If anyone reads this...I love you. I absolutely love you. XDD Again, I apologize for any awkward writing...I wrote this when I was 14. If you want less awkward stuff, I'll put more up in a few days...I've kind of bombarded with submissions today. XD
Enjoy~!
Rin smiled as she felt Len's arms snaking around her slender waist, pulling their bodies together. Rin basked in his warmth, ignoring the slight chill she felt nipping at her bare shoulders. Len pressed a gentle kiss to Rin's lips, probably as compensation for the pain he'd caused her just a few hours earlier. Rin moved her head just the slightest bit closer to him, deepening the kiss. After a moment she pulled away, resting her head on the still-damp pillow and continuing to let her eyes linger on his face. She melted when she saw that his soft gaze was ever fixed on her and smiled, a slight blush rushing to her cheeks.
"I love you," he whispered. Rin couldn't help grinning like a kindergartener. Every time he told her, it felt like the first time. She scooted closer to Len and wrapped her arms around his waist and rested her head on his chest, allowing herself to fall asleep in his arms. She didn't say anything. She was always better at communicating through song and action than words.
Rin rested her head in her hands. She only had so long to tell Len. If she didn't, he'd figure it out on his own sooner or later. She hated keeping secrets from him.
If I don't tell him now, I might not have the courage later, she decided, standing up. Her knees threatened to give out on her as she walked out of her room and stood in front of Len's bedroom door. She swallowed all the fear she could manage and tapped on the wood.
Tap tap tap.
No response.
Rin knocked again, louder this time.
TAP TAP TAP.
This time she could hear shuffling beyond the door. A few seconds later the doorknob turned and the door swung to the side, revealing a very newly-awakened Len. Rin then remembered that Len had taken a nap because he'd been up all night studying for his exams.
"Rin," he said, his eyes widening with surprise as he stifled a yawn. "Is something wrong?" He rubbed at his eyes with his right hand in a rather childish manner. Even at sixteen, he was still a shouta in more ways than he knew. Let the author rephrase that last sentence – Len was still a shouta in more ways than he chose to admit.
Rin looked down. "I. . .need to talk to you. . ." she murmured. Len stepped aside to let her in and shut the door behind her. Rin seated herself on the bed and Len sat down beside her. "What's going on?" he asked. Rin couldn't bring herself to look at him. The words wouldn't form in her mouth and her throat suddenly went dry. Len touched her chin to make her look at him.
"Rin, just tell me. Tell me what's bothering you."
Rin felt tears welling up in her eyes. She wasn't sure what caused them: fear, anxiety, shock, or perhaps even happiness. All of these emotions plus a few more created a sickening mixture in her gut which subdued even the butterflies she normally felt fluttering around whenever she was around Len.
"L-Len. . ." she managed to stutter. "I have. . .something I have to tell you. . ."
Len continued to donate his undivided attention to her, not pointing out her redundancy. "What is it?"
Tears threatened to spill. Rin blinked them back. "I'm afraid you'll hate me when I tell you!" she blurted. Len shook his head and leaned closer to kiss her. "How could I ever hate you?" he whispered as he broke away. "I'll never hate you. Just tell me what it is."
Rin bit her lip and drew in a deep breath. She let it out, her chosen words slipping out along with the air in her lungs.
"I'm. . .pregnant, Len."
Earsplitting silence ensued. Rin bit her lip and searched Len's eyes for any kind of reaction. His cerulean orbs, completely identical to hers, may as well have been mirrors for all the indication of any emotion they supplied. She clenched her hands and pushed them against her knees, bracing herself for the goodbye.
". . .come again?" Len whispered, breaking the silence like a plate of glass. Rin jumped at the sound of his voice. She bit her lip again.
"I'm pregnant."
Len looked up at her, his eyes still devoid of any recognizable emotion. Rin noticed a sparkle flickering in his irises and felt her heart skip a beat or two.
"Whose is it?"
Rin gave him her best 'You-Can't-Really-Be-That-Stupid-Right?' look. "Len," she began, exasperation beating down her fear and anxiety. "I've only slept with one guy." When Len cocked his head in what seemed to be confusion, Rin rolled her eyes. "It's yours, Sir Brilliant."
Len's mouth dropped open as the proverbial light bulb above his head flared on.
"A – Are you sure?"
"About what?"
"That. . .you're. . .pregnant with my…?" he couldn't make the words 'baby' or 'child' form on his tongue. Rin nodded slowly. Len's eyelids fluttered open and shut a few times before he looked away from her again. Rin felt tears rising in her eyes but didn't bother blinking them back. There was only so much room in her heart for tears to be restrained. She jumped as Len threw his arms around her and rested his head on her shoulder. Rin gasped as she felt his arms surrounding her.
". . .are you angry at me?" he asked, his voice husky.
Rin clasped her arms around Len and turned her head so that her face was hidden in his neck.
"No. . ." she whispered in reply. "why would I be mad at you?"
"Why wouldn't you be? I mean. . .I got you preg – pregnant, Rin." Rin couldn't help noticing with a kind of dark amusement that the word 'pregnant' was uttered with a kind of disbelief and caught on his tongue.
"I'm not angry. I'm afraid that you're gonna. . .you know, leave me now that I'm kind of a time bomb now…"
Len pulled away from her and looked her in the eyes, his own wide with shock. "What made you think I'd ever do that?" he asked, appalled. "I haven't left you before so why would I ever do that now? Especially since now we're in a little over our heads together. I'm just as at fault as you are. Running from you wouldn't change anything. No matter what, I'd still be the father of this child, even if I were to play no part in its life." A perplexed expression played on his face. "Father. . ." he murmured, obviously overwhelmed. Rin knew that the word was probably supposed to be thought. "Besides, I wouldn't be leaving just you. I'd be leaving an unborn child, too." He added.
"But what are we gonna do? I mean, I'm still with Kaito and you're still with Meiko. Once it gets out that I'm pregnant and people find out that you're the father, which won't take long, let me remind you, all hell's gonna break loose."
"Oh…I didn't think about that. . ."
Rin sighed. A few seconds later, she sobbed once and stood up, one hand on her hip and the other covering her mouth. This couldn't really be happening! Despite all the effort she put into convincing herself that it was all in her head, it wasn't. She was six weeks late. That had never happened with her before. There was no denying it or undoing it. She was pregnant.
Rin finally cracked and dropped to her knees, her face hidden in her hands. Len knelt down behind her, wrapping his arms around her again and pressing a kiss to her cheek.
"Rin, it's gonna be okay," he whispered, his breath tickling her ear. "and you know. . .maybe we could do this. . ."
"Do what?"
"This whole 'having a baby' thing. Maybe we should keep it."
Rin laughed once. "With what money? The money I get from my five dollar-an-hour job at the drugstore? You know we can't touch a cent of our money from Yamaha until we're 21."
Len smiled and hugged her tighter, careful not to put much pressure on her abdomen. "I've got the money I make as a street performer on the side. I could always go get a real job, Rin. We're not touring this year. I'll do whatever it takes to support you and the baby." He brushed his lips against her cheek again. "Rin, I love you."
Rin closed her eyes and let her hands fall from her face. "You think we could. . .really. . .parent this baby?"
"We created it together inside you. Forgive my choice in words, but I feel like I owe it to the baby to be part of its life, don't you?"
"I didn't think of it like that. . .now that I think about it, you're right."
Len gently turned her around – it wasn't difficult with the hardwood floor – and looked her full in the face. "Then do you want to try?"
Rin was silent for a moment.
". . .yeah."
