A/N: Before you chase me with torches and pitchforks I apologize for not updating in forever but with school and stuff going on my life has been pretty busy. Not to mention I had a horrible writer's boulder for this chapter. I swear I erased it like ten times. I will not let my writing drag out this long anymore okay? I really do mean it! Thank you to all those nice people who still read this lame author's stories and actually enjoy them… You all have a special place in my heart even if we don't know each other personally!
Anyway~! Update wise, expect two more updates this week (not for this story). Yes, you read right. THIS VERY WEEK. Like seriously, the chapters are done and ready. Next chapter for this story will be written in two weeks and posted the next day, 'kay? That gives me enough time ^^
Well please read, enjoy, and review~!
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Tainted Love?
Chapter 6: Turning Point
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Rin's P.O.V
I sat down at the main table, feeling pretty bored. Len left to who knows where and he left me alone before our dance practice. I draped my arms across the cold furniture and sighed. He better not be doing anything stupid...
As if on cue, Len came walking in through the front door. He looked at me and took a deep breath before smiling broadly. I instantly returned the smile, glad he was safe and back home.
"I have a surprise for dinner." he said and sat in the chair next to me.
My interest immediately perked and I scooted a bit closer, "What is it?"
He shook his head, "Can't tell you but mom will be pleased."
That part really surprised me. Len never did anything to win the favor of our mother and neither did she. A total stranger would think they weren't even related with all the stiff tension between them.
Standing, he offered me his hand, "Shall we go dance?"
I blushed slightly and let him lead me away. As always, that empty and frightening feeling began to engulf my heart as we danced. It was the same as that other time... A feeling of despair at the thought that this would change everything. Len and I would never be like before and will grow farther and farther until...
I blinked rapidly to get rid of the tears that were welling up in my eyes. The mere thought was so painful that even breathing was a challenge.
"Rin, are you okay?" Len questioned, bringing me back to the present, "You are sweating."
My hand lifted itself to touch my brow and sure enough there were droplets of cold perspiration. I had been so lost in thought that...
Len checked my pulse which unfortunately had become irregular. He sighed.
"Why didn't you tell me you were feeling sick?" Len asked with a worried expression.
"Because I'm not-!"
"Nope, no excuses!" He stated and grabbed my shoulders, steering me to the left, "Off to rest you go!"
"But!"
"Not listening to you~!"
I puffed my cheeks out and sighed. No use fighting with him. I'd rather get dragged off to bed than admit the real reason why I was feeling that way.
"What will you do meanwhile?" I asked as he led me to my bedroom.
"Read some comic books, peel a banana or two, play games, you know, guy stuff."
I giggled a little and he opened the door, placed me in bed, tucked me in , and said goodnight to me despite it being well into the afternoon.
I lay there in bed, staring at the ceiling. Deciding it was no use to stay in bed when I was clearly not sick or sleepy, I slid out from under the fluffy orange covers. My clothed feet scurried across the linoleum floor and I put my shoes back on.
I opened the door carefully. My sea blue eyes scanned the desolate hallways before landing on Len's door. Sounds from crashing cars were heard coming from inside so it was safe to assume that he was now in gaming mode and would not leave his room for anything in the world, well except me of course. He had snacks in there, a bathroom, games… it was guy paradise.
Hmm, no one was home besides the maids and ourselves. I couldn't count on Len for company and I didn't want to bug the maids during lunch break so…
Exploring time it is.
I resisted the urge to giggle to myself as I snuck around the empty corridors, wondering when had been the last time I had gone "exploring." It's not like I didn't know my own house, despite it being pretty spacious. There were just certain things I had never seen in depth and now was a perfect opportunity to do so.
The first place that came to mind was right at the end of this very hallway. My eyes darted from left to right, afraid that a maid would see me and alert my mother of my whereabouts.
Seeing no frilly navy blue and white uniforms was the signal to turn the smooth, golden knob, and enter into the room. The room was surprisingly cool, as in fresh, mind you. I closed the door behind me and looked around. I had been into my mother's office before, but I was too little to think too much about it. Growing older, her constant cold attitude towards Len made me resentful and I was left with no desire to enter this room.
Everything was perfectly placed, as expected. It seemed as a room out of some law firm had been ripped out and crudely attached to our home. I felt like I was stepping into a completely different setting, no longer in my own house. There were two metal chairs in front of the desk which read: Dr. Kagamine. Behind that was a large, black cushioned spinning chair which radiated power and authority. I resisted the urge to slap my face, how can I be intimidated by a simple chair?!
I walked over to the back of her desk and smiled as I saw pictures myself. That smile soon faded away as I realized there was someone missing. Not my father, not her, not me… Len was nowhere to be found. I picked one of the picture frames up, studying the faces in the image. I was smiling while holding onto my father's neck, his own arm under me and the other around my mother's waist. She was smiling? I can't recall a moment when my mother has ever smiled like that before. If I weren't seeing the real thing with my own eyes, I'd think someone Photoshopped it. Suddenly, my insides welled up with rage and I gripped the frame so hard that I was afraid it would shatter into a million pieces.
How could we be so happy without Len?! How could we? It was as if he wasn't even a part of our lives! Hot angry tears welled up in my eyes. Somehow I felt as if I had betrayed the person that I loved the most. As a tear slid down my cheek a sudden thought occurred to me. What if…?
I flipped the frame around and undid the little screws that held it together. Prying the back lid open, I scanned the image for the date it was taken on.
My heart nearly stopped when I saw it. It clearly said December 27th 1999. Two things shocked me about that date.
One, that it was two years from when I, I mean we, were born. That means we were two years old at the date of this picture. Infants are usually never far away from their mothers by that age. Len and I are twins so that means that by that age we were supposed to always be together. Like, ALL the time. So, that being said, where was Len? Had we taken separate pictures? I doubt it, I do.
Two, the picture was taken on our birthday. Since I can remember, which is like around the age of five, Len and I have always, ALWAYS, celebrated our birthday together. So where was he? I really hope they had made us take individual pictures or else…
I wouldn't know what to think.
I put everything back in place, remembering my mother could arrive home at any moment. As if on cue, I heard the distinctive click of heels against the glassy floor. My heart pounded, and my breathing became erratic. Panicked, I searched for a place to hide. I opted for hiding next to a large, metal filing cabinet. I crouched there, my right hand over my mouth, trying to avoid any noise.
The door opened with a slight creak and I recognized the rose aroma that infiltrated the empty room. My heart continued to beat furiously and I began to sweat in fear. If she found me in here…
She sat in the chair, not bothering to turn the lights on. I strained my ears to hear anything useful.
The ringing of the phone made me jump and I froze, thinking she had discovered me.
"Yes?" she answered, "At the front door? I'll go right now."
With that, she left the room. I counted to twenty in my head, praying that I wouldn't meet her.
At the end of the count, I scurried out from my hiding place, carefully closing the door behind me, and dashed towards my room.
Once at the door, I flung it open, and then threw myself onto my bed, hiding in the orange fluff. Not even a minute later, the door opened. My breath hitched, waiting for the visitor to make itself audible.
"Rin~ I have your favorite~" Len sang and then stopped, "Why are you hiding under the covers?"
I let out a sigh of relief and poked my head out to meet curious, sparkling cerulean eyes.
"I was bored?"
"Heh," He chuckled and sat on my bed, a plate of oranges in hand.
I bolted into an upright position and snatched the plate out of his hands. Not even bothering to say a word, I began shoving the deliciously sweet and sour slices into my mouth.
"That's how I like seeing my Rin." He smiled and tucked some of the hair that had escaped my clips behind my ear.
The orange I was eating got stuck in my throat and I felt my cheeks flare bright pink. I guess he saw me staring because his face soon mirrored mine and looked away.
The tension in the air grew until Len stood up, "I should go check on something…"
"EH?"
He then gave me one of those smiles that always makes my heart melt, "I have a surprise today at dinner."
"A surprise?"
"Yep! I have decided to follow your advice and try to get on mom's good side. She will love the surprise and hopefully, after this, everything will be normal." He said a bit somberly and then left.
"Normal?" I whispered to myself and then a dreaded feeling seeped into the pit of my stomach.
Len's P.O.V
I left Rin's room feeling slightly depressed. It was true that by doing what I was going to do I was trying to get on my mother's good side, if she had one that is. Then, maybe things would return to normal, hopefully.
Having feelings for Rin was anything but normal. I don't know how things became this way but they did. Maybe I was dropped on my head a little too many times when I was a baby.
The depressing thing was, if Rin would be okay with all this, I know I would have a hard time getting over her. I mean, I really do love her. If she would be okay with me dating someone…
I know she doesn't love me. She isn't supposed to, but that doesn't make the pain sting any less within my heart. Sometimes I wish I was never born. Rin would be better off and I wouldn't have to bear this pain. How I wish over and over again that we weren't siblings. I'd give anything for that to be a reality.
Well anyways, I hope she gets better soon.
I get terrified when she gets sick. She might not know, but I once overheard that Grandma had died of a sickness that began with a simple fever. That is why I made her rest even though she didn't seem so bad. If I were to lose Rin, I'd lose every reason to keep living in this world. I would kill myself. I'm not joking or exaggerating. That is how much I love her. My breath threatens to stop and my lungs contract in a painful manner by just thinking of that. Yes, I have stupid hormones and stuff, I'm not oblivious to my own body. But testosterone aside, I love Rin because she is just a beautiful human being, inside and out.
I'd give anything to meet a girl just like her, but it would be futile in the end because there is only one Rin in the entire world. Only one silly girl who can make my heart lose its steady rhythm and go bananas. Unfortunately, coming back to reality, that wonderful girl is my sister.
Well off to Miku's house.
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I took a deep breath while I stood outside the elegant pastel blue house. Then out of nowhere, I felt the urge to run away. How would I be able to do this?
Without consulting my brain any further, my index finger pressed the small doorbell.
DING~!
No running away now.
A maid opened the door and let me inside. Almost within seconds, my teal friend ran down the stairs.
"Len! Wasn't expecting you! Did you come see Mikuo? He's at soccer practice!"
"Ah, no… I came to see you." I said and was surprised at how smoothly I said it as opposed to the choked gargles I had produced when I had practiced in front of my mirror.
Her eyes lit up immediately and her cheeks flushed. Guilt seemed to want to pull me towards the earth's core for I felt my heart sinking immensely.
"Yes?" She asked, a smile plastered on her face.
"I have an important question…"
"Which is…?"
"Would you…?" I began and once again had the urge to swing the door open and run away like a mad man, "Would you…?"
"Hm?"
"Wouldyoubemygirlfriend?" I said in one rushed jumble of words.
Miku's big teal eyes blinked a couple of times before realization dawned onto her face.
"I WOULD LOVE TO!" She exclaimed and tackled me into a hug.
I laughed nervously and returned the hug, feeling horrible with myself.
What did I get myself into?
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I somehow managed to return home and slumped into my room in a zombie-like trance.
I got a text in about ten minutes. I sighed when I saw who it was.
Miku: Hey Lennie~! I'm soooo excited for later today! :3
I gulped loudly. I didn't want to use Miku. I really didn't. I truly did find her company enjoyable, she wasn't evil like Miku insisted. She's just a troubled girl. I'm not the kind of guy who toys with girls and their emotions, but this was the only way… After a moment's worth of hesitation I replied.
Me: Me too ^^
Nope, I am so not ready for tonight…
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Rin came down the stairs as the maids were setting the dinner table. I had just entered the room myself. I felt myself smile as soon as her eyes met mine.
As if a meeting point had been set, Mother and Father came walking down the stairs until they reached us. The dinner table had been elaborately decorated. The tablecloth was red with golden patterns on the borders. There was a flower vase centerpiece and the plates were porcelain white with golden patterns that matched the tablecloth. It looked like a scene out of one of those homey rich family movies.
"So what is this big surprise you have for us Len?" Father asked. Mother simply picked me apart with her intense, yet questioning gaze.
"A special guest." I replied and as if on cue the doorbell rang.
Rin's eyes focused on the door, curiosity evident on her face. A servant went to open the door and I followed her to greet our guest.
Miku Hatsune walked into my home, her face decorated with a cheery smile. My chest panged and I bit the inner part of bottom lip. She was going to be incredibly hurt if she ever found out about the real reason behind our relationship.
She was wearing a pink dress that reached her knees with white lace borders. Matching white ribbons were tying her hair in her signature pigtails.
My mother's stoic expression changed to one of excitement and joy. She went over to greet Miku and I sighed. I hope this really does improve my relationship with her…
"Miku! What a pleasant surprise!" My mother cooed and guided her to the table, "What brings you here?"
The teal haired girl looked at me in a bashful manner and replied, "Len invited me."
"Ah!" She said and looked at me, "What a nice surprise! Come and sit down!"
I smiled slightly in a relieved manner. At least she was pleased. That was part of this whole thing, right?
Everyone sat around the rectangular table and unfortunately Rin ended up seated in front of Miku. The tealette looked at my sister and smiled as a greeting. My twin scowled and forced the most strained smile onto her own face.
"Before everyone can begin to eat, I would like to make an important announcement," I said and stood up, motioning Miku to do the same.
I felt five pairs of eyes glued to me. They belonged to my mother, father, Rin, and the two servants in the corner.
"Hatsune Miku is my girlfriend." I stated rapidly.
Everyone in the room looked surprised at my statement, including the maids. Rin who had been drinking water spat it out instantly. The attention momentarily switched to her, but soon came back to me.
"Congratulations Len! You made a good decision!" Mother praised and I realized that it was the first compliment she had ever given me.
She then congratulated Miku and so did everyone else. Everyone except Rin that is. She had so many emotions all hidden behind those clear sea blue eyes. Those eyes met mine and then I clearly saw what was residing within them…
She was hurt and felt betrayed. My heart panged in my chest as she looked away with her lips curled downwards in a pout. The stupid thing was that, being the twisted being I am, I actually thought she might be jealous. I've heard about sibling protectiveness, but what if it was more than that?
I shook my head in disapproval at my own idea. That's plain stupid. Hopefully going out with Miku might help fix my brain.
"Rin, aren't you going to congratulate your brother?" Father questioned the smaller blonde.
Keeping her eyes averted, she muttered, "I hope you two will be happy."
"That's better!" Father said approvingly, "Now let's eat!"
We gave thanks and then began eating. My parents kept on asking my new girlfriend questions. When it came for me to answer I merely nodded or shook my head. I was too busy staring at Rin.
Usually, she eats very well, never leaving too much on her plate. Yet this time, she had only taken one measly bite. She kept on scratching the plate with her fork. She only pushed it around.
"Now that you two are in a relationship we have another thing to celebrate at the ball!" Mother said and then looked at my sister, "Rin can dance with Mikuo and-why aren't you eating, dear?"
Rin sighed, put her fork down, and stood up from the table, "I'm not feeling well. I'll excuse myself now. Thank you."
"What? But-"
Any protests to her absence were cut short as Rin hastily left the room.
"I should go check on her…" I said and stood up, "She was sick this afternoon."
"Sit down Len."
Instead of complying with the command, I placed my napkin next to my plate, told Miku I'd be back, and also abandoned the room.
I would most likely get reprimanded later on but that isn't important right now.
Climbing the marble stairs easily, I reached the top floor and followed the familiar path to the room we once shared.
Rin's P.O.V
I walked away from the dining room just in time to avoid them seeing the tears that were building up in my eyes. I ran up the stairs and went to my room. Slamming the door behind me, I flung myself onto the bed and let my sorrow flow freely from my eyes. The salty droplets showed no sign of stopping soon.
I had always known this day would come.
Len and I are siblings and it wasn't his fault that I felt weird feelings. I knew he would get a girlfriend someday, but not so soon. Not Miku Hatsune.
Why does it hurt so much? The way he smiles at her, the way Mother got excited… I wish that could've been me. That I was never born to the prestigious Kagamine household… That Len was nothing more than the person I loved…
I felt like I had been slowly suffocating during dinner, the news impacting me like a sack of bricks. It had been too much. My heart was crushed. I-
"Rin? Can I come in?"
I sat up on my bed at the sound of Len's voice. I quickly tried to dry the tears from my face and hoped the darkness of the room would conceal the only evidence of my inner pain.
"Y-Yeah, come in."
The door opened and while Len slowly approached me, I silently prayed he wouldn't see…
"Were you crying?"
My hands automatically wiped at my cheeks, as if it were a natural reflex, "No?"
"Stop lying."
"Okay, I was and what?!" I exclaimed, too late to take back what I had said.
He seemed a bit hurt by what I said but I couldn't do anything. In order for him not to notice my true conflict, I had to place random emotions out as a shield.
"Rin, I care about you."
"Of course, I know that."
"Is this about Miku?"
"Wha-?" I asked, at a loss for words because he had hit the bull's eye.
"If you don't approve of her I could let her go."
My head snapped up in surprise at him, searching for a trap. I never found it.
Cautiously, I softly asked, "W-Why would you do that?"
"Because I love you."
I sucked in breath and my cheeks turned red. My heart began to beat at what seemed a hundred beats per second. I tried calming myself by thinking it was sibling love, but the way he said it seemed like he had just confessed to me!
Then the guilt started to kick in. He cared for me enough to dump his own girlfriend! I can't be that selfish, even if I do hate leek freak. I will just have to learn to live with it.
"Miku is fine. I meant it before, be happy."
"I don't think I can be if you cry behind my back."
"Len, I love you too. So I will tolerate leek freak even if I don't adore her." I said, trying to veer away from the crying subject.
"Alright. I have to go back now but I'll return okay?"
I nodded and he kissed my forehead before leaving. I walked over to the window and soon saw Miku and Len walk out of the house. I was about to walk away when I saw a terrible thing. Len kissed Miku on the lips.
I growled and closed the curtains shut. Then, I snuck under my covers, tears once again falling from my face. If Len came back in, I'd pretend to be asleep. I don't think I could talk to him again without letting him know everything.
Though I said I was okay with his relationship with leek freak, I didn't mean it at all. What if I somehow showed Len all her faults until he dumped her? Then I wouldn't be the cause of their breakup, the way Len put it, and I would be more at peace.
Yep, that seems to be the only solution at the moment.
Unless…
I need to talk to Teto immediately…. And maybe Piko too.
A/N: So kind of short but I figure it's better shorter but updated faster, no? So I will just fade away now… *runs back* If you still haven't done it please enter a comment into the review box down there… yes, that one. *runs off screen again after saying*
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