A/N Things are going to start to get messy in the next few chapters! This one is basically building up relationships between the character. Again I am so sorry for the mistakes. If anyone is willing to beta let me know.

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"Where the hell have you been Kelly?" Shay yelled at me the second I opened the door, I know I said I would be available to her at all time but for whatever reason anger quickly set in. "I got held up taking care of a few things…Look it doesn't matter what matters is I am here now."

She scoffed at me rolling her eyes walking away. " If you are having second thoughts Severide it's a little late." Her tone angered yet in an odd way happy. "What do you mean?" I asked like an idiot because I had a feeling saying the wrong thing will only get my ass chewed out right now. "It's happening!" She almost squealed turning around jumping on me. Excitement flood through me I grabbed her giving her a big hug, this was it I am really going to be a dad.

"Are you sure you want to be part of this. I mean I can do it alone but I would rather not." Narrowing my eyes listening to Shay I shook my head. "No. I want this Shay. We are doing this and I am happy about it."

"well it's just you been so hung up this past week on Alana I thought maybe you wanted out." I look at her like she was crazy then walked into the kitchen to grab a beer. " What does she have to do with our baby? Shay I am just giving her some…Shit I don't even know what to call it I just know if she was you and I had no idea where you were I would want someone to stick around and make sure you are ok." Shay took a deep breath and followed me into the kitchen jumping up on the counter. " I know. You have a big heart. I mean look at what you're doing for me. I just never seen you so attached to a victim before." Turning back to look at Shay taking a small sip I nod agreeing then shrug not wanting to talk more about it.

Shay went on for hours about baby names, finding a new place, going to the right Doctors she had a mental list of everything she needed and wanted done. I myself could not be happier. I have wanted to be a father for a long time now. What better way than to have a kid with your best friend. You don't have to worry about breaking up and fighting in front of the kid. Shay talked herself right to sleep I chuckled some covering her up with a blanket on the couch before getting up heading to my room when my phone rang. I didn't want shay to wake up so I quickly answered.

"Hello?" I kept a low tone until I reached my room and shut the door, when I heard her voice I smiled and laid back on my bed. " Hi Severide. I hope it's really is ok I called. It's me. Alana." I knew it was her the second she said hello but didn't say anything just went along with it.

" Alana. It's ok that you called, I wouldn't have given you my number unless I wanted you to call."

"I know. You don't do anything you don't want to" She said with a small laugh. Hearing it made me grin wide. She had a beautiful laugh. It was nice to hear considering how my visit had gone. " I just wanted to say I am sorry for my reactions today. I guess I am just trying to deal with the news still and the thought of having to tell strangers is hard to swallow."

"Tell strangers what? If you don't want to tell them yourself about your memory. I can explain it all to them for you." I say confused not really following what she is talking about.

"No. No. I am sorry I just can't. I am not ready to tell people who are supposed to be family that I lost a precious life. "

"Lana. There wasn't any other cars or bodies. I am not sure why you think there was but no one died." The line got really quiet, for a second I thought she hung up but I could hear her sniffle into the phone.

"I just wanted to say thank you for the privet room. And for staying as long as you did. I hope maybe you can come visit me again." Something about her tone broke my heart. There was something I was missing but I didn't want to force anything out of her.

"How about tomorrow? We can go for a walk or whatever you're feeling up to."

"I would love that." Her tone seemed to lift, I could tell she wasn't really ready to hang up yet and to be honest either was I.

"So, what kind of music do you think you like?" I asked grinning leaning over grabbing my I pod. Lana Giggled and returned the question. A good portion of the night ended up with me playing her most of my favorite songs and her giving me her intake on the lyrics. I don't think I have ever just lied around talking about nothing but having a whole lot to say.

Slowly I can hear her energy dropping. I think she even started to fight sleep because not everything she was saying made perfect sense. "Are you tired?" I chuckle into the phone feeling my eyes get heavy myself. "Not really but if you want to go I understand" I smile to myself and lay back on the bed getting comfortable. " I don't want to hang up but when you're ready let me know"

"MmKay." She said then we both got quiet, I could hear her lightly breathing into the phone. I told myself to hang up but all I did was shut my eyes and fall asleep listening to her for some reason knowing she was alright made me feel more relaxed.

When I woke up I still had the phone to my ear. I couldn't even remember falling asleep. I laid there for a few more minutes thinking about Alana and trying to make more sense of what she meant by her losing a precious life. I know she wouldn't be able to say more but I wondered what Hailey could tell me. "SEVERIDE GET UP WE WILL BE LATE!" Shay yelled from down stairs I looked at the clock then jumped up out of bed rushing to get ready. Shay stood by the door holding a cup of coffee for me and tea for herself rolling her eyes at me walking out. "It's rough acting like a teen on the phone all night huh?" She laughed at me as nudged her giving her a playful glare while opening the car door. "Does it really bother you so much?" I say more annoyed but trying to play it off like I am joking.

"Not really. I just don't get it. Do you like her or something? Are you trying to get laid?" I start the car not even giving her an answer. She gets in staying quiet but I swear I can hear her thoughts about me getting involved with a victim. She is only attached because of hero syndrome and the rest of the bull shit.

Once we got to the fire house we went our separate ways as we normally do. I went into the locker room putting my things away.

"Hey man." Casey walked in to change for shift, I knew better then to ask but I couldn't help myself.

"Hey." I look at him for a long moment then just ask to get it over with. "Hailey say anything about Alana and what's going on with her?" Casey looked at me four different kinds of confused and shook his head. "Who is Alana?" When he didn't even know her name I lost hope and shook my head. "Never mind. If Hailey stops by do you think I can talk to her for a second?" Matt shrugged and started to walk away not even thinking twice about it. "Yeah sure. She is coming by for lunch later I'll send her your way."