As I went to take a shower I saw the leftover bruises from yesterday. They remind me how pathetic I am that I can't stand up to my own parents. It disgusts me. I touch a yellowish one my ribs. It feels like I'm on fire.
I finish my shower up quickly so I don't see my horrible body.
Before I put my shirt on I take my daily dose of medicine. The beautiful blade that I can depend on whenever I want.
I watch as I slice my skin 3 times before watching the blood flow out.
Its like a red ribbon waiting to be tied up.
*stomp stomp* Crap someone's coming. I clean my arm up and hurriedly grabbed my stuff and jumped out my window before my so called parents see.
Im now walking to school. I'm thinking how its not fair how all these other kids can just be so happy without a care in the world.
Bad things are happening everywhere and know one gives a crap.
Most kids waste a wonderful life on drugs and jacked up things. They should know if I was them, I would want to live an amazing life that could get me far.
I'm thrown out of my thoughts as I run into someone.
Pain ripples through me as I hit the ground.
"Are you ok?", a blurry chick I think says.
"Yeah I am. Are you ok?, I say,"I wasn't watching where I was going."
"I'm good. Though we should worry more about you", she says" I mean your head is bleeding." I feel my head and remembered.I forgot my trusty helmet.
"Its ok. I'm use to it. I do crazy stunts all the time." I say shooting a charming smile at her.
"Haha ok if you say so." She says" by the way I'm Claire Faith." She was holding her hand out to me.
"I'm Carlos Garcia. Pleasure to meet you" I say shaking her hand.
"Well I got to get to class before the bell rings." She says.
I'm standing here now surprised that I'm here at school and remembering I was suppose to meet up with the guys before school. I was also wondering how did she make me stop thinking about my life for awhile while I barely talk to her
"So I'll see you around school." Claire say grinning a cute smile at me.
"Totally. See ya and I got to go too" I say.
*5 minutes later
Im now running to homeroom because the bell should be ringing any minute now.
I see the class up ahead. I'm almost there and finally I run up to it and slam it open. I make it to my seat in a record time.
When I sit in my seat, I start squirming around right away to get comfy. I'm pretty sure I had a pained look on my face cause the guys were shooting me confused and concerned faces. I shoot my famous grin at them that tells them not to worry. Cause I'm fine.
But I wont ever be. They will never know how horrible my life is. They probably don't care. Nothing will ever fix anything.
I try to pay attention in class for once but its getting too hard. I keep thinking about how I should just end my life to make things easier on everybody.
I've been keeping that thought out of my mind cause I always thought I was staying alive for the guys, but now I think of it, I never really actually had a real smile in forever.
But Claire brought that out. Not that I don't love the guys. Don't get me wrong. Their like my older brothers but She made me feel so special even though I only knew her for a short while I'm going to try and live for her. I want to see her smile again. It was so beautiful. *RING*
The bell rings for next period. The guys and I have free period next so now time to throw on the famous fake smile that I always wore now.
Time to fake my happiness and put on a mask of my feelings.
I just hope I run into Claire today. It would make my morning much more better now.
**Disclaimer : I don't own big time rush but I do own Claire Faith.
A.N./ I haven't updated this in a while. I honestly have no idea where this is going.
I think I'm making it go too fast. Please review and tell me if you like this. If no one tells me what they think of this I will probably discontinue this story.
So please review :):):)**
