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The moment I walked in Alana's room something inside me changed. The way she looked peacefully asleep I couldn't wake her up. I stood at the foot of her bed watching her. I knew nothing about this girl but I felt a need to protect her. To care for her. I couldn't even imagine walking away from her. I know Shay thinks it's a bad Idea but at this point I don't care. We agreed on the baby but, not on giving up having separate lives. I know what I want and If she allows it then I want Alana to be part of my life. Whatever that means.

Watching Alana sleep I noticed her brow started to furrow. She looked like she was in distress. A few seconds later she quietly whimpered in her sleep. My heart stopped for a moment as I watched her struggle with a bad dream I couldn't handle seeing her miserable in her sleep on top of everything else so I shook her leg making her wake with a gasp. . "I didn't mean to wake you up." I quickly lied walking over to her. She looked at me confused still with tired eyes, I could tell she was scared of whatever she was dreaming I had to comfort her. My hand without my knowledge brushed against her cheek. She seemed to relax against my touch nuzzling her cheek into my hand she didn't have to say anything, her eyes spoke for her. "You're safe. I can promise you that. Whatever you're afraid of it can't hurt you here." She broke down in tears moving her hand over mine almost like she was checking to see if I was real. Our hands laced together as we sat in silence.

Alana moved over on the bed I wasn't sure if she meant for me to lie with her but I did anyway. Gathering her in my arms nothing was said nothing needed to be said. She just needed to be held, to be made sure that she was safe. I just needed her close and to ensure she was safe. I closed my eyes once she became settled and comfortable. Millions of situations running through my mind, how would I deal with the baby and Alana? Should I tell her? Would it be insensitive if I told her considering she just lost a baby? What do I tell Shay about how I am feeling? And If I did fall for Alana or anyone for that matter would she try to take our baby from me? I guess the constant mind chatter tired me out after a while because next thing I knew I was waking up on my side with my arms wrapped around Alana. I Lifted my head to see if she was asleep but she wasn't, she was wide awake and watching TV.

"You snore." Alana Giggled looking back at me, I grinned trying to playfully glare at her. "I do not." She just laughed harder and nodded. "No really you do. You did last night and you did today." I rolled my eyes and tickled her side earning another laugh. "Maybe a little." She mocked me by making a loud snoring noise I had to laugh, Whoever thought Snoring would sound cute coming from someone.

Alana turned on her side facing me I could tell she wanted to say something so I let her take her time saying it. Her eyes searched mine for a few moments, the way she gazed into mine made me forget where I was it was a surreal feeling. Everything around her sort of melted away. All I could see was Alana. "Is it ok that we are lying down like this?" Her soft spoken words brought me back to reality. "What do you mean?" I answer with a question not really sure I myself if this is ok, not that I really cared if it wasn't because it sure as hell felt right. "I mean are you sure you want to be lying down with me like this, You don't have. I mean. You don't have to feel obligated to. I want you to I kind of like it But um I don't want to get you in trouble with anyone." She spoke over herself trying to explain. I understood what she meant but the way her cheeks turned a light crimson color I let her go on until I could see she was becoming uncomfortable with my silence. "What have I told you? I don't do anything I don't want to?" I pause looking at her remembering the baby she lost. "DO you feel like this is wrong?" She shrugged her shoulders then moved away. I watched her closely wondering if she was going to tell me about the baby now. "I don't know. I think it is but it doesn't feel wrong. I..I " Her words cracked, tears filled her eyes. " I just don't know. Maybe we should go for a walk."

We both walked quietly down the hall, My kept a step behind her only because she looked slightly unstable. All I could really think about Is what if she is married or has a boyfriend. What if her memory comes back and she is deeply in love. Would she just walk out of my life? Then I started to wonder why that pissed me off so much. I should be more focused on Shay right now anyway. Right?

"Do you think we can go outside?" My eyes cut to Alana as she finally spoke. She smiled sweetly at me using my arm to keep herself steady. I made a decision right then and there. I don't care how I feel or what I will afterwards but I was going to be what she needed until she told me otherwise. "Sure we can. You should get some fresh air." She nodded her head agreeing with me as we walked out towards the lobby doors. I helped her walk over towards a bench area making sure her gown was fully covered.

"Severide?" I had to chuckle when I heard it. "What are you doing here? The chief is asking where the hell you are and Casey keeps making excuses." She all about growled at me, I turned to face her and grinned. "Shay." Noticing Dawson standing next to her I smiled even though she was giving me the you're fucked kind of look. "Dawson. This is Alana." Shay looked over at her and gave her a quick smile then looked back at me shook her head then walked away back to their ambulance.

"They seemed nice." Alana said in a truly sincere tone. "Are you supposed to be working? You can go and I'll get back to my room. I'm getting tired anyway. " Helping her back up I sighed and nodded helping her back inside. " I was only going to stop by for a few minutes but I guess I lost track of time. I'm off tomorrow morning. How about I stop by for breakfast?" Alana leaned into my side I could tell she was losing her strength so I grabbed a wheel chair and started back to her room. "Okay"

I got Alana back in bed and helped her adjust to get comfortable. It was starting to get harder to walk away from her but I did. I went back to the station had a talk with the chief about why I took off. I didn't tell him the exact truth about it but to be fair I don't even think I am telling myself the truth about Alana and what's going on between us.

"Severide!" Shay Hissed pulling my arm so we were alone. " What the hell are you doing? We have a deal no personal relationships until AFTER the baby is born. God. This is so like you, I give you the benefit of the doubt and you let me down."

"Shay knock it off. I don't have a personal relationship with her, how many times do I have to tell you it's just until her family shows up. You're stressing over nothing and that's not good for you or the baby." I put both my hands on her shoulders and bent down so I was eye level with her giving her my best charming grin. "You have nothing to worry about." Scoffing a laugh shaking my head " Come on shay you know me. I wouldn't let you or our baby down. I'm just helping the needy. In a way I am only doing my job." She rolled her eyes but smiled anyway. " Okay. Fine." With that she walked away leaving me with a headache. I was going to go lay down but of course there was a call and I was running out the door to save more lives.