When Edward opened the door to his bedroom, I heard myself gasp. It was covered in beige and gold, CD racks lined the wall and he had a desk covered with what looked like sheet music and journals. One of his bedroom walls was an entire window, looking out over the Olympic forest. It was absolutely breathtaking.
"Your room is beautiful Edward." I said, stepping more fully inside and spinning in a small circle, taking everything in. Edward was standing silently by the door, staring at me with calculating eyes.
"What?" I asked, smiling softly at him, at his beauty.
"I like the way that looks, you standing in my room." Edward said, walking slowly into the room to stand in front of me as he talked.
His words instantly made the butterflies in my stomach start fluttering their wings, my heart began to beat faster, and I found it hard to breathe. He was just so all consuming, everything about him, his voice, the way he smells, how he looks, the gentle words...everything about him just makes me crazy and alive, wired and happy all at the same time.
"Well perhaps you could see me in here more often." I said softly, a blush covering my neck and cheeks as I ducked my head, instantly mortified by my words.
I felt a cool finger under my chin, gently tilting my head back up to look Edward in the eye. What I saw there made me gasp, the raw emotion of love and kindness and something else made my heart stop and start up again at an irregular rhythm.
"Bella, you have no idea what those words mean to me. What you mean to me." Edward said softly, he was so close his breath caressed my face and though he was speaking softly it was so loud in my ears.
"You mean so much to me to Edward." I said, instantly slapping myself mentally for how stupid those words sounded.
Edward let out a tiny chuckle before releasing my chin and stepping back a little, though we were still oh, so close.
"I thought we could go to a place I sometimes go to get away from everyone, would you like to go?" Edward asked, and the hope in his eyes was equivalent to that of a child's on Christmas morning.
"I would love to." I said, taking his out stretched hand, expecting the tingle that came with it now. Edward confused me when he lead me to the large window in his bedroom and opened it, swinging me onto his back before I could object and jumped towards the ground.
I think the people of Forks could hear my scream all the way at the Diner.
"What the FUCK!?" I yelled, my heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest, but Edward only laughed.
"It's faster this way. Just hold on." Edward managed to get out before taking off at a blinding speed, the trees looked like blurs of green and I felt that this must be what a bird feels like. And as fast as he started, he suddenly stopped in the middle of a large meadow surrounded by trees and wild flowers that dotted the lush grass.
"It's beautiful." I said as Edward helped me off his back, still grasping his cold stone hand.
"I like to come here to think, where I can't hear everyone's voices." Edward said quietly, still slightly behind me.
"Is it a relief?That you can't hear my mind?" I asked, turning around to look him in the eyes.
"Yes and no. At first, it was frustrating, and still is. Sometimes you get this look on your face like your thinking so deeply and I wish I could just know what's running through that pretty little head of yours. But now, and times when were alone, it is so peaceful, not only does your presence calm me, but the silence is wonderful."
Not breaking eye contact, Edward slowly brought my knuckles up to his lips, kissing them softly that it felt like hot air turning my body on fire by a simple breathless kiss.
"You calm me to, you know. Once I get over my blush and the butterflies that seem to live in my stomach whenever your around that is." I said, startled by my own boldness. I felt my blush heating up my cheeks at my words, but I didn't regret them, I truly felt that way.
"It's good to know your heart races not because you fear me, but because you like me." Edward said, a crooked smile on his face that took my breath away.
"Bella, could I kiss you?" Edward asked suddenly, and I had a feeling that if he could, he would be blushing.
"You can kiss me whenever you want Edward." I said before my lips were on his.
His were cool and hard, but soft and warm at the same time. They were gentle but I could still feel the passion behind the kiss, his arms wrapping loosely around my waist. My arms traveled up over his arms and tangled into his hair, pulling him closer to me while he depend the kiss, sliding his tongue smoothly across my lips until I opened, exploring mine as I did his.
Edward broke the kiss too soon, leaning his forehead against mine as I tried to catch my breath and calm my pulsing heart. Edward was breathing heavily even though it was unnecessary. When my heart calmed enough and I could breathe normally I looked up, instantly catching Edward's gaze that was already on me.
"Bella, you have no idea how long I have wanted to do that." Edward said in little more than a whisper
"Don't ever stop, okay? " I asked, a slight wobble came into my voice as I said it, and I wasn't sure why. The thought of never kissing Edward again after that, or worse, imagining his lips on someones else s made my stomach drop and a pain in my heart.
"I could never. I need you Bella." Edward said before lightly touching his lips to mine, just a brush of a kiss before pulling away again before I could reciprocate.
"As I need you." I said simply, laying my head on his chest and breathing his scent in deeply, letting it calm my mind just as I felt him doing with me, his lips resting on the top of my head as the rise and fall of his chest felt good under my head as he breathed in deeply.
We stayed like that for minutes,hours, seconds. I wasn't exactly sure. I lost myself in Edward, the feel of his chest on mine, of his smell, his cold body that felt warm, the feel of his arms wrapped around me, keeping me safe.
"We should get home, Esme wants to make you dinner tonight, and I know Charlie will be wondering where you are." Edward said, breaking us out of our little bubble.
I sighed and pulled away to look up at Edward. I could tell he didn't want to leave just as much as I did.
"We better go then." I said after looking at how dark it had become. It was probably late in the afternoon already. How long were we just standing there?
Edward helped me on to his back again and then we were flying, but all I could feel was Edward under me, his body smoothly gliding through the forest and it seemed my weight or the change in steep had no affect on him. He was so handsome running, a light smile playing on his lips, his already messy hair tangled from the speed he was going. It was invigorating, and every girls dream.
Edward stopped right before the back door, helping me off his back and leading me through the door into the kitchen where Esme and Carlisle were talking quietly while Esme stood by the stove stirring something in a pot. At the sound of our entrance both turned around and smiled at us, giving us a glance over, their eyes stalling at our enjoined hands before meeting out eyes. I of course, flushed beet red.
"Bella! I made you pasta! I hope your hungry, I figured since you didn't eat anything after school today." Esme said, her smile bright and her eyes were shinning with motherly love
"Of course, thank you so much." I said, coming over and taking a seat in front of the bowl she sat in front of me, giving me a squeeze before both she and Carlisle exited the kitchen leaving Edward and I alone.
Edward had a smirk on his face when I picked up my fork so I set it back down and cocked my head to the side,
"What?" I asked, my eyebrows turning down in confusion. I didn't understand what had him smiling.
"The way your hair looks is making everyone have assumptions on what we did tonight in the meadow." Edward said simply, as if it was normal.
I turned white, and then red with embarassement, my hands instantly going to my hair to feel the knots and tangles. I tried to tame it down but it just kept getting snagged.
"Bella relax, they know nothing actually happened, we would have smelled differently if we had been sexual. Here, let me do that before you pull out all your hair." He said, sighing as he pushed my hands away.
I picked back up my fork and started eating Esme's pasta while Edward worked the tangles out of my hair, which surprisingly didn't even hurt. He had magic fingers. I instantly blushed at that thought, thinking about his fingers else where before stopping my self when I caught Edwards questioning gaze. I simply shook my head at him and tried to calm my blush.
After taming my hair Edward and I talked quietly about school until I was done eating. Edward offered to rinse my bowl off for me since they had no cleaning gloves, and I didn't want to get wet and sprout a tail.
"Are you ready to go home? I'm sure Charlie is wondering where you are." Edward said once he was done, turning around to face me with a small smile. He almost looked sad that I was leaving.
"I suppose." I said, sighing as I took his hand as he led me into the living room where the rest of the Cullen's were gathered. Carlisle and Esme were both reading side by side, Carlisle's arm laying gently across Esme's shoulders. Rosalie and Alice were sitting on the floor looking at fashion magazines, circling clothing they wanted to buy. Emmett and Jasper were playing games on their xbox, exploding zombies in their wake. It looked like a perfectly normal family and it warmed my heart to see how content some people could be.
"Bye Bella!" Alice chimed, giving me a wave when she saw that we were headed to the garage door.
"See ya fish girl." Emmett said, his eyes not once straining from the TV as he tried to avoid zombies.
"Emmett, stop calling her that." Rosalie said, giving him a glare from where she sat on the floor, though I think it went unnoticed.
"Good night Bella, I hope you had a good evening, please come back soon." Esme said with a sweet smile while Edward started pulling me towards the door.
I couldn't help but smile at the family that was before me, the love and care that was shinning between them, that even an outsider like myself could see that any of them would gladly die for the other. I felt myself get a little bit jealous for a second, at the fact that they had a mother, a father that cared for them as if they were their own, to have siblings that all knew what the other was going though on a daily basis. They were all so strong.
"Thank you for having me over, Esme, Carlisle " I said, before waving good bye to everyone else and leaving through the door with Edward.
"I'm sorry about Emmett, he doesn't mean to be rude." Edward said, opening the car door for me which I was quickly becoming accustomed to.
I waited for Edward to get into the car after closing my door to reply, turning to face him as he started the car and backed out in record time I said, "It's fine Edward, honestly. I know he doesn't mean it."
Edward grinned at me before turning on the radio and we listened quietly for the rest of the ride home, okay with just the silence between us, both of us in our own thoughts. Edward's hand never once left mine and I couldn't help but smile a little at that fact. Edward pulled into my drive and shut off the car, turning to face me,
"Thank you Bella, I had a wonderful time today." Edward said softly, looking down to our joined hands and smiling a little bit.
"I don't want to let you go." I said, blushing as I admitted my fear.
"Oh Isabella, I don't want to let you go either." Edward said in a way that seemed like he was almost pained. He brought his forehead down to touch mine, looking into my eyes I found that it was suddenly hard to breathe.
"Charlie is wondering what's going on. You better go." Edward said softly, still not making a move to pull away.
"I want you to stay with me." I said, inching my lips ever so slightly closer to his
"I'll meet you in your bedroom then." Edward said and with a quick kiss was pulling away and starting the car up again. All I could do was stare at him with my mouth open, not sure if I understood him correctly.
Edward chuckled at my expression and stroked my cheek, "That is if you want me in your bedroom?" He asked lightly, his breath washing over my face.
"Of course." I said, and then Edward was reaching across me and opening the door for me, a hint for me to leave.
"Charlie is thinking about coming out here, you better go Bella. I promise, I'll be waiting in your room once I get rid of the car." Edward said, turning to smile at me as I stepped out and with one last glace over my shoulder, shut the door.
Edward waited in the drive way until I unlocked the front door, turning around to wave at him as he started to back out of my drive way, speeding away around the corner. I was suddenly very nervous. What would happen with him in my room tonight? oh gosh, just the thought of it had butterflies in my stomach.
"Hey Dad!" I called, dropping my school bag by the front door and stepping out of my shoes, hanging my jacket on the wall.
"Hey Bells! How was your day?" Charlie asked, coming into the kitchen with an empty beer to exchange, giving me a glance over.
"It was good, I went to the Cullen's after school today." I said, following him into the living room.
"You're starting to spend a lot of time over there." Charlie said, his eyes turning from the TV onto me.
"Yeah, Alice and I are starting to become good friends." I said, trying to wrap up the conversation as quickly as possible without causing suspicion.
"That's good Bells, their good people and I'm happy your making friends so fast." Charlie said with a smile, turning back to watch the game.
"Dad, I'm really tired, I think I'm just going to go upstairs and lay down." I said, standing from my seat on the couch, making my way towards the stairs.
"Okay bells, good night." Charlie said, his eyes never once leaving the TV.
I climbed the stairs and made my way towards my bedroom, my heart beat was starting to get faster and I tried to calm it down.
When I opened my bedroom door, my heart stopped and began again. Edward was lying on my bed, hands behind his head as he lead against the head board, his feet crossed at the ankles as he looked around my room, seeming to be perfectly at ease. It wasn't seeing him exactly that made my heart stop, it was the fact that I liked the way he looked, laying on my bed like that as if he belonged there.
"I'm glad you think my beds comfy." I said, going over to sit next to him on the bed.
Edward's only reply was to flash me a crooked grin, his eyes sparkling with mischief.
"I have to go take a bath, I'm sorry. It takes to long to do it in the morning." I said, feeling guilty I should have told him to come latter, or not at all.
"Don't worry about it. I'm not going anywhere." Edward said, his hands coming up to loop lightly around my wrists.
"I'm your prisoner." He said, his breath washing over me as he leaned in closer.
"If you don't let go of me I'll never get to that bath." I said, my breathing hard as I tried not to just close the distance between our lips.
"Don't tempt me Isabella. I don't like having you out of my sight." Edward said, a low growl erupting from his chest. The way he said my name, which would usually bother me, just made me ache with arousal, the growl just turned me on even more.
I couldn't handle it any more, closing the distance between us, my lips crashed onto his, hard and passionate. His hands left my wrist to tangle into my hair the other to the small of my back, pushing me flush against his body. I couldn't help the moan escape as I felt his tongue gently prod mine.
I had to pull back to breathe, my breaths short and hard. I never wanted to stop kissing him, even if I died from lack of oxygen.
"You better go take that bath now Bella, before I don't let you go this time." Edward said, his hands releasing me from his hold.
All I could do was nod, grabbing some clothes to change into I quickly made my way to the bathroom across the hall, running a bath and turning around I gasped at myself in the mirror. My lips were red and swollen from kissing Edward's frozen lips, a red blush was stained to my cheeks and my hair looked like I had stepped out of the eighties. I looked like shit.
I quickly got into the bath tub, only slowing down in my washing when it came to my tail which was still healing after what happened at La Push. I got out quickly, blow drying my self dry before I changed into the shorts and big t-shirt I brought with me, blushing when I remembered the Victoria Secret silk pajama set I wish I had let my mom convince me into buying now.
I brushed my teeth and then made my way into in my bedroom, locking the door behind me and turning off the lights, allowing the glow from the moon through the open window guide me to my bed safely. I crawled into the covers, and was surprised when Edward initiated cuddling with me. I had to stop myself from blushing, guys who like to cuddle are such a turn on for me.
I tried to stop the yawn from escaping my mouth as I laid my head on Edward's chest, his cool arms wrapped around me as our legs lay tangled together.
"You should sleep, you've had a long day." Edward said, his mouth right by my ear.
"I wanna talk to you." I said, forcing my eyes to stay open.
"All you need to know for tonight is that I'm not going to leave you." Edward said, kissing my neck softly.
"Do you promise?" I asked, annoyed with how scared my voice sounded, even to my own ears.
"I promise. Quite frankly, I've been waiting for you to suddenly start screaming and running away from me." Edward said lightly, as if it was a joke, though I could tell by the underlying tone in his voice he believed it to be true.
"That would never happen Edward. You forget I'm not completely human either, I understand what it's like to be different." I said
"Thank you Bella, but now sleep." Edward said, his arms tightening around me ever so slightly.
My only reply was to snuggle my head deeper into his chest and let my eyes slip close. The darkness instantly surrounded me, and I thought I heard faintly a "I love you" but I was already too far gone to think about it.
Well guys! this is chapter 9! I hope you all enjoyed it! It took me a while to write it, my sister is in town but I hope it was worth the wait! Please review to give me suggestions, Im always always open with them.
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