Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or its characters… sadly…
I searched through the desk drawer of out bed for the hundredth time and still could find nothing but our team picture and my old headband. The one that I left when we fought in the valley with the intent to kill before I left. It had a scratch right through the symbol, which Naruto had made himself.
What the hell was that Dobe on when he said they were in this drawer? I huffed angrily and felt the tears come on again. I let them fall. I would stop crying tomorrow. I had promised Naruto that. I would try and keep the mask off as much as well. I had to live for the both of us. I knew Naruto well, everything about him. I knew that was what he would want if he could tell me himself.
I suddenly slapped my hand against my forehead. How could I be such an idiot? I should have known Naruto wouldn't put the things most important to him out in the open where everyone could find it. I dug though the drawer again, stopping at the bottom. I felt around the side, and found what I was looking for. The button that would open the false bottom. I didn't have enough energy to feel excitement.
In the compartment, there was a pile of letters with a rubber band tying them together. I picked them up and set them on the bed carefully. There was one other thing in the compartment, and it was a leather bound book. An Orange leather bound book. I picked it up and flipped it open to the first page on the inside.
Well Iruka-Sensei said it would be a good idea to start on of these. To "Compose my emotions". I guess this is dedicated to my ultimate rival, Sasuke Uchiha. It was the only person I could think of that was a "friend" to me. Iruka doesn't really count. Well Sasuke-Teme, I'm going to be writing to you from now on.
Naruto
I looked down at the end of the page, and there was writing in a different colored pen. While the last was written in blue ink and a bit sloppy, this was written I orange and was much neater. It looked like Naruto's handwriting now, and written were the words I'd heard so many times before from him. Whether it be through e-mail or official letters.
P.S. I love you
I whipped my sleeve across my tired eyes. How long has he been writing in here? Obviously a while, seeing as the handwriting on the front page looked like his in the academy. I set it back on the bed carefully, and saved it for later.
I grabbed the stack of letters and shuffled through them, finding mine. I would worry about the rest later. I opened it slowly, ready for the tears again. I've cried so much today that it wan't much of a thing anymore.
Dear Sasuke-Teme,
So… Sakura-Chan told me I should give up on you in her own way. She confessed to me, in front of everyone. I knew it was a lie, and called her out, but she kept on trying. She can be more stubborn than you sometimes. I was angry Sasuke. First of all I was angry that you weren't here. I couldn't go and talk to you about it. But telling me to give up on you? How could I give up on you? I couldn't do that even if I wanted to.
I felt vulnerable, and I just needed someone to talk to. I didn't want o write in my journal. I wanted it to be more personal. I wanted to feel like I could wrap it up and send it to you any minute I wanted to. But I know you wouldn't even bother opening it if I did. I know I shouldn't love you, but I do. I love you so much it hurts Sasuke! I want you to know I've never stopped trying to bring you back. I never will. You mean too much to me. You are my other half. I can't breathe while you're gone. Ever since as long as I can remember I've loved you. It hurt when you left. You left me for your brother, and he killed your entire family. Does revenge mean more to you than I ever did? I guess it does. You've proved that more than once. Even if that's true though, nothing means more to me than you.
I hate to say it, but I think I did love Sakura at one point, or at least I liked her. But when that kissed happened(You know what I'm talking about), I felt something flutter in my chest, as cheesy as that sounds. But it's true. I couldn't stay away from you. I used my "love" for Sakura to make it seem like I wasn't so in love with you. No one, not even you suspected me loving you if I was all over Sakura. But God, that was hard! Having her all over you all the fucking time made me want to rip all her perfect hair out of her head. People wondered why I was so obnoxious towards her… It got her attention off of you… But all that little kid stuff didn't matter after you left. I can't remember the last time I said something obnoxious like that to her. It is pointless since I'm not trying to fool anyone anymore. I will get you back. Even if I have to drag you back by your stupid hair. I won't give up, even if I die. I will find some way to bring you back Sasuke. If not for me, then for the people who also love you here. So many people miss you Sasuke. How can you not realize that? And I'm here, wishing you would realize how much I love you.
You need to come home Sasuke. I need you here, in Konoha where I know you're safe and that creep ooroch-snake guy can't get to you. I need you back Teme.
Your best friend,
Naruto
P.S. I love you
I sighed angrily and put the note with my other one. So similar, yet so different. If I would have come back, I probably could have had more time with him. Maybe if I hadn't left at all, he wouldn't have gone on that stupid mission. All the what-ifs I could think of right now. I looked over at the note again and smiled through my bleary eyes at the comment about Sakura.
He never really loved her. He had always loved me. I had strong feelings for the idiot all the way back at the academy too. When that kiss happened, I was helpless to the power, unknown by him at the time, of Naruto Uzumaki. And the fact that he didn't like Sakura at all at the time surprised me too. I glanced at the other letters and noticed that there were quite a few. I switched my gaze back on the journal then back to the letters, trying to decide which was of greater importance at the moment. The letters won, seeing as it was a direct request from Naruto that I see them delivered. I grimaced a little at the thought. I didn't want to be around people so early, but I had to fulfill his wishes.
I shuffled through them again, looking through the other names this time. I stopped at Tsunade's name. She was the closest thing Naruto had to a mom, and he had been the closest thing she had to a son. He was her week spot. After Jiraya had died, she had gotten even more close to Naruto, if possible, seeing as he was the closest thing she had to family.
I grasped her letter in my hand and made my way to Tsunade's office for the second time today, but with a completely different purpose in mind.
Well there you have it. The second chapter. Tell me what you think, reviews make my day better. Smiles!