Chapter 3

Kanda's POV

I paced about my prison cell, I hated being here. I hated the guards, I hated the church counsel, I hated the Order, and right now I even hated God. I wanted to yell and curse, but not so much as a whisper came from me. I could feel my neck healing itself, but as it healed I still couldn't even manage a single sound. I lay down on the little bed in my cell and looked up at the ceiling. I hated how silent it was; it felt so weird to hear nothing. Every now and then I would hear the guards outside speak about Allen and me saying that we were nothing but disgusting faggots. I wanted to yell at them and demand that they mind their own business, but I couldn't so much as utter a sound. I hated everyone so much! As I lay on my bed I thought back to my last encounter with Allen. When I had hugged him, I remember feeling his small body shaking with fear. I clutched the sheets of the bed hard, I swore to myself. If they did anything to Allen, I would personally murder each one. I sighed, I wanted Allen beside me. I wanted to hold his small body in my arms. To whisper loving words in his ear and make him blush. I wanted to kiss his soft lips and hear his soft pleasured moan as I nipped at his neck. I wanted Allen, my little Moyashi, here beside me. I hated the thought of them hurting him and throwing him into a cold, empty prison cell. Allen didn't deserve that! If anyone deserved to be punished it was me… Everything had been my fault. I was the one that agreed to come with Allen as he took me aside to confess his feelings for me, I was the one who accepted his feelings and even informed him of my own. I was the one who kissed him. I was the one to propose sex and go through with it. And I was the one to proposed sex that day and forgot to lock the door of Allen's room. I was the one that ruined our lives. I closed my eyes, guilt overpowering me. Everything had been my fault, so why was Allen being punished too? I placed myself next to everyone I hated, because right now, I hated myself for all that had happened.

Allen… I am so sorry.