Abused: Chapter 5

Anna came through holding a tray with two mugs full of tea and a plate of biscuits. "here this should help,just sip it slowly"he put the tray down on the coffee table handing Castiel a full warm mug of tea.

Cas accepted it,cupping it in his hands "thanks Anna, you don't have to do all this."

"Yeah I do"she sat beside him "we'll get you to the police,you've got to report this Cas,the more you keep this to yourself the more control he'll have over you."

Cas shook his head sitting back "I can't Anna,you dont know how strong he is,the mans insane,he'll probably freak out when he knows im not there"he whimpered "he's going to be so mad,what was I thinking leaving?"

"Cas...if you stayed there another night he probably would've kill you"she took a small breath "its going to be okay we'll sort this out"she said supportively.

Cas took a sip of tea and nodded trying to be optimistic but it was proving difficult with everything that he had been through.

4.5 hours later

Dean unlocked the front door to their two bedroom house casually closing the door "honey i'm home."he beamed. He frowned when he didnt immediately get an answer back.

"Castiel?" he called out,calm for now.

"CAS...ANSWER ME,WHERE ARE YOU?"he yelled now still not getting an answer. He stormed through all the rooms each and everyone one of them empty.

"no...no you SON OF A BITCH-" he panted heavily every fibre of his body burning with rage. He went into their bedroom running his hands through his hair finding a photo of the two of them on the bedside cabinet, he stared at it for a brief moment a small smile on his face as he ran his fingertips along the cas part of the picture,he gritted his teeth now his nostrils flared throwing the photo to the wall beginning the trash the room out of anger,clothes,books,more photos showering the whole room like confetti "I FUCKING HATE YOU...DON'T YOU COME BACK..YOU HEAR ME,I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN,DON'T COME BACK,don't come back"he broke down into hysterical tears,falling to the edge of the bed completely breaking now

"oh my god..what have I done?"

In situations like this where he felt like he was completely alone in the world,he turned to drink, and god dammit a drink would go down nicely right now,his face swelled up a nice crimson red as he pulled himself up off the bed hitting the bar,his only best friend for the time being.

Castiel had been asleep for hours,it was a relief that he even managed to sleep without having nightmares,I guess there was hope for him that he could come out of this at the other end,the end of hope and freedom.

Anna rang her hands through her long red hair watching as he slept on the sofa a small smile on her face, he looked so dreamy and at peace. She had missed him,they always used to have random days out shopping and going to the beach,and when he stopped coming over she wondered if maybe she had down something to upset him,now she understood,and it broke her heart. She gulped watching as he stirred "Hey sleepyhead."

Cas let out a sharp groan"Ugh...i'm sorry I didn't mean to fall asleep."

Anna smiled weakly pulling his hair back off his face"shush..its okay,you looked like you needed it,you hungry?"

Cas shook his head "but an icepack would be good"he closed his eyes feel slightly disorientated and dizzy as he tried to move.

"Right...erm don't move a muscle let me get something to patch you up."she picked herself up almost tripping up over her feet, searching for her medical kit,she took a first aid training course so she was fairly confident she knew what she was doing.

Prepping up she made her way back through "alright this is probably going to sting like a mother but,it'll help, lift up your shirt."

Cas rubbed his lips together slowly lifting up his shirt wincing at how much it hurt "okay,just get it over with."

He smiled weakly being reminded of a time when Dean took him on one of his hunts,where he got himself shot in shoulder.

"Argh...son of a fucking bitching shit,not so rough."

Dean rolled his eyes trying to pull the bullet out of him "quit being a baby,and quit fidgetting or i'll never get it out,besides thought you loved it when I played rough."he winked and smirked at him.

"Dean,not the time-"he rolled his eyes,but couldnt help but laugh.

"OH..oh got it"he dumped the bullet,dabbing his wound with disinfecant before placing a sterile piece of gauze to stop the bleeding,wrapping it up tightly "done."

Castiel looked down at Deans handy work and smiled "hmm my hero."

Dean smirked putting his arms around him "yeah well if you had listened to me and ducked you wouldn't of gotten shot."

Castiel smiled back at him running his hands through his lovers hair "hmm guess I love living on the edge,besides i've never been shot before,it was exciting."he beamed.

Dean laughed at him pulling him into a tender kiss "you're crazy,but thats why I love you".

Cas remained in his trance for another few minutes.

"Earth to Cas...you okay in there?"

Cas stared into space pain in his eyes and gulped "yeah fine."

Anna frowned putting the finishing touches to his wound and gulped looking down sadly "you were thinking about him weren't you?"

Cas shifted his eyes over towards her giving her nod"I love him Anna,despite everything he's put me through I still love him,does that make me crazy?"

Anna forced a smile at him "a little...but I suppose I understand."she said calmly.

Castiel rubbed his hands together looking to the side of as Anna finished off attending to his wounds "thanks...your like my little guardian angel"he smiled weakly.

Anna raised her eyebrows letting out a weak laugh "it's nothing."she shrugged her shoulders and sighed "you just relax,your safe here,he doesnt know where I live so he can't find you."

"Thank you Anna...I don't know what I would have done if you didn't pick up your phone."

"Anytime."

2 months later

Castiel had been living at Anna's house for 2 months now,it had taken him alot of courage to actually go out and socialise,always paranoid that Dean would come and find him, but was slowly learning to have a life,something he thought he would never get again. The scars from his several attacks still there but had faded,they were small reminders,I guess it was fates way of screwing with him, you will never forget.

Strolling down the street he let out a heavy sigh carrying under his arm a bag full of groceries which he promised he would pick up. He hummed deep purples smoke on water subconciously to himself as he made his way past his old address not even realising where he was at first. He was in his own little world as walked up the street towards Anna's house bumping into someone "AHH SHIT IM SORRY,I'm an idiot I wasn't looking what I was doing."

All the groceries went flying,which didn't help, he looked up his eyes widened as he caught the mans face "Dean-"he gulped instantly stood there frozen on the spot.

Dean stared up at Castiel "Hi Cas-"he muttered awkwardly looking down "you look good."he forced a smile.

Castiel backed himself away so tempted to just dump everything and run "I should go."he mumbled quietly walking back in the other direction.

"Cas wait...please don't walk away...i'm sorry...i'm soo sorry."

Castiel stopped pursing his lips together and just laughed "right..you're sorry."he turned to face him actually calm,a stern look on his face "Sorry's not good enough."

Dean shook his head "Cas...I'll do anything,ANYTHING to get you back, I completely fucked up I get that and I hurt you-"he choked back tears looking up at him "but I'm nothing without you."

"It's too late,you and me are over,you made that choice on your own when you used me as your chew toy"he stood there confidently now,those councilling classes were actually paying off. "I'm not the same person you knew 4 months ago,I've changed." staring back up at him he stepped back towards him "You mean nothing to me Dean,so for your own good,leave me the hell alone." with that he stormed off not even bothering to pick up the bag .

Dean frowned watching him walk off letting out a light chuckle "yeah well we'll see about that." he muttered to himself.