Well this chapter is during the second year college when Cate and Dean rescued Pamela from her abusive boyfriend.
What Cate told Pamela
Cate took her stuffed animals and monsters in her arms, after she and Pamela were lying on their matrasses on the floor.
Cate started to talk.
The reason that I knew that Jesse was hitting you, it's because I've been abused by my parents, physically and mentally.
Let me start at the beginning because if I don't, you wouldn't understand why.
I had a different last name until 4 months before my 18th birthday.
The name I was given was Cate-Lynn Di Angelo, I was the second daughter of Thomas and Nicole and 15 minutes younger twin of Carolynn.
Thomas and Nicole were surprised that they got 2 daughters and my twin was loved by them.
They gave her the names Carolynn Anastasia and they were really happy but when the midwife found an another heartbeat, Nicole went to the OR so they could perform a C-section.
When I was born, Nicole wouldn't even look at me.
After some hours, my grandparents were there and I didn't had a name because Thomas and Nicole were happy about Carolynn and they didn't give a damn about me.
I've been named after both my grandmothers, Joanna Catherine and Ashley Lynn by themselves, not by Thomas and Nicole.
Thomas and Nicole said that Carolynn was beautiful and she was perfect and I wasn't, which is ridiculous because Carol and me are identical.
Well I had a lactose intolerance and couldn't drink or eat products like cheese, butter or milk.
To Thomas and Nicole, that was a sign of me being a devil or something bad so they turned their back on me.
If it wasn't for my grandparents, I died as a baby.
My whole life, I got insults and they told me I was nothing.
That's why I never refer Thomas and Nicole as my parents.
Cate took a big breath and asked : You remember that accident 5 years ago, on a bridge just outside Lawrence?
Pam nodded and said: You mean that Deadly car maneuver accident?
Cate said: Yes that one.
Pam noddedand said: I still wondering how that girl is doing.
Cate smiled and she continued.
Well you talk with her right now, I was in that accident and yes I know I've been lucky, I didn't have permanent damage or died but I had an amnesia.
I didn't remember Thomas and Nicole, Carol, Michael, Luke, my friends or the accident.
When I got home, I think it's was almost 3 months after the accident, Thomas began to beat me for killing their precious daughter.
They also told lies about me, so when I returned to school, I was being bullied by the whole school.
Thomas and Nicole told them that I was the one who killed Lucifer Milton and Carol, they were popular because Luke was the captain of the football team and Carol was the head cheerleader.
And before you ask, yes Dean was my biggest bully.
Apart from some shoving against the lockers and insults, Dean never hit me.
The hate continued, at school, at home and I was completely alone.
I build a wall inside my head and didn't care about anyone or anything.
I had a friend, Balthazar, who turns out to be my half-brother and he was the reason why I didn't kill myself at age 15.
Before the accident, I was a straight A student and after the accident, when hell broke loose, I barely passed my class because I didn't care about it.
But the beatings, yelling, calling names and other things continued till I was 17.
My senior year began like every other year for the last 3 years, I come to school, got some name calling and shovels and don't forget the endless speech about give my best.
After a couple months, Dean and me were civil to each other in secret but the whole school didn't know that the insults were actually an act between me and the guys.
But that changed not long after.
I had a major fight with Thomas and Nicole and I was almost beaten to death, what I didn't know at that time because after 2 hours I was unconscious and when I woke up an hour later, I had a sore stomach and my chest was hurt.
I was checking myself, my whole body was covered in bruises and I was glad that I didn't had severe damage.
So I went to bed that night and woke up the next day with nausea.
I knew that Thomas kicked my stomach over and over again but I didn't know that I had a serious internal bleeding.
So I went to school, Jimmy, Cas and Dean were worried about me because I didn't eat in the diner, I even decline half of Dean's breakfast and you know that Dean doesn't share his food.
When I was in Writing, we had to write some lines of a song and read it out loud.
After I read it before my classmates, I threw up blood and Cas held me in his arms before I was unconscious.
When I woke up, Cas was crying, Jimmy held him and a nurse was looking at my body with a worried face.
I instantly knew that they all saw my bruises and when the paramedics asked me who did it, I knew that I couldn't keep it a secret anymore.
So I told them and they took me to the hospital.
After some x-rays and scans, the surgeon didn't waste any time and I went to the OR.
Turns out that I had some cracked ribs and a ruptured liver and I was in a critical situation.
That's why I have a scar on my stomach.
And that's why Dean and Sam are so protective of me.
But the case is, when a teenager comes into the hospital after the teenager tells the doctors about the abused by her father, they are forced to call social services and especially when the police are called in too.
So social services took my belonging out of the house and Michael stored the most of them in his parents' house.
Dean can tell you what happened between that day of the surgery and the day I heard John told the lady from social services, Daisy Smith, that he and his wife Mary would take me in.
So I became Dean and Sam's foster sister first.
Because they had to make room for me, I stayed with Michael to recover first and after a month, I was living with the Winchesters, had a lot of cards of the students and I worked hard on my recovery and my grades.
So everything was great, I gave John and Mary a huge Christmas present, I called them mom and dad out loud for the first time and that's why I prefer them call them mom and dad because they became my parents in a few months.
They believe that Family doesn't end in blood and they are right.
My grandparents are all dead or at least I've been told.
But I was happy, I got finally the parents I've always dreamed about, two loving brothers, a lot of friends and Cas who was noticing me and want to be my boyfriend.
But after the holidays, thing went wrong.
I had lunch and I was waiting for the guys, when Thomas and Nicole came into the canteen.
They were shouting and screaming at me and I was calm and tell them what I always thought of them, that they were never my parents and they didn't earn the right to be called mom and dad by me.
At that point, Thomas lost it and stormed to me to beat the crap out of me, unfortunate for him, it was the opposite.
What I didn't know that the whole school saw it happened and some of the students even recorded the fight with their phone.
Thomas and Nicole were only convicted for drugs and prostitution and not for abuse, so they didn't had a restraining order.
So they had reported the abuse against me to the police and I was in deep trouble because it was my word against theirs.
Well that evening the police had to drop it because of the testimonies and clips, my schoolmates made.
So Thomas and Nicole walked free and the day after, they came back.
Thomas was rageous and in a minute, I was lying on the ground after Thomas kicked me, Thomas was knocked out by Cas and everyone in the class was either filming it or called for help.
I was throwing up blood again and after a checkup in the hospital, I was released.
Things came quick and after a few months, Thomas and Nicole were sent to prison and they never are allowed to contact me again .
So after the lawsuit, I could be happy and never had to be afraid again.
But I wasn't happy because of my last name and mom, dad, Dean and Sam knew it.
So they talked to me and said that they will adopted me if I want and carry their last name.
I was happy and I wanted a middle name too, so Angel became my middle name after the adoption.
Cate looked at Pamela, who was sitting there with tears in her eyes.
So that's why you knew. Pamela said.
Cate smiled and said: Yes, because you can take a person out of the abuse but the abuse stays in the person and it's to them how to deal with it.
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