Here are some messages Cas and Cate wrote in the notebook, some of them are similair to the ones in When you think life is bad for you.

The notebook messages of Castiel Novak and Cate-Lynn Di Angelo Winchester

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Cate: Do you always have that stick up your ass or only with Dean fucking Winchester and your friends?

Cas: Oh yeah, are you always that stupid or did you used some drugs?

Cate: Oh come on, it was a joke! I'm starting to think you don't have a sense of humor, relax a little.

Cas: well I do have a sense of humor and don't act like you know me Bitch!

Cate: And what do you mean by that? Because wait a minute, I don't know you and you don't know me either except the things you've heard about me.

Cas: Oh okay, so who are you and don't say you don't like talk about yourself.

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Cas: Tell me about yourself.

Cate: No.

Cas: Come on, I want to know you.

Cate: Answer is still no.

Cas: Let's make a deal, I'll ask you something, you answer, ask me something and I'll answer okay?

Cate: Okay.

Cas: What's your favorite color ?

Cate: Fuchsia pink and black, yours?

Cas: Green and blue, Favorite song?

Cate: I'll have a couple, Stairway to heaven when I'm feeling lonely, Stray from the Exies when I miss my sister, How can we hang on to a dream when I'm down and Evelyn when I'm thinking about….. never mind. Yours ?

Cas: Send me an angel, Thinking about what or maybe who ?

Cate: Somebody I fell in love with, are you in love ?

Cas: I don't know but she looks nice. What happened with your sister?

Cate: Too painful to talk about. How about your mother? I don't see her around.

Cas: Too soon to talk about. Favorite car ?

Cate: '67 Chevrolet Impala, man I would die of a ride in that car, I'm jealous of Dean for having that car. Yours?

Cas: Mine too, And you're not the only one, I would die to get that car.

Cate: It's my dream too.

Cas: Maybe that dream will come true.

Cate: Yeah maybe.

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Cate: Tell me if it's none of my business but what was Sam bickering about during lunch?

Cas: Dean was calling him Sammy and Sam was giving him one of his famous bitchfaces.

Dean said something like; Dude you look constipated' and Sam pulled a nr 95 which Dean fist pumped in the air because it's a new one.

Cate: Dean said that ? After a year ? Why didn't he said it last year?

Cas: You know that ? How? And what do you mean last year?

Cate: Dean would deny this but last year in math, he was forced to sit next to me and he was talking about that little talk before the bell rang.

He called me a bitch and I said that I thought he called Sam bitch all the time, so Dean told me about those 91 different faces and I said that to me Sam looked constipated.

Cas: Dean said to me and Jimmy, that is wasn't his thought and he always forgot it, so that was your idea?

Cate: Yes and looks like that I was right, that if Dean would say that to Sam, It would create a new face.

Cas: Yes it did, Gabe was mad at Dean.

Cate: For hurting his precious moose ?

Cas: Hahahaha that's what we all said too.

Cate: It's too bad that Dean can't be my friend in public because I would team up with him against the moose.

Cas: I know, we are all not happy about it, even Michael, don't know why.

Cate: Me neither.

Cas: I'm sorry that my dad call the cops.

Cate: Don't be.

Cas: If my father didn't, where you planning of coming back?

Cate: No but my friend would drag me here, saying that I need to graduate and bla bla bla. But I don't care anymore.

Cas: Why don't you care anymore ?

Cate: Castiel, I'm not worth it, I'm nothing.

Cas: You are worth it Cate-Lynn.

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Cas: Can I ask you how you got your name?

Cate: Yes you can, I was named after both my grandmothers, Bubba Ashley's middle name was Lynn and Nana Joanna's Middle name was Catherine, So the shortened Catherine to Cate and combined it with a hyphen and Lynn.

That's why you write Cate-Lynn like this and what's with your name?

Cas: I was named after the angel of Thursday, Gabe after the archangel Gabriel and Jimmy's Name is actually James after our father.

Cate: And he turn it into Jimmy ? If I had a son and named him James, I would call him Jamy.

Cas: If you have kids, how would you name them?

Cate: Tristan or Gerald for a boy and Ashley or Joanna for a girl. You ?

Cas: Well maybe I would like my kid named after Gabriel.

Cate: Gabriel or Gabriella, still a nice name.

Cas: I know. By the way you need to smile more.

Cate: Why?

Cas: Because I love your smile.

Cate: Thank you, You made my day.

Cas: You're welcome.

Cate: I love your smile too.

Cas: Stop it you making me blush.

Cate: Good because you're looking a bit pale.

Cas: Are you joking ?

Cate: Yes did it work?

Cas: No.

Cate: You're blushing.

Cas: Did not.

Cate: Did too.

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Cate: I need Brain bleach now.

Cas: What happened?

Cate: I saw Dean and Jimmy having sex in the janitor closet, where I was hiding.

Cas: Ewww don't want to know that.

Cate: Me neither and it was hot, I need to get ….. never mind.

Cas: Horny ?

Cate: No, just a little.

Cas: Maybe talk to the guy you like.

Cate: No way

Cas: Why not?

Cate: Picture this, a girl who's been the outcast for 3 years, walks up to you and said: Hi I'm so in love with you and I want you now !

Cas: Point taken.

Why are you blushing ?

Cate: Oh nothing, it's hot in here.

Cas: Cate-Lynn, are you in love with me ?

Cate: What ? No, Why do you think that ?

Cas: How long ?

Cate: I'm not in love with you.

Cas: Then why are you still blushing?

Cate: Because it's hot in here.

Cas: Maybe because you wearing a hoodie.

Cate: or seeing those images again.

Cas: You are totally so in love with me.

Cate: I'm not.

Cas: Okay, you're not but tell me this, when I'm at soccer practice, why do you always look at me?

Or why are you getting hot of seeing Jimmy having sex with Dean?

Or even better, Why am I the reason for you to smile ?

Cate: Oh fuck it, I'm in love with you, been that for a year but don't say anything because I know.

Cas: Well I can't say I'm in love with you but I like you a lot.

Cate: I know I'm not… What ?

Cas: Didn't expect that huh ?

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Cas: Cate-Lynn what's wrong ?

Cate: Nothing.

Cas: Then why does your shoulder hurt ?

Cate: I fell of the stairs this morning.

Cas: And your back doesn't hurt ?

Cate: Yes but I'm used to it.

Cas: Are you clumsy?

Cate: No why ?

Cas: Because you fall, or bump your head on the kitchen cabinets a little too much.

Cate: I can't help it.

Cas: You would tell me if something bad happened to you right?

(Cate didn't respond to that, afraid that she would lost him because he thinks she lying.)

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Cas: Cate-Lynn, Would you please say something?

Pwetty pwease ?

*Insert puppy dog eyes*

Cate: I can't stand those eyes.

Cas: Knew you would break !

Cate: Yeah now let me study for Math, I have a test tomorrow

Cas: You are studying ?

Cate: A little bit, can't have an F for Chemistry and Math.

Cas: Need help ?

Cate: No you would distract me.

Cas: No I'm very serious about ….. Oh right, I forgot.

Cate: Can I go back to study ?

Cas: Okay.

(Cas is making his English essay while Cate is study for her math test tomorrow)

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Cas: I'm glad to have you back.

Cate: Are you talking about me or the notebook ?

Cas: Both.

Cate: Cas, You've seen me every day for the last month.

Cas: I know but I've missed this.

Cate: Our conversations ?

Cas: Yes.

Cate: But we don't have to talk to each other like this.

Cas: No we don't but it's boring if you already finished your homework.

Cate: Well you can help me with Chemistry.

Cas: What if I distract you?

Cate: You kissed me when I was bloody on a stretcher, rolled into the ambulance, I know you are in love with me too.

Cas: I know, it was the best kiss ever.

Cate: It was my first kiss.

Cas: Honored to be your first kiss.

Cate: But I can't be your girlfriend right now.

Cas: It's okay, I understand, a lot happened and there's more to come but remember, I'm staying by your side and call me if you need a shoulder to cry on.

Cate: That's Dean's department now.

Cas: At home but here it is my duty.

Cate: Okay, so help me with Chemistry ?

Cas: Wait a minute, isn't that your project with Jimmy ?

Cate: Yes why?

Cas: Shouldn't you do this with my twin ?

Cate: He's busy of ravishing my brother right now.

Cas: Brain bleach.

Cate: Yeah I know, although Dean is hot.

Cas: On his own way.

Cate: Are you jealous ?

Cas: NO

Cate: You are.

Cas: No I'm not.

Cate: Yes you are but that's okay Dean is hot in his own way.

Cas: Cate, when the trial against Thomas and Nicole is over, I would like to take you on a date.

Cate: Well ask me when the time is right but now CHEMISTRY.

Cas: Alright

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Cas: Heey Cate, just want to let you know that I'm very proud of you.

You stood up and a part of me was disappointed that I couldn't stand up for you like I would do for you.

You know I do anything for you, well almost anything.

Just keep strong and remember, we all are here for you.

Love Cas.

Cate: Heey Cas, Thank you for your sweet message.

I know I'm not alone anymore but I don't know how school react on what I did today.

I also would do almost anything for you and I know I have you all and that's how I stay strong

Love Cate.

PS. Have you seen my I-pod?

PS II . Never mind, I found it.

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Cas: I'm bored.

Cate: Me too

Cas: How long does it takes to look at those scans ?

Cate: They just want to make sure that nothing is broken and don't need another surgery.

Cas: I know babe but it's taking them too long.

Cate: There are other patients too you know, the ones who required more medical attention.

Cas: I know that too but I want to take you home now.

Cate: I know .

How's the hand?

Cas: Sore but I'll live.

Cate: Have you let the doctor looked at that?

Cas: When they took a scan of you. It's not broken, a bit bruised but it's fine.

Cate: Yeah well I feeling fine too in case you would ask.

Cas: Can you read my mind ?

Cate: No I'm not a mind reader or an angel.

Cas: You are an angel to me.

Cate: Aww you are so sweet, you're an angel too.

Cas: I would kiss you but we made a deal.

Cate: Yeah no kissing on the mouth but you can kiss my cheek or the top of my hair or my hand.

Cas: I know.

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Good luck tomorrow Cate !

We be thinking about you!

With love, Cas, Jimmy, Dean, Gabe, Sam, Michael, Adam, Charlotte, Jo, Ash and well actually everybody from Lawrence high.

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Cas: Do you have plans for tonight ?

Cate: No why?

Cas: I think it's time.

Cate: Time for what ?

Cas: To ask you officially out. So want to go out with me?

Cate: Like a date ?

Cas: Yes I take you on a date.

Cate: Yes I want to go out with you.

Cas: Awesome, I'll pick you up by seven.

Cate: Looking forward.

Cas: Need some help with the English essay.

Cate: Done

Cas: Chemistry?

Cate: Done

Cas: Math, Physics or biology?

Cate: Done, done and done.

Cas: What are you doing?

Cate: Reading a novel for my book report.

Cas: That isn't due for a month.

Cate: Yeah I'll have to write book reports from four different books and this is the third one.

Cas: But the diary of Anne Frank ?

Cate: Well it's a bit different than Tolstoy or Freud but this book tells the story of a Jewish girl who had to hide in World War II .

Cas: What are the other ones ?

Cate: The rise and fall of the mob and I found love.

Cas: With one is your favorite?

Cate: The rise and fall of the mob, It's about a guy named Jack Lessor, who join the mafia after his dad was killed by a rival mafia.

Jackles is named after that character, He was so angry and determined to avenge the death of his father, that he was turned into a monster.

Cas: And what would be the last one.

Cate: Don't know.

Cas: How about Christine by Stephen King?

Cate: Isn't that a movie?

Cas: Yes but it is a book too.

Cate: Thank you for the suggestion, now let me read my book.

Cas: Okay.

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Cas: Where were you the whole weekend ?

Cate: I was with Balthazar.

Cas: So he knows what a dick I am.

Cate: Yes he knows what happened, a big bucket of ice-cream betrayed it already.

Cas: Listen Cate, I told you from the beginning that I'm bisexual.

Cate: Yeah I know Cas, what about it?

Cas: You have no right to judge us and be mad as us because Dean and me were making out.

You had no right to walk out that door without me talking to you.

You had no right because you knew I like Dean.

Cate: You think I was mad about you two making out?

That I thought you were cheating on me ?

Do you really think that I was mad about that?

Cas: Why would you yell at me and walk away from us?

You know I love you.

Cate: Okay let me set this straight, yes I was mad when I caught you two making out, no I didn't think you were cheating on me and frankly I was mad BECAUSE YOU TWO DIDN'T INVITED ME IN!

Cas: You were mad because we left you out?

But why did you leave ?

Cate: Yes and I left the house to calm down.

Dealing with a broken girl rule nr 1 : if she mad, give her the time to cool down because if you don't, You'll be getting hurt and she don't want to do it.

Rule nr 2: if she is in her cooling down period, don't even bother to contact her, she contact you after she cools down.

And FYI, my phone "died" after you seventh call when I smashed it to the wall.

Rule nr 3: let her do the talk, she tell you why she's mad and then you talk about it.

Rule nr 4: If you be the boyfriend, just have sex after.

Cas: I'm sorry Cate, I love you and I don't want to lose you.

Cate: I'm sorry too, I love you too and I never want to lose you too.

Cas, do you realize that this was our first fight?

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Cas: our first fight in the notebook, guess I'll have to obey rule nr 4 someday. I love you Cate

Dean: I love you Cate and I'm sorry I didn't think of you to join us that day, I would love to and just FYI, we didn't do anything, not without you and BTW, the pie was heavenly, why didn't you take the pie too? Love Dean

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Cate: I love you guys too and the ice cream was chocolate, my own comfort flavor.

I couldn't take the pie with me too, it's a shame to stuff my mouth with pie and ice cream and throw up an hour later.

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Dean, Cas, Jimmy, Gabe Michael, Adam and Sam: Congratulations, welcome to the family Cate-Lynn Angel Winchester.

Cate: Thanks guys, but really do you have to write this in the note book ?

Cas: Of course, this is the one you always treasure.

Cate: Your own thought or Dean's?

Cas: Both.

Cate: Just what I thought.

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Dean and Cas: Cate we don't want to hurt you but what we did last night, it won't happen again ever.

Cate: I agree.

Cas: No you don't under…. What?

Cate: Guys it was great but it became awkward after that.

Dean: Yeah, can we go back? I mean you two dating, me and Cas being friends and Cate and me being siblings?

Cate and Cas: We never left that part.

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Cas: Dean is coming with us.

Cate: I know, Lisa was a bitch when he asked her to prom.

Cas: How can she say that she didn't date losers.

Cate: I found out that she is homophobic and Dean dated your twin for years.

Cas: She knows he love both genders.

Cate: Well her lost, who's Jimmy taking to the prom ?

Cas: A girl named Evelyn.

Cate: Oh my goodness, one of the song I'm going to sing is Evelyn.

Cas: Are you singing Stray too?

Cate: Yes because that one is actually requested by some of the students.

Cas: Which songs are you going to sing too?

Cate: Lithium and Nothing else matters. I'm going to play the piano and guitar too.

Cas: Can't wait to hear you sing.

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Cas: Can't believe that you can't come to college with me.

Cate: I can't believe that KU didn't accept you.

Cas: You're staying in Kansas?

Cate: Yes because you are going to Harvard.

Besides it's not a secret that Yale and Harvard students are hating each other.

Cas: That's true.

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I'm sorry Cate, this is the last time I'm writing in this notebook.

If I didn't broke up with you on our date, you now know I break up with you.

But if I did, Don't be angry with me, I still love you and I don't want to lose you forever.

I made you happy the last months and I was happy too but it wasn't the time.

I've been your first everything and with pain in my heart, I want you to date other guys (except for Dean of course unless it's a family bond thing)

We'll see each other after college and if the sparks are there, we know we are made for each other.

I'm sorry for breaking your heart and I love you.

With Love and –XXX- Cas