It was hard to hear about it. I never thought that would happen. Then again everyone told me I never tought about anyones feelings.
I really had loved him. I did, honestly. He was amazing and beautiful and just what I needed in life. I had never told him but I had already told my father about us. I kept making excusses to see my father with him because I didn't want him to get hurt. When I had talked to my father it was a long and painful discussion, if you can call it that. I told him I was gay and that I was dating someone, that I loved that someone. He was outraged. He told me that not everyone liked gays and if it got out that one of his sons was gay he would lose costomers and therefore money. He told me he would rather I date a commoner than a guy. He demanded that I break up with him or he would disown me. Knowing my father this wasn't a lie and so I complied.
That is the biggest regret I have. The other one is how I broke up with him. I was a very observant character so I had noticed the signs of a crush coming from the silent giant. I knew he liked me and I used it to my advantage. When everyone left the club room that day and my love went to the bathroom I cornered the giant. I told him that we broke up because I liked him. For lack of a better word, I seduced him. He kissed me and we knocked something off a table making it crash. The kiss got deeper and full of more passion. I accedently let a moan slip by and that's when the door opened. I knew who it was straight away and immediately regretted what I was doing. I was going to explain it to him but he left.
Weeks later he confronted me about it. I told him that I had been cheating on him and that I had never really loved him. It broke my heart when I saw his face so full of misery. I had to look away so I wouldn't break down. He left and disappeared for weeks. He wouldn't see anyone. His mirror got depressed and angry, our idiot king looked concerned, the scholarship student looked upset, the teen-turned-kid was constintly crying about the absence, and the giant was enraged with what I had done. Granted everyone was angry with me but he was mad that I had used him.
I never thought this would happen though. I thought that after a few weeks he would come back to school and we could all move on. I was never expecting his mirror to burst into the room with a leather bound black book and tears streaming down his face.
I felt heartless. Hell I guess I am, just like everyone said. I'm an idiot for listening to my dad and not my heart. All I want is my angel back so that we can laugh and talk and just be together. I never will be now though. I will never see him again. He's dead and I caused it. Even if I did die I wouldn't be able to see him. I'm sure he's in heaven and I would be sent straight to hell. I guess I have o live the rest of my life in the scorn and hatred of my once friends as punishment. I promise though that somehow I will be able to tell him that I love him.
Because I do love him... Forever and Always.