms and only speaking when it was absolutely necessary. It wasn't all about Bailey, it was about equal partnership and the fact that things weren't always idyllic, She'd always let him take the reins and make decisions for both of them and because she changed the game, he wasn't happy and she couldn't understand why.

She'd made the decision to take both girls with her, he didn't care about Bailey, he barely acknowledged her and When it came to Emma, he'd distanced himself so much from her as well, she was basically raising the girls alone anyway. What was the point of sticking around when He didn't want to be there as much as she did?

She couldn't hate him as much as she wanted too, she only felt sadness, tremendous sadness for what they'd once had and lost. She longed to feel his arms around her and to feel his breath on her neck, and to hear him whispered he loved her over and over again.

So while he was at work, She packed all her clothes and the girls clothes, all the necessities they would need until she was settled and left, sitting outside the gate in the car that she'd ordered, she said goodbye to the life she'd once known and looked to the future , for her and her daughters.

Jennifer had rented a flat with three rooms, a living room and large kitchen she wanted a place for the girls to run around when they could and to have a happy childhood, she spent every moment making the house kid proof but also very adult chic.

It wasn't quite home but it was close enough at least until she figured out whether she wanted to stay in London.

As soon as they had gotten into the Flat and she'd started her new job, she sent word to her lawyer that He was to file for divorce on her behalf, She wanted nothing from Jonathan and insisted that she didn't need his money for child support or anything he offered, she just wanted to be free of him. He didn't fight her for custody, requesting only that his daughter be sent back to the states every other month for two weeks. Jennifer assumed it was only for two weeks because that's all he could handle and his request was only for Emma. He acted as if Bailey didn't exist.

He'd stalled for months thinking that maybe she'd change her mind but she never did and when he sent the final papers back to her, she sobbed for hours.

But After getting herself together, she realized this was a step forward.

And Dating was one of them.

At a cocktail her Editor was throwing, Jennifer felt out of place, she didn't know anyone and no one really wanted to speak to the American who out of nowhere had outshine colleagues and blown them out of the water.

She nervously drank a bottle of water and hoped that she could make an early escape to go see her girls, Emma had just started walking and Bailey was on the verge of talking and although she worked long hours, She made sure to be home early enough to give them dinner and bath.

She never of them as one biological and one ..whatever, they were both her daughters and she made sure to treat them equally .

She was shook out of her thoughts when her editor, Eli approached her. He was a tall thin man with gorgeous hair, she often teased him about his resemblance to Warren Beatty and he said she looked like Tina Louise without the beauty mark. It was a good friendship but she knew that he was hoping for more and she couldn't let herself fall again

Not when a piece of her heart still belong to Jonathan

"Having Fun?" He asked quietly

"Of course," She smiled back him, she had been clutching her glass like her life was depended on it

"Come here, I want you to meet some people," He took her elbow and guided her to a group of people where discussing the latest Parliament laws being passed. She only knew bits and pieces and felt out of place so she would give a few brief comments but mainly observed the people around her, they seemed so much more cultured than her, She'd always played the role of the socialite but ever since coming to London and being around her kids, she'd just been a regular person going to the park and shopping for food. There was little glamor in life and she appreciated every moment.

After a few more round robin questions and answers about the latest laws, the conversation turned to the latest celebrity death, Whitney Houston and Speculation of what had happened. Having lived in LA for the better part of 10 years, She knew the ins and outs like the back of her hand

Her speculation was that whatever Whitney had indigested obviously wasn't healthy and that a mix of booze and Pills caused a massive heart attack in the bathtub, her question being was there enough time to put clothes on her before the cops showed up?

Suddenly everyone began asking whether or not she'd ever met celebrities and were intrigued by the American and she was the center of attention, for a minute she forgot about her problems and everything that went along with it.

After the party, She waited until everyone had left to speak with Eli, he'd mentioned something about her contract and said it wouldn't wait until the morning

"Good Party?" He said watching her sit on the couch

"Very good, thank you for inviting me" She said smiling as he sat beside her

" Of course, you'd think I'd exclude one of my favorite people," He put his hand on her knee

"Eli, please I'm not ready.." She moved his hand off her knee

"You can't blame a guy for trying," He laughed, he had such kind eyes and she knew that he wasn't offended, "Well the reason I asked you to stay after is that I think we need to renegotiate your contact, the figure we established earlier isn't good enough"

"What? I thought you were pleased with my work," Her worst nightmare was coming true she was being fired If she had to return to LA with her tail between her legs, she'd never bounce back

"Of course I am! That's why I'm going to increase your salary it's not fitting for your work so I'm going to make it better," He smiled

And was surprised when she leaped forward and kissed him, she was surprised herself but she couldn't help herself

And Suddenly whatever flirtation had been before had succumbed to passion and lust, she couldn't unbutton his shirt fast enough and his hands swept under her skirt, there was a lot of fumbling but she didn't care

She'd missed being touched like this and His kisses were intoxicating, it was like she had no self control and she didn't care.

Jonathan probably had a play toy back in the states already.

It always came back to sex. Emotions would never play into it again and this time she have all the flings she wanted to spite him

Her mind was running wild while making love to this man she'd only known for a few months and when they were done and after Eli fell asleep, she watched his face every line every crease and wrinkle, as much as she wanted to feel more, she couldn't.

Jennifer quickly got dressed and kissed Eli's forehead, returning home to find her girls asleep in their playpen and her Nanny, Mrs. Ball asleep on her sofa with the TV running

"," She whispered so not to wake the kids "" !

"Oh Mrs. Hart!" The Older woman jumped up startled" I'm sorry I must have conked out after the girls fell asleep"

"That's fine, How were they?" She asked throwing her purse on the other chair and picking up Bailey in the playpen to put her in crib

"Very good, Emma's walking is getting better and I have a feeling Bailey's getting ready to speak more" The old woman rubbed her eyes

"That's great, well thank you," Jennifer said watching Mrs. Ball stand up and head for the door, "I'll pay you next time I promise"

"I trust you, Oh by the way you had a message from Mr. Hart asking you to call him right back, he said it was urgent,"

"Probably trying to fight for more custody, I'll call him back," She rolled her as Mrs. Ball let herself out.

She put the girls to bed, in their different rooms she wanted them to have amazing personalities and decorated the rooms accordingly, with bright colors and lots of toys.

After taking a quick shower, She climbed into bed and pulled out her favorite book, that she had often fell asleep with, it was her most prized possession.

Her wedding album

She flipped through the pictures, remembering every moment, Jonathan standing at the end of the aisle in his Brooks brothers suit, Max beside him smiling like he carried the secrets of the world.

She remembered the look of relief on his face when she finally came down the aisle, it was a half hour after the ceremony had started and she'd been fussing with the train because it wasn't flowing out and kept bunching and then when she finally was ready, her father had stepped on her long veil and pulled it back ruining a 45 minute hairstyle that that to be fixed and her head redoused in hair spray, she remembered being so angry that this was another delay.

When it was time to finally walk down the aisle, she practically floated and she couldn't stop smiling, she never thought she'd stop smiling again.

Jennifer began to cry herself to sleep. She wanted so much for their future and it ended so badly.

After their encounter together, Eli and Jennifer become even closer, he started sending her flowers and candy with the sweetest notes and stuffed bunnies for the girls.

He wanted to become a piece of their lives and she was more than willing to let him even if she was unsure of her emotions.

One rainy afternoon, Eli came for lunch and they spend the day playing with the girls and when Emma even took her first official steps , They both cheered and kissed her chubby cheeks with glee.

Eli had never been completely comfortable around kids but Bailey and Emma made it easier, it helped that they were so young and so willing to overlook this complete stranger hanging out with their mom and when he reluctantly had to go back to the office, he kissed each of their heads and promised he'd be back with lots of surprises.

After Eli Left, Jennifer was playing on the floor with Emma in her arms, helping her identify color while Bailey bounced in her walker gleefully practicing her yelling, the door bell rang.

"Did you forget something ,Doll," She said putting Emma on her hip and walking to the door, pulling it open it revealing

Two Steely blue eyes and one rumpled Dolce and Gabbana suit

"What are you doing here?" She said recovering from nearly dropping her daughter.

"We have a major problem," Jonathan said…