Chapter 3
Jane didn't move a muscle while she watched Maura's face. She looked almost as if she was in a trance as she ran her fingers across the different bones, besides she was enjoying the feel of Maura touching her too much to break the spell.
"And your zygomatic structure is one of the best I have had the pleasure of touching. Most women use makeup to augment the zygomatic bones so they would look like yours and you need nothing to enhance yours." Maura had a feather light touch and it was driving Jane crazy. "And your nasal bones, even though they've been broken twice, form the most beautiful nose I have ever had the pleasure of resetting. And your supraorbital process looks it's best at times like these when you are more relaxed and not frowning. And your glabella is going to form a permanent groove because you frown so much." Her fingers traced her brows and the spot between them."
Jane was having a very hard time keeping her hands to herself but suddenly she couldn't take it anymore. She jumped up and away from Maura faster than she had intended. She took a deep breath before she spoke. "You have to stop doing that."
"Did I do something wrong?" Maura was genuinely concerned.
"No, no you didn't. I was…it was…I was starting to fall asleep again and it's too early to sleep yet." It sounded lame even to her own ears considering she had already fallen asleep on Maura but she seemed to buy it.
"Maybe it's your body trying to tell you something and you should listen to it." Maura walked over to where Jane was standing but Jane backed away and hoped Maura didn't notice. "Shall I give you a backrub?" She continued to follow Jane.
Jane finally turned and walked into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator door and leaned in. "You want some wine? I'm going to have a beer." Jane yelped when she felt Maura's hand on her back, she thought she had stayed in the living room. She jumped and smacked her head on the bottom of the freezer door above her head.
"Oh Jane I'm sorry. Are you ok? Let me look at it." She reached to touch Jane's hair.
Jane gently pushed Maura's hands away and squeezed around her to stand in the middle of the kitchen. "Maura you can't just sneak up on someone like that."
"I didn't sneak up; I was right behind you the whole time. Are you sure you are ok?"
Jane opened the beer she had grabbed and took three soothing gulps before she answered. "Yes Maura I am fine. I think there might be a Sox game on tonight let's check ok?"
"You really shouldn't be drinking beer with the medications you are taking." Maura said as she poured herself a glass of water. "You go sit and I'll be in soon."
Jane set the beer on the countertop then left wondering if Maura was mad at her but she knew she needed to stay away from her or she would lose her friendship. She sat down on the couch and burrowed herself into one corner then crossed her legs in front of her. She hoped Maura would choose the other corner so the temptation stayed away. She knew she wasn't far from giving in to it.
Maura rested both hands on the counter and leaned forward taking deep breaths. She couldn't believe how wonderful and right it felt to touch Jane the way she had been touching her. She had been so tempted to touch even more of Jane's body but thankfully Jane had jumped up and moved away. Did Jane have any idea what her just being in the same room did to her senses? Did she have the strength to stay away from her best friend? She took a deep breath and turned and walked back into the living room. "Jane I'm going to take a shower. Enjoy your game." She didn't stop for Jane's reaction but continued to the safety and privacy of her bedroom and the walk in shower with multiple shower heads.
Jane sat in the living room and listened to the water running in Maura's private bathroom. She had completely lost interest in the game as she thought about Maura's and the water running over the body she had had many a fantasy about. She sat there and thought about how many times while she had been in her own shower and thought about what was going through her mind right now. "That's it! I don't care." She stood up and headed for Maura's room shedding her clothes along the way. She quietly opened the bathroom door and saw that Maura had her back to her and her head was under the water. She had known that Maura had a good body but this was beyond her imagination. She had a gorgeous body that was curved in all the right places and very well proportioned. She carefully open the shower door and walked in.
Maura turned when she felt the cold air on her body and froze. Standing in front of her was the answer to all of her prayers. She took her time to take in the beauty before her and when she looked in Jane's eye she saw what she knew was reflected in her own. Desire! Pure unadulterated desire. She took the few steps that separated them and wrapped her arms around Jane's waist and laid her head on her chest.
Jane took a deep breath and wrapped her arms around Maura's shoulders and spoke quietly. "Maura I need to know if you want this as much as I do. Because if you don't I just made the biggest mistake of my life and I'll get dressed and leave right now." She held her breath waiting for Maura's response.
Maura knew how hard it had to have been for Jane to open herself up as much as she had and she wasn't going to make her suffer. She leaned her head back and took Jane's face between her two hands and stood on her tip toes and brought their lips together for the first time. It was a gentle and loving kiss that was filled with promise. She pulled back and smiled up at Jane. "Does that answer your question?"
"I would say that more than answers my question." She couldn't stop the smile from breaking out on her face. She leaned down and placed a kiss on Maura's forehead. "You have no idea how long I've been wanting to kiss you. I have come so close so many times but I was afraid you wouldn't feel the same and I would lose your friendship. I want you so bad." She placed her hand behind Maura's head and pulled her mouth towards her own and the kiss quickly went from a chaste kiss to a duel for control. Jane's hands were everywhere on Maura's body. When she finally took one of Maura's breasts in her hand there was an audible moan from both women. When they both came up for air Jane reluctantly stepped back and took a deep breath. "As much as I am enjoying myself and would like nothing more than to take this further we need to talk."
"What is there to talk about? I want you and you want me and have for a very long time." She reached forward to touch Jane again.
Jane took both of her hands in her own to stop her. "Maura you mean to much to me to just jump into bed. I want so much more and that's what we need to talk about. Please? Let's finish this shower and then we can talk." She moved around Maura to wash her hair and she felt Maura's hands come around her waist and clasp together on her abdomen.
"Lately sex has been just a release because of the pent up tension of being around you." She laughed a small laugh. "I have never slept with a woman, not that there is anything wrong with it but I was just never tempted enough until you came along. But you my friend are very tempting and I definitely want you." She kissed Jane's back then they both finished showering. They stepped out of the shower and Maura walked towards Jane with a towel and a sexy smile on her lips.
Jane held up her hand to stop her advance. "You…stop right there. Hand me the towel now. If you come any closer we will never get around to talking, and you need to cover yourself because I'm only human and can withstand you only so much. I would like nothing more than to take you up against the wall right here and now but I want more than just friends with benefits."
That stopped Maura and she looked at Jane with a confused look on her face. "What does that mean?"
Jane finished drying herself and wrapped the towel around her body and walked out of the bathroom with Maura following close behind. "That's what we need to talk about. Now put on some clothes and meet me in the living room." She threw on a pair of shorts and a tank top then quickly kissed Maura and walked past her to return to the living room. Jane sat on the couch and waited for Maura and she turned at a sound from the hallway. "Oh you do not fight fair Maura. Only you could make a football jersey look sexy as hell."
Maura stood there in a Patriots jersey that barely covered her ass. "Shall I change?" Maura walked over and sat next to Jane, not too close but close enough.
"No that's ok." Jane cleared her throat then turned towards Maura and took both of her hands in hers. "You asked what friends with benefits means and it means we would remain friends but have sex. I want more than that. I want to be able to take you on a date. I want to hold your hand and kiss you when and where I want."
"But Jane we already do most of that, well except for the kissing part and I look forward to adding that. Sex can be very beneficial, it can…" She was cut off by Jane's finger gently covering her mouth.
"Maura that's not what I meant by benefits. I want all of you exclusively. I want you next to me when I fall asleep at night and when I wake up in the morning. I want my family and friends to know that you are my girlfriend and maybe someday my wife." She smiled at the dazed look on Maura's face. "Yes Maura my wife. I love you that much."
"You love me? No one has ever told me that. I have loved you for a very long time Jane but I never imagined you'd return my feelings."
Jane took a deep breath to control her emotions. "You have no idea how that makes me feel Maura. I never believed in love at first sight but you sure threw me when I first met you. You are so beautiful and I thought unattainable until now. I tried to ignore my feelings but while you were touching my face I couldn't ignore them anymore. And then I was sitting here thinking about you naked in the shower and I couldn't stop myself. But it's much more than sex. It's hard for me to voice what it is, I'm not good with words but I want everything Maura."
Maura leaned forward and gave Jane a quick kiss, Jane leaned forward to deepen the kiss but this time it was Maura who stopped her. "What do I have to do to prove to you that I want the same thing you do? I would love to be your wife someday and the idea of waking next to you every morning warms my heart more than I ever thought possible. I can't say all but most of the relationships I have been in were entered because I thought they could give me what I needed. Obviously it wasn't enough. Being friends with you, even without the sex had been more fulfilling than any other relationship I've ever been in. Your touches ignite in me something no man has ever been able to touch. When we do enter the next stage of this relationship I am sure that it will be highly satisfying. I would love to make love to you right now but I know that physically you are not ready, I've waited six years so a few more days can't hurt."
Jane smiled when she realized that Maura wanted the same things she did. "Can we still make out like teenagers?" Maura had to laugh at the childlike delight on Jane's face.
"Although I never had the pleasure of that teenage rite of passage I would be more than happy to help you relive yours." She pulled Jane towards her but stopped when she heard the hiss of pain from Jane. "So how are we going to do this without causing you undue pain?" She seemed to think for awhile. "I think I know how." She stood up in front of Jane then placed one knee on either side of Jane's hips and straddled her. She placed both of her hands on the back of the couch and leaned forward. "How's this?"
"Oh I do like your bedside manner doctor. As long as I'm the only patient that gets this kind of treatment." All Jane had to do is look up and her lips made contact with Maura's. Maura quickly took control of the kiss and tentatively moved her tongue against Jane's lips. They both moaned at the contact and Jane opened her mouth inviting Maura's tongue in. Jane's moan turned to a deep groan when their tongues first made contact and her hands started moving on Maura's body. She reached the bottom of Maura's shirt and immediately pulled back in shock. "Oh my god Maura are you trying to kill me?"
"What's the matter Jane?" Maura looked at Jane and asked innocently.
"The only thing standing between us is my jersey, you're not wearing underwear." Jane's eyes were the size of saucers.
"Well Jane technically it's not standing…" Jane reached behind Maura's head and pulled her towards her and this time she took control of the kiss and held nothing back.
"Maura I don't want our first time to be on a couch." She had to clear her throat to continue talking. "Can we take this to the bedroom? I really want to make love to you."
Maura sat up and looked down at Jane. "I've always loved your voice, it oozes sex but right now it is beyond sexy. Are you sure you're up to this?" Maura looked down at her with a concerned expression on her face.
"I've never been surer of anything in my life." Jane smiled up at Maura.
Maura stood up and took Jane's hand and watched her as she stood up. She turned and walked towards her room.
"I have a bigger bed in my room so we'll have more room to…do whatever it is we are going to do." She turned and gave Jane a coquettish smile over her shoulder.
"I never knew you were such a tease Dr. Isles."
"Oh there a lot of things you don't know about me Detective Rizzoli but I think you're going to find out soon enough." Maura opened her bedroom door and lead Jane to the bed. She turned when she reached the bed and reached for the hem of Jane's tank top and lifted it over her head. "Oh I see you neglected to don a bra too."
"Well I don't wear one when I sleep so why put one on if I'm just going to take it off later. Besides it saves time doesn't it?"
"Well I certainly can't argue with your reasoning my dear." Maura reached for the waistband of the shorts and slowly lowered both her shorts and underwear and stepped back to look at Jane. She watched a slight blush creep across Jane's face and reached for her hands before she covered herself. She brought their hands to the hem of the football jersey and then let go of Jane's hands.
Jane took hold of the hem and began to remove it. "Why am I so nervous? I feel like it's the first time. I guess it kind of is isn't it? Neither one of us has ever done this before, what if I suck at this?"
"I do believe there will be some sucking involved, at least I hope there will be." She smiled evilly at Jane and they both laughed.
Jane leaned forward and gave Maura a quick kiss. "Thank you." She pulled the shirt all the way off and they both stood there looking at each other. "God Maura you're stunning. I always knew you were beautiful but the complete package is beyond my wildest dreams. I know I already saw you in the shower but I was so interested in just touching what I had only dreamt of but now I get my fill of looking. Can I touch you?" She asked tentatively.
Maura took Jane's hands and gently lowered her to the bed and lay down beside Jane. "You can touch me wherever you like and as much as you like. I just do not want you to overdo it so that you too sore in the morning."
"I promise if anything hurts I will find another way to do it so that it doesn't hurt." She turned on her good side and placed her hand on Maura's shoulder and gently brushed her fingers along the soft skin there. "You're so soft. Everything it so different than being with a man. Your lips are so soft." She leaned over to kiss her lips. "And your skin is soft everywhere." She kissed Maura behind her ear and heard the quick intake of breath. "Is that ok?"
Maura thought she sounded so unsure of herself. "That is more than ok Jane. That feels wonderful." Maura reached her hand behind Jane's head and held her where she was.
"I've always loved the way you smell and you smell even better close up. You smell like lavender and something that is just you." She licked the same spot behind Maura's ear and received a moan for her efforts. "Mmm I'll have to remember that spot, you seem to be especially sensitive there."
"You have no idea what you are doing to me Jane. I've always liked sex but this feels like so much more and you seem to be enjoying yourself as much as I am." Jane raised herself up as much as she could and rested her head on her hand and looked down at Maura. Maura looked at her quizzically.
"Oh I'm not stopping I just need to say something and I hope it doesn't freak you out too much. I've never really cared that much for sex like you seem to. I've never initiated it before but I want to love you like you deserve to be loved. I want to love you until you can't take it anymore then start all over again. I want to show you how precious you are to me and how much I love you. I've never felt this way before and I don't think I'll ever feel this way again. Tell me what you want and I will do it." Maura looked at her with tears in her eyes. "Ah shit did I mess that up too?"
Maura gently pushed Jane onto her back and leaned over her. "No Jane you didn't mess anything up, you did everything just right. I don't think I've ever felt this special in all of my life. I now know what has been missing in my life and it was you." She leaned down and kissed Jane. "The relationship we have has always been the most important relationship in my life and I look forward to exploring the next stage. Speaking of exploring…" Maura lowered her lips to Jane's shoulder and kissed and nipped her way up her neck and smiled when Jane turned her head to give her better access and moaned.
"Mmm I see what you mean. Don't stop." Jane's voice if at all possible dropped even lower.
"Do you have any idea what your voice does to me?" Maura asked as she slowly kissed her way to Jane's breast. "Every time I hear your voice, no matter where we are it makes my heart skip a beat. I know scientifically it's not possible for the heart to skip a beat but it sure feels like it does. Whenever I enter the bullpen to see you I have to take a deep breath before I enter to make sure I can control myself." She took a pert nipple into her mouth and both women moaned at the intense pleasure.
"Oh god Maura that feels so good." She reached up and took Maura breast in her hand and couldn't stop the moan from escaping her lips. "Damn I want you so bad."
"Patience Jane, you'll get your turn, but me first." Maura kissed her way from Jane's breasts to her abdomen all the while her right hand had made its way down to Jane's thigh. She had reached her knee then slowly dragged her nails
upward and stopped at her stomach.
"Shit! That was…" Jane leaned her head back and her hips rose of their own accord as Maura did the same to her other thigh, she had no control over her own body and for the first time it didn't scare her. "That feels good Maura." When she felt Maura's fingers touch her where she had wanted her to touch for years she just about exploded. "More Maura I need more! Please I need you inside me!" She looked up at Maura's face and thought she'd never seen anything more beautiful. "Please Maura." She reached up and pulled Maura's mouth down to her and entered her mouth with her tongue just as Maura began to slowly push two fingers inside her. "Ah shit Maura I can't believe how that feels." Maura pulled her fingers almost all of the way out and plunged them back in as far as she could and watched Jane's reaction and was not disappointed when her hips rose up to meet her next plunge. "Ahhh Maura that feels…I can't describe it but don't stop."
"Jane you are so beautiful." Maura kissed her lips and then slowly slithered down Jane's body so she was lying between her legs. Jane looked down as Maura lowered her head and her tongue took its first taste of her and she couldn't stop her hips from rising up even further. "Mmm you taste sooo good Jane."
"Damn Maura where did you learn that? Don't stop I'm sooo close."
Maura increased the rhythm of her fingers to match the rhythm of her tongue and soon she felt Jane's walls begin to close on her fingers and she knew she was close so she continued to pump her fingers in and out as fast as she could.
"Oh my god Maura I'm so close. Shit! MAU…RA!" Jane's body began to spasm in a way she had never felt before and she rode out the orgasm until she couldn't take any more. She reached down and had to push Maura's head away. "Stop…I…can't…take…anymore. She reached for Maura's free hand and pulled her. "Come here." She watched as Maura licked her fingers clean and then leaned down to kiss her. She moaned when she tasted herself on Maura's lips. "My god Maura, for someone who has never done this before you did pretty good. I have never felt like that before. Thank you."
Maura leaned down to kiss Jane again. "There is no need to thank me because I thoroughly enjoyed myself. As to how I knew how to do it, I have no idea, I just followed my instincts and I guess they were right." She smiled down at Jane.
"See I told you following your instincts was a good thing. That was fantastic." She pulled Maura to her and wrapped her in a hug. "Give me a few minutes to recover and I repay the favor." She smiled up at Maura with a twinkle in her eyes.
"Just rest. I'm fine so don't worry about me." She snuggled into Jane's embrace and couldn't believe how good it felt. "This feels so right Jane. Not just the fact that our bodies fit together so perfectly but it just feels good."
Jane just pulled her in tighter. "I know what you mean, it does feel right. And you feel good next to me. I can't tell you how many times I've wanted to hold you like this when we've slept in the same bed, now I can." Jane looked down and had to smile. "Boy aren't you the romantic type." She bent down and kissed the brow of the woman using her shoulder as a pillow as she slept. "I love you." She closed her eyes and just laid there enjoying the peace she felt for the first time in a long time.