A/N I know last chapter wasn't so great but things start to pick up in this one. I hope you enjoy it. I'll try to get the next one up soon. Again All mistakes are my own and I apologize for it.
"Alana." The Doctor walked into my room reading my charts he smiled when I looked over at him. "You seem to be better today than the last time we spoke. Have you been able to get up and walk around at all?" I shook my head sitting up straighter. "Well that is ok. You take all the time you need. But I do want you to at least walk around the room five minutes every hour. We want to keep your strength up." I nodded fiddling with my hands. The Dr sighed and walked over taking a seat in the chair by the bed. "Alana. I really think speaking with a therapist might help you with your memory. I know yesterday was hard to hear but unless you talk about it your only prolonging your stay here."
"Yes I understand. I will think about it. More seriously." Looking at him worried that if I ever left the hospital I would have nowhere to go. The Dr patted my leg then got up and walked out. I laid back down looking at the hospital phone wanting to call Severide but after falling asleep last night on the phone with him I am not sure how he will act. My eyes grow heavy and I begin to drift off to sleep only to be met by a whole new night mare.
~ Standing alone in a dark room I hear heavy footsteps walking dangerously slow towards me. I turn full circle trying to figure out where the steps are coming from but its pitch black. No light showing anywhere I am just lost. "Who's there?" I call out trying to sound brave only to hear a menacing laugh. I start to run not knowing how big the room is or where I am going I just run. "Go ahead run, I always find you!" The voice stated calmly as if he can see me but I can't see him. The room is suddenly filled with a small cry from a child I can't keep running away I stop trying to figure out where the cry is coming from. "See what you did Alana? You should have listened to me now shouldn't you have?" My heart breaking listening to the cry I become angry. " Show yourself! Stop being a coward" My tone shaken I wait for a reply. The room is quiet not a single sound. Just as I am about to relax two hands are around my neck squeezing the life out of me. I try to scream but only a gurgling noise is made. Telling myself to fight back not to give up I Kick whoever it is hard enough to get his hands to drop away. Stumbling back a little I again start to run this time right into a door. My hands shaken reach for the handle but it's already turning. As the door opens I am blinded by a light, My eyes adjust and he is there. Severide grabs my hand and pulls me into the light with him slamming the door behind us and bringing me to safety. ~
Awaken by the dream I gasp loudly my eyes flying open I blink a few times confused wondering if I am still dreaming because there he is, at the foot of my bed Severide stood with a look of guilt. "I didn't mean to wake you up." He said moving closer to me he frowned brushing the hair out of my face and sat at the edge of my bed. He looked at me like he knew everything I didn't . He's hand cupped my cheek looking firmly into my eyes. "You're safe. I can promise you that. Whatever you're afraid of it can't hurt you here." I couldn't help it, I started to ball tears I don't even know what I am afraid of or if there is anything to be scared of but knowing he was there just made me feel safe. My hand moved over his the second I touched his hand with mine he laced our fingers together. If my memories where as bad as my dream I didn't want them back. I didn't have any words to say to him but I wanted him there. No I needed him here so I moved back making room for two in the bed. I didn't even have to say a word he laid down moving his arm so I could lay curled into his side sniffling trying to keep myself calm. Severide brushed his fingers through my hair that was all it took for me to relax. We laid there in silence for what seemed like hours. I fought falling asleep, every time I did I would have a nightmare. Severide however at some point dozed off. I was glad he did because the longer he slept the longer he would stay.
Severide POV
Sitting at the table with the squad guys I found myself checking the time over and over. When would Hailey get here and would she even tell me what I want to know? I tried to keep myself relaxed by smoking a cigar but my mind kept returning to Alana. Grinning to myself I started to think back to last night. Alana. When we started to talk about everyday stuff she was amazing. She has a very unique take on well everything. She made me rethink the meanings behind some of my favorite songs. The way she spoke I could tell she was educated. I keep trying to find ways to help her memory but the more I do that the more I find myself drawn to her. Maybe Shay is right. I am getting too close, she could be married she has a family out there. This woman did not just appear out of thin air for me to fall for right? Wait fall for? I laugh at my thought and shake my head. I am not falling for a victim I am just trying to help her out.
"You in there Kelly?" A hand waved in front of my face, I snapped out of my daze and looked up. Casey and Hailey where looking at me laughing. I cleared my throat sitting up. "hey guys. How's it going?" I put out my cigar as they both sit down.
"Severide, Casey said you wanted to talk to me about Alana? How is she?" Hailey smiled at me I could tell she was just as curious and worried as I was. "I am not really sure actually. I mean I talked to her last night she was fine. But she did say a few things I don't really understand. I was hoping you could help me. " Casey arched his brows at me and leaned in. "Severide are you sure you want to go in deeper with this? It could mean a lot of different things." He said nodding towards Shay who was with Dawson looking over at us.
" I will handle Shay. I want to know what you meant about her having a bad day the other day. And I need to know why Alana thinks she killed someone." My tone was harsh and unsettling Hailey sat back in her seat and nodded to Casey to give us some time.
"Severide I shouldn't tell you this. I could lose my job. " She started but didn't end there. " I was with the Dr when he was overlooking x rays from her arm and leg. He found a lot, I mean a lot of untreated fractures. And even a couple bones that where broken and never treated correctly. It looks like she was abused for a long time. Maybe a boyfriend or something. We are not sure." Anger flooded inside me listening to her, how anyone could beat someone as amazing as Alana. No wonder she couldn't remember anything, maybe she didn't want to remember. My fist balled under the table Hailey looked at me concerned. " When the Dr told her she didn't take it so well. Especially because he had to tell her that time of the accident she was 8 weeks pregnant, and due to the trauma she lost the baby."
"Oh shit." I muttered feeling my heart break for Alana. She must feel completely alone right now, and I felt like the biggest asshole trying to find her so called family. What was I going to do find the asshole that beat her and hand her over. "I need to go." I said getting up quickly worried that someone might have found her out where she was. "thank you Hailey." I grabbed my shit and Left in the middle of my shift, I didn't care about anything but making sure Alana was safe.
