Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, all rights go to J. R. Tolkien.

Rating: T

Genre: Angst, Romance, Dark!10/Rose

Summary: The Doctor loses Rose

You know, in retrospect, time seems to fly by. I can still feel her hand, warm and comfortable in my much larger one. Still see her stiffened back, ready to face with me the danger that lay ahead but always ready with a dry, ironic comment about some random thought that caught her fancy. The wind is howling, the metal handle bites into my skin, and her hair is flying all around her face. I am screaming. I still am, on the inside. I don't think that I will ever stop, not really. Her eyes are big, and the dark fear in them seems to swallow up her pallid face. Time slows to an almost near standstill, and I can hear the whoosh of hair being dragged in and out of my lungs, the roar of the rift dulled to a quiet rumble, and the world contracted to nothing but her. She struggles to hold on, nails clawing at air. She lets go screaming, my name on her lips. She flies back, arms outstretched- as if by the sheer force of her will she might come flying back into my arms. The rift closes and I am alone. Again. Deafening silence pierces my ears. I fall to the floor, arms weak from holding my weight against the pull of the rift. I heave a cracked sob. My Rose was gone. Lifting myself up, I drag myself to the wall and press my face to where she fell through as if to take with me the last vestige of her with me. Sliding one hand against the crack, I tremble silently as hot, angry tears slide down my face, burning my eyes and leaving a bitter taste at the back of my throat. This was so unfair! The one person in all of time and space to make me feel worthy of being alive-brutally ripped from me, that I may never see her again…or smell her favorite shampoo on her hair, or feel her take my hand in hers, or sleep on the grass under some warm alien sun together, or hear her laugh at some ridiculous thing he did…or taste her soft lips pressing gently against his own…which he always secretly worried were too chapped for her…Seems silly now, doesn't it? Doesn't the whole world just seem…silly.