Chapter 2: Selfish is the word

The familiar panic set over me again. I struggle to breathe but it's like I can't find any air around me. I open my eyes alarmed and cough a few times. I look at the ceiling, at my hands. It started again. I notice that the sheets are soaked and so am I. I take a few more breaths in to make the dizziness go away and I get up. immediately the room starts spinning and I fall. I look around and I see strange shapes and shadows spinning around me. I'm in incredible pain, my whole body hurts. I crawl into a ball and wait for it to pass.

This is why I asked for a single...

The next morning I wake up on the floor in a sweaty mess. Thankfully I have time for a shower and I know I need one.

I've been having these episodes for so long now it became a routine. Almost every night I wake up confused and in pain. And it always feels like it's the first time.

I walk out the door feeling slightly better, but with the same dark mood I had on my first day here. I am also hungry and I don't know how breakfast works here. But I keep walking and endure until lunch break, which came incredibly fast today. Bad day or not, it's going pretty fast.

Like I've done every day I buy some cookies and a slice of pizza, I sit at an empty table and I read not paying attention to anything that happens around me. Even if I try to not pay attention I still notice the blonde girl being bullied by the red-head. And then I look at my locker buddy and I see him sitting with his friends, who are laughing, just looking like an idiot, not helping her. Then she runs out and he goes after her. Like clock work. I said I don't want any drama, but even I am starting to get tired of this. If that guy doesn't do something soon enough I think I might.

Today, though, there is no blonde girl in sight, just the red-head eating normally. I only notice this because I finished my book and I don't have another one on me. Bored out of my mind I take my cookie and my book and walk out. I have to use the bathroom anyway.

I pick the closest bathroom and when I walk in guess who I run into? The blonde girl. Blondie as I now call her. I look at her. She sits on the counter eating a small sandwich just looking sad and defeated. I sigh and say nothing and she's happy to do the same. I go and do my business and when I come out I notice that she's still there just looking at the floor, sad. Really, this is such a pathetic sight. If I was just a bit more heartless I would've ignored it.

"You know why she keeps bothering you? It's because you're an easy target. It wouldn't kill you to talk back."

"I know!" She says frustrated.

"Then why don't you? You know what I think? I think you got comfortable with this routine. Or are you doing this to get Sasuke's attention? Cause this is not the way to do it." She looks at me surprised then goes back to her sad little corner.

"It's not like that. I just don't want to make her madder."

"Why is she doing this?"

"She thinks Sasuke left her because of me. I mean...she bothered me before that too, it just got worse after."

"And why isn't Sasuke doing anything?!"

"Because I asked him not to. I don't want him to get sucked into this." I cross my arms and look at her puzzled. I just couldn't figure her out.

"Do you...do you like Sasuke...or...?" I hated this kind of conversations! It was awkward and girlie and I wanted no part in it...

"No. We just grew up together, he's like my older brother."

"Some brother he is..."

"Hey! None of this is his fault. Don't you dare blame him!" She gets off the counter and looks at me angry. At least it's not pathetic anymore...

"Fine, whatever...Just stop looking so helpless, that's what makes her smell you." I turn to the sink and start washing my hands.

"I don't need your help! I didn't ask for it, okay?" And then she glares at me and walks out...The first time I try to help someone and it goes horribly wrong. So! Never doing that again.

I don't even know why I did it. I was never into helping people, I'm a selfish person and I know I am one, but why not be. Everyone is selfish they just hide it. And, if you think about it, selfish or not, you're still going to die at the end, might as well do what is best for you.

I go out to after that, I need to visit my locker anyway and thankfully Sasuke isn't here. I am not in the mood to listen to his stupid amusing questions...amusing for him. All I need to do is drop off my book grab some pens and I am good to go, I don't need any spectators for that. My next class was gym and I am lucky enough to witness another red-head/Blondie episode. I don't say anything though, she doesn't want me to get involved in her business, fine! She doesn't have to tell me twice. We walk in the gym and I see some more bullying. It's getting ridiculous! This red-head girl really needs to find a hobby! And still I turn around and try to ignore them. It's pretty hard since the red-head is laughing like an idiot. It's so funny you see...

The torture is finally over and we can go change and get out of here. At least on our way out there were no events. As usual I go to my locker to pick up my things for the last class for today and I figure that I should take all my things so I don't have to come back here today. This is when I notice my book is gone and instead I find a note.

'I took your book, it looked interesting. I noticed you finished it during lunch.~Sasuke'

I cannot believe this guy! He just takes my book! He just takes it! And he saw I finished it!?What? Is he stalking me?

I turn around and see a huge crowd right after the corner. I guess it's a good chance Sasuke is there too. When I get there I notice the red-head and Blondie in the middle of the crowd. What a surprise...

At the opposite wall I see Sasuke looking angry. Because looking angry solves things...

I decided to ignore everything since I'm not supposed to meddle and just ask for my book back.

"You have a lot of nerve just going around taking people's things!" I start. He looks at me like he just broke out of a dream.

"What do you mean?"

"My book! Give me my book back!"

"Can you do something for me?" He asks ignoring me.

"What?! No! I don't even know you!"

"Look! I just need you to go in there and make them stop! Just make them stop!"

"So go and stop them, what do you need me for?"

"I can't! She made me promise! She told me to stay out of it...If I interfere she'll stop talking to me and then she'll have no friends, it'll be even harder for her. Can't you just go in there and pull her out? That's all I'm asking..." I look at him and think. I told myself that I won't get sucked into any drama, that I had enough of it in my life, and now here I am about to go in there and start a fight. What are you gonna do?

"...fine...just hold this." I give him my bag and start pushing people away. When I get there I hear the red-head talking.

"Come on now! Just take it off. Weren't you the one bragging in 6th grade that you're the first in our grade to wear a bra?" How pathetic can she get? I grab Blondie's hand and push her behind me.

"You're done!" I look at the red-head and I feel the need to rip her hair out right here and now but I resist. I have a lot of anger bottled up. Then I just drag Blondie out of there and leave her next to her friend, take my bag from him and glare at them both.

"I want my book back by next week." He looks amused again and pulls out a book from his back pocket.

"This one?" I shake my head annoyed. I notice that around us the students are going back to their business. Finally, the scandal was over, but I don't expect the red-head to just stop after this. I guess I have to wait and see.