Spock and Jim smiled proudly into the camera, arms around each other and holding their diplomas at their graduation. Both had received out-standing results, and were accepted into NYU, starting in the fall. Jim was going to study astrophysics whilst Spock was studying all areas of physics to go on and either be a researcher or teach. Winona hugged her son, whilst Frank shook his hand. He, his mother and Frank had all sat down together and spoke about everything, resolving all problems. It took a few weeks but in the end it was sorted.

"Oh my baby! If only Sammy could be here to…" Winona started, before chocking up, tears building in her eyes.

"He can see, he's up there with Dad." Jim said softly, hugging his mum again, tightly before passing her over to Frank to hug Spock. "I did it!"

"I knew you would, I had complete faith in you." Spock replied softly, stroking the tears away from Jim's eyes. "I love you so much."

"I love you too." Jim jumped to capture Spock's lips, his hat flying off. And Amanda captured the entire thing on film.

After a long summer of living out the last few days of childhood, and a very tearful last get together of the group before they went their separate ways down by the lake, Jim and Spock left Riverside behind, hand in hand, destined for a long, happy time in New York.

Then fate stepped in.

Jim was flooded with too many memories, and however tightly Spock held him, he couldn't make Jim feel comfortable. One rainy night, the fight happened. And Jim returned to Riverside alone. Amanda and Sarek visited their son the day after, and when asked where Jim was, Spock fell to his knees and cried on his mother's lap. Jim was doing the very same thing at his house.

Four years later

"Amanda would like to know if you fancy coming over with me next Sunday, she hasn't seen you in the longest time. And she says Spock may visit." Winona said, as Jim played with the cord of phone. His heart leapt in false hope, like it did every time the name was mentioned. Jim sighed a little, watching his night activity sneak out of the flat, trying not to be noticed.

"I don't know…. It was a rough end." Jim replied, flicking through his phone. His graduation photo with him and Spock was still there. He wanted to see him once more. "Okay. I will."

"Wonderful, I'll pick you up at 12!"

"I changed my mind. I'll sit here and scare kids who try to steal the car. " Jim squeaked, as they pulled up at the Grayson residence. Frank laughed a little, getting out of the car, as Winona went around and kneeled at Jim's open door.

"Jimmy, he agreed to see you, he can't hate you. What is this really about?"

"I don't want to face him, know that he's moved on. When I still love him…."

"If he has, this will help you." Holding out her hand, Jim took it, holding tightly as they walked up the path. Amanda was a pleasant as always, hugging him, taking their coats and sitting them down. Jim was half way through a cup of coffee when Spock walked in.

He was even more handsome than he had been as a teen. He held a mature air, strong features of a man, but still the soft, beautiful brown eyes that Jim loved. He was taller; more toned and still had the fashion sense of a gay man. He stared at Jim for a moment, smiling a little.

"It is nice to see you again James." He said politely, as Jim stood. Jim wanted to cry. He wanted to scream and yell, punch Spock square in the face. He wanted to hug him, kiss him, make love to him on the rug in front of everyone. Feeling so much, he felt nothing, thus his face mimicked Sarek's.

"Yeah… excuse me I'm going to be sick." Jim dashed into the kitchen, and lent over the since for what felt like hours. He listened to Spock answer questions about his life now, and if he was seeing anyone. Jim smiled with relief when he said he was seeing anyone seriously, but that didn't mean there wasn't someone waiting in his bed when he got home. Like the time Jim did when he had a day off. Jim decided he wasn't welcome in Spock's life anymore, and was going to phone who-ever-he-was to come and bend over for Jim until the pain stopped.

"James, are you alright?" Spock asked, standing in the doorway.

"Don't call me that, I'm going home…. I have someone there waiting for me." Jim crossed the room quickly, stopping at the back door. "What… What did we fight about?"

"I do not remember. It might have been about you wishing to return home for a few weeks mid-term, when I advised strongly that you did not and focused on your studies." God, Jim had missed his deep, logical voice.

"Something as stupid as that?"

"I am rather stubborn when education is involved." They both chuckled nervously, Jim looking at the floor. "I know this will make no difference, but not a day has gone by when I haven't thought of you; I only dated 3 other people after you, all named James so I could think of you when I was with them, I called out your name, which made me feel like I was cheating. It was wrong. I love you with all my heart James, I think of you when I wake up and before I sleep. But I can see you are happy with whoever she or he is, and I wish you both a world of happiness. I apologise for keeping you, you may leave." Spock quickly turned away, hurt and glad he had said that, going to make more tea. A pair of arms wrapped around him, and a cheek was pressed against his back. "I thought you were returning to you partner."

"They're just another nameless fuck buddy to try and forget." Spock turned around, hugging Jim. "I love you too, I still love you."

"I love you so much, and I never want to let you go again. Do you remember what we planned to do when we graduated?" Spock steered Jim to the kitchen table, sitting him on one of the chairs as he knelt in front of him. Jim nodded slowly, and Spock held his hands. "I never want to lose you again James, and I can work from home, or we can go back to New York or somewhere you can finish your degree."

"I joined the Navy. I'm on 6 month leave."

"I'll join; I'll do whatever it takes to stay with you."

"Then ask me properly." Spock chuckled, smiling up at Jim. "Properly." Spock shifted so he was knelt on one knee.

"James Tiberius Kirk, will you marry me?"

"Of course I will." Jim dived on him, knocking Spock backwards as they kissed, laughing as they did so. "You're more toned then I remember you to be."

"Keeping fit kept my mind off of you. It failed miserably but cute guys go to gyms."

"Pervert." They laughed, making out on the floor before deciding it was inappropriate and pulling each other up, hanging on to the other man from around their waists. "Our mom's are probably listening at the door. You can come in!" The women flooded in, holding and hugging their sons before swopping, both with tears of joy.

"I am so happy that you two are back together and getting married of all things! Oh it's a dream come true. Do you still have that notebook Jim?" Amanda asked, with a grin.

"You told her!?"

"I showed her, it was adorable. I have it with me now." Disappearing and reappearing in a matter of seconds with a well-loved notebook, presenting it to Jim who instantly smiled. "I keep it with me, just in case I ran into you in the street. I would have purposed then and there." Jim kissed him, getting an Aww from the girls.

"I love you."

"As I do you. Do you still wish to wear a dress?"

"I was joking. Oh my god I have to phone Nyota!" Jim flipped out his phone, dialling at the speed of a thousand gazelles. "Nyota, guess what!? Spock came home and I went to see him and he said he loved me and he proposed and I said yes!" He screamed with the women on the phone, jumping up and down. "I know, of course your maid of honour! Did you hear about Bones's divorce? Terrible isn't it? Poor little Lily." Jim walked off, leaving Spock to answer all the questions.

Later on, the Grayson and Richardson-Kirk family had a celebration meal of take-out veggie pizza, on Jim's request. For the entire time, Spock kept Jim on his lap, playing with his hair, kissing his cheek and not letting him out of his sight. Jim couldn't wait to have a private celebration of their own, and Sarek picked up on it, noting on Jim's 'lack of colour' and suggested 'you go home and rest'. Jim could have hugged the man, but then decide that was inappropriate, as he was Vulcan and only hugged his wife and Spock on very rare occasions. The couple left quickly, hand in hand to Jim's apartment.

"Sorry about the mess. Not as glam as our apartment in NYC." Jim muttered, opening the door to his tiny bedsit. It was dark and outdated with two small rooms; one was a bathroom and everything else in the other. Spock just smiled at him, shutting the door. "Coffee?"

"Yes, thank you." Spock sat on the sofa, as a black cat jumped on his lap. "A cat?"

"Yeah… Socks, meet Spock." Spock stroked the cat, which curled in his lap and went to sleep. "Well… that's weird." The Vulcan raised an eyebrow, and Jim chuckled. "He hates everyone. As in I'm sure he's the devil reincarnated some days." Socks was now purring in Spock's lap. "Well, I guess he's okay with us getting married." Spock chuckled, continuing to stroke the cat as Jim sat next to him.

"I see he has been keeping you in company for the last few years."

"Yeah, he's a pain and disappears for ¾ of the day, but he's alright. Bit of a sofa hogger." Spock smiled, drinking his coffee and Jim leant against him, with a soft sigh. "I've missed this."

"As have I." They made small talk as they drank their coffee, and Sock decided to make an exit when they started kissing.

"He's too young to watch this." Jim whispered, pulling Spock close to him, then onto his feet.

"For what, exactly?"

"For me to show you how much I love you and how much I've missed you. Bed, on your back please." Spock walked back, pulling Jim with him. He did as he was told, with Jim straddling him, Spock's hands on Jim's waist. "Oh how I have missed you like this."

"I'm not sure it is your turn to have me at your mercy."

"Yes it is. The night before I left you had me tied to the head board and arse in the air." Spock chuckled at the memory, leaning up to kiss his lover. Jim pushed him back down, playing with the buttons on his shirt. "Can I just rip it?"

"No, it's Armani."

"You and your designer suits." Jim muttered, with an eye roll as he undid the buttons with care.

"Don't roll your eyes at me." Jim just smiled, pushing Spock's shirt off before pulling his, both being thrown straight onto the floor. Jim kissed his fiancé's neck, (that felt great to say, Jim thought. Spock was his fiancé!) Before moving down to kiss his chest and above the trousers, whilst fumbling with the buttons. "Do you want some help?"

"Yes please." Spock pushed his trousers off, and Jim just grinned. "Why aren't you undressing?" Jim rolled his eyes again, pulling his t-shirt off, before going back to covering the Vulcan with kisses, fingertips sliding into the boxer shorts of the other man. "Jim…" The blonde grinned, pushing Spock's boxers off, as Spock lowered his head down to put his cock into Jim's mouth. "Oh gods…" Jim licked the tip as he sucked, Spock's hands gripping his hair as he went, caressing and pulling it. "Oh James, how I have missed this…" Jim grinned, looking at his lover as he went. "James… I…" Spock exploded into Jim's mouth a few minutes later, and Jim lapped up the mess before sitting up to smile at Spock.

"That was quick."

"I haven't had a good blow job in so long." Jim smiled, diving on Spock to kiss him passionately, grinding his hips against Spock's. "Want you…"

"You got me babe." Jim grabbed some lube from the top drawer, coating his fingers, before slipping two into Spock, smiling as Spock sighed, before moving his fingers to stretch the Vulcan. "Am I your only top?"

"Of course… only for you." Spock's head dipped back, as he held on to Jim's shoulders. Jim added another finger, kissing the older man as he went. "James… I want you, not your fingers."

"Alright, patience, young grasshopper." Spock laughed, and Jim smiled, taking his fingers out and pressing his penis against Spock's opening. "Okay?" Spock nodded, kissing Jim softly and tenderly, as Jim slowly slides in. He hummed with pleasure into Jim's mouth, gripping tighter. "So tight Spock, oh god." Once the blond was all the way in, he let Spock adjust before moving slowly in long, swift movements, the sounds of Spock's moans and plea's driving him insane.

"I've missed this… Oh James. I've missed you."

"I've missed you too, oh Spock, Spock, love you. Love you so much"

"I love you as well James. Oh so much, with all my heart." They picked up pace, moving faster and faster, with hunger, need and longing; making up for lost time. Jim let go first, and the feeling of Jim's seeds in him made Spock go. Jim laid next to the Vulcan, being wrapped up in his embrace, head on the older man's shoulder as they regained their breath. "You are incredible James, when I regain energy, it's your turn."

"Sex day?" Jim looked up hopeful; they'd had sex day's some weekends when they didn't have lectures of work, they would be in bed all day.

"Sex day, yes." Jim nestled in to Spock, drawing circles on his chest. "How did you end up joining the Navy?"

"I don't know. I just… did. I'm on track to being the youngest Captain in the fleet. Don't join. Be a teacher like you wanted to, I will be so proud of you if you do. I'll go off and be a hero at sea, and you go off and be the bestest physics teacher in the world." Spock nodded, kissing the top of his head. "I go back to duty in 5 months…."

"Then we have a wedding to plan then. After this." Spock pushed Jim into the mattress, kissing his neck as the younger man squealed, wrapping his legs around Spock.