I'm frightened,

by what I see...

But somehow I know,

That there's much more to come.

Immobilized,

by my fear

And soon to be,

blinded by tears.

I can stop the pain,

If I will it all away.

If I will it all away!

Don't turn away!

Don't give into the pain!

Don't try to hide!

Though they're screaming you name!

Don't close your eyes!

God knows what lies behind them!

Don't turn out the light!

Never sleep,never die..~

-"Whisper"by Evanesence

Chapter 3:Hallucinations

"And I could picture myself...laying in a field of peace,not having to face the pain of the world..yes,it would be nice to leave and go there.."

(Feliciano's POV)

12:00 p.m.

The time of night I hated the was then that sleepy dreams would fill my mind.I would lose my train of thought and bounce from one thought to a while I got used to night though,I would pray for the morning to come,but I would be even more tired than I was the day before.

After dinner that night,I hurriedly washed the dishes and went to my room.I didnt want him to be anymore suspicious then he already was.

I fought with sleep that night,like I did every night.I didnt want anyone to know about werent just dreams..these weren't just nightmares..these were... could help the fact everytime I had tried to ask for help they were busy with something else.I didnt want to be a bother to them..well,anymore then I already was..

All my life I was called useless,or worthless,or a waste of time and ...the little lies that would slip though they said they cared,where were they when I needed them?

Tonight was different though...tonight I woke up,hearing the sound of someone calling me.I turned over and looked around to see that nobody was I heard it again.I sat up and looked at my was a faint light coming from the outside.I got up and,slowly walked to my door.I opened it quickly,to see that nobody was there.I looked down both ways of the hall before seeing that faint was more like a ball of light.I followed it,but it kept moving,as if it was taking me somewhere.

I followed it until we had gone outside.I looked around to see other balls of light and other things that I couldnt describe in whispers of "Follow me" came as I walked with them,going to where they were taking a while of walking they stopped.I looked at them and they pointed forward.I looked to see what was the most beautiful sunrise..or sunset,I really couldnt tell at the moment.

I started walking slowly towards it,the balls of light pushing me forward a I got closer I relaxed a little before I took a step forward and didnt feel the ground had been taken away from right before I fell,I had one thought.

They wouldnt care If I left...

(Lovino's POV)

I woke looking around my pitch-dark room,I looked for what is was that had woke me was at why was I sweating so did I feel like I was losing something?I jumped a little when I heard a door I realized that it was Feliciano's door down the would he be up at this time of night?I grumbled a little as I got up and slowly opened my door.I peeked into the hall to see him walking down the looked like he was going to the front door,but what for?

I quietly followed him,not knowing what was gonna was hard to see with it being pitch-dark inside and outside of the I didnt know that he was walking so was he going?Especially at this time of night.

My tiredness had slowed me I could tell he was far in front of me,heading to a cliff.I ,he...wouldnt do that right?

My speed got faster,as I started running.I tried to yell,to get his attention,but he didnt notice.

"Feliciano!"I yelled,as he kept getting closer to the cliff.

And something took over then cause I ran faster than I had before and grabbed him,pulling him back right before he fell off.

(Feliciano's POV)

I didnt even realize my fratello following had I not noticed that?I guess I was to deep in my thoughts,cause as I leaned forward in that step,I was pulled back.

I looked around quickly,panicking to see who it was that had taken that sweet hallucination away from me.I looked up to see my brother.

"What the hell were you trying to do!You could've killed yourself,you idiot!"he yelled.

I looked back to realize what had happened.I started crying and shaking out of fear.I had almost fell off of that I didnt even see it.I...I had almost died..

I didnt care who saw me crying right now,cause I needed someone to hold that would hold me in reality so I wouldnt be pulled back into the hallucinations.

I gripped onto Lovino,feeling as if I let go,I would be dragged back into the you know what,he didnt yell at me,or push me off, watched as I cried,buring my face into his shirt.

Eventually he got up,picked me up since I "Wasnt gonna move" and carried me back to the house.

Maybe I was wrong...maybe he did care about me...even if it was just a little bit...it still meant the world to me...

(Lovino's POV)

Stop looking at me like that.I dont care about him!I couldnt just sit and watch him fall off a cliff!And then he started crying...and shaking...

Ok,so maybe I care about him a little...But if you tell anyone I will hurt you..

He's my little brother after all...my sweet,precious,little baby brother...

~Don't say I'm outta touch,

with this rampant chaos

-your reality.

I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge.

The nightmare I built my own world to escape.

In my field of paper flowers,

and candy clouds of lullaby.

I lie inside myself for hours.

And watch my purple sky fly over me

Swallowed up,

in the sound of my screaming.

Cannot cease,

for the fear of silent nights.

And oh,how I long,

for the deep sleep dreaming.

The goddes of imaginery light..~

-"Imaginery"by Evanesence