A/N: I know it's long overdue! So I won't bore you with apologies just read!:)
Warnings: Swearing, MalexMale, Mpreg
Disclaimer: I own nothing...if I did there would be no Arwen *shudder*
When Gaius was heading back to Merlin, the queen walked in with a look that told him she knew before she opened her mouth. "Where is he?" she asked her tone not giving away her emotions at all.
"He's through there but I need-" he was cut off by the queen dashing up the stairs and through to Merlin room. She was met by Merlin crying and pushing blood covered sheets off the bed and onto the floor.
"Gwen.." he gasped not expecting her of all people walking through the door.
"Oh my god" she responding not sure how else to address the site before her.
"I understand this is a shock but those babies need to come out now or there could be disasterous" Gaius said shuffling past Gwen and going to Merlins side.
"What do you need me to do?" Gwen asked stunning both the physician and the sorcerer.
"My lady?" Gaius asked with a puzzled expression.
"I want to help" she stated simply.
"I need you to find me two towels and fetch those cradles I made from near the door" She did as he asked while Gaius assessed the positions before cutting into his wards abdomen. He gripped onto one of the babies shoulders and gently pulled it through before handing it to Gwen who was awaiting it with towels and warm water. The queen gently placed the little boy into the cradle still and turning her attention back to the older male who was holding out a second baby: this time female. Gaius stitched Merlin up as the seditive he gave the boy began to take its affect. Deciding not to risk him begin disturbed he and Gwen moved the cribs into the other room, where they both cleaned a baby and fed them.
"This must be a lot to take in" Gaius speculated as they both gave the babies a bottle.
"Definatley not what I was expecting, when I imagined my life with Arthur" Gwen smiled down at the baby.
"I know Merlin shouldn't have played his part as you were his friend but try not to be too hard on him" Gaius begged knowing eventually Merlin would wake and he and Gwen would talk.
"This is going to sound horrid but I blame him and Arthur equally but I also blame myself. I should have been able to tell they cared for each other and I've been stood in the way this whole time" then after a moments silence she continued. "I'm going to leave Camelot"
"What about Arthur?"
"He'll have Merlin and the children. I just hope it's not to late for them"
"Gaius" he heard a voice shout from the other room.
"Looks like daddy is awake" Gwen said looking down at the little boy in her arms.
"I'll go" Gwen said as Gaius advanced towards the door to Merlins quaters. After a moment or so of thought the male nodded. Gwen approached the door not entirely sure of what to say when she was inside.
"Merlin?" she inquired popping her head around the door.
"Gwen?"
"Yep, it's me" she smiled walking in and sitting herself uncomfortably on the edge of his bed.
"What did I get?" Merlin asked trying to make conversation.
"A boy and a girl"
"One of each" he grinned before continuing, "I'm sorry, if I could go back I wouldn't do any of this. It's been the worst eight months of my life" then Merlin procceded to tell the queen everything that had occured.
"Say something" he begged after she just looked at the child still in her arms and said nothing for a while.
"On this subject there's not a lot to be said" she paused to hand Merlin his daughter before continuing "However, I've decided to leave Camelot-"
"No Gwen, please don't leave because of me" the raven haired boy begged letting his tears begin to fall.
"Shh, I'm doing it so you can be with Arthur"
"No, he doesn't love me Gwen I was just convinience" Merlin sobbed.
"I don't believe that and Arthur loves you. Today when he stormed into our chambers he looked so different" she assured him wrapping her arms round his shoulders.
"I threatened to leave that's why"
"Exactly" Gwen smiled kissing his temple.
"Have you thought of any names yet?" she asked wiping her friends tears away.
"Um...Rebekah for the girl and James for the boy"
"They're beautiful, I'm going to leave you to it" as Gwen began to turn the door handle Merlin called for her, "Yes?"
"Will I see you again?"
"Maybe" she smiled before leaving him alone to his thoughts...
Walking into her chambers she found Arthur sat on the edge of his bed with his arms crossed like a sulking child.
"Well?" he asked
"Your a father congradulations" she said with a hint of sarcasm in her voice.
"What?" the king asked in shock.
"Merlin's had the babies" Gwen repeated slower this time.
"Why wasn't I called?" he asked
"I don't know, he was bleeding it was an emergency. I told Gaius I'd tell you when I came to tell you I'm leaving"
"Leaving?" Arthur questioned.
"Camelot, so you can be with Merlin"
"I can't be with Merlin, it's impossible"
"Your king, make it possible. Otherwise your going to loose him and those babies forever" Gwen told him.
"He'll hate me. Our last conversation was..not the best shall we say" Arthur confessed.
"I know, Merlin told me everything"
"He did?" Arthur inquired with wide eyes
"Yes and he still loves you"
"Really?"
"For now but not if you keep standing here" she smiled. Arthur ran over to his queen and pulled her into a warm embrace. Thanking her and he ran towards his true family.
"Goodbye Arthur" Gwen whispered...
"Merlin?" Arthur shouted opening the physicians door.
"My lord" Gaius bowed.
"Where are they?" he asked slightly breathless from running so far.
"In there" Arthur just muttered a small thank you as he dashed past. Upon entry he saw two crips next to Merlins bedside both with a baby in then there was Merlin laid on his bed looking shocked by the kings presance. Wordlessly Arthur sat and began staring at his offspring with a huge smile spread across his face.
"What are their names?"
"I was thinking James and Rebekah" Merlin answered immediatly still not sure how he feels about Arthur being around them.
"I like them, they seem to suit them really well"
"I thought so" they resumed their silence for while longer until Merlin broke it, "Why are you here?"
"I came to see my children and to..tell you something"
"What?"
I needed to tell you that...I love you"
"I've heard that before" Merlin scoffed.
"I know I have been full of shit before but I now see all I've ever wanted is right infront of me" Arthur smiled gesturing to the cribs and the sorcerer.
"I don't think...I can risk it"
"Ho..how will this work then?" the king asked wiping a tear from his eye.
"I'll move into your servants room, look after the children and you can see them all the time but I'll maybe a bit behind on a few duties"
"Okay..I'll make arrangement for you to move in tomorrow but now you need sleep" Arthur nodded getting up and walking out, tears streaming from his eyes and leaving a similarly upset Merlin behind...
A/N: The next chapter will be the last and it may have a happy ending..:) xoxoxo