Things fell back into a rhythm. John, Karkat, Jade, I had it all under control. Though now I had this stupid thing that was apparently that "conscience" everyone was going on about. And it really liked to bug me when I was with John. But even that I was able to keep under control after a while.
I still hadn't made much progress with patching things up with Terezi. I felt like it was a lost cause, I'd probably pissed her off too good this time. She made herself scarce around me. I had to give her credit for not telling John all my awful secrets. That was actually pretty cool of her, which made me feel pretty bad. I wished there was some way to make it up with her.
But, then, I was too lazy to actually take the time to make things better with her. It hardly mattered to me that she was my best friend. And I was probably gonna need her help down the road. I was too busy with my own crap.
Busy with spending all my spare time with John. After school, the weekends, lunch. After a while, I invited him to stay overnight, which caught him off guard. It'd been a while since we started dating, but not that long. It wasn't like I was going to try anything. He was a bit weary, but after convincing him that Bro didn't care he agreed. And as far as his paranoid old man knew he was just going over a friends.
It ended up going okay. We played video games, raided the fridge, and got generally ignored by Bro. It was right before we fell asleep that things absolutely went to shit.
It had been dark for a while now, the light coming from two abandoned laptops. I curled up further against John, clutching the blanket over the both of us with one hand while I held his neck with the other. "Hey...," he mumbled between kisses. "Isn't... your brother gonna... come yell at us or something?" I laughed through his lips.
"He's probably buried to deep in his basement lair to care what I'm doing. What about your old man?" John held me closer, shifting slightly.
"Well, I told you he doesn't... really know about you and I."
"What am I supposed to do when we get married or whatever, John? Gotta tell him some point. I mean, it's been two months." He broke away from my lips and rested his head on my shoulder, sighing.
"I know. Every time I tell him, he's always busy or whatever. But don't worry, I'll tell him." I nodded and hugged him, shutting my laptop with my foot, causing the room to dim a bit. John yawned and stretched, then lied down. I lied down next to him, smiling contently. My phone started chiming. Seeing it was Jade I nervously turned it off before he could see anything. Not that it was going to reveal much.
That was also new. Before I practically threw caution to the wind with this whole thing. It honestly didn't matter that much to me. Whatever happened, happened. But now, with John, I made sure to cover all my tracks. He couldn't find out. I couldn't lose him.
"So, hey," I mumbled, throwing the blanket over him, "After this week it's April break. I guess I'm staying home for it. How about you? You doing anything?" He nodded a bit, his eyes still closed.
"Yeah...," he mumbled, nuzzling against the pillow and yawning sleepily.
"Yeah? Partying or something?" I said with a small smirk. He laughed quietly.
"No, not really. I'm just going a few states down to visit some family. My uncle, grandpa and my cousin."
"Sounds fun," I said sarcastically. He shook his head, smiling, opening his eyes a bit.
"It's actually pretty cool. I mean me and my cousin are pretty close. She's really nice."
"Ah, so at least you won't be bored senseless or anything."
"Yeah," he muttered. "Jade's pretty cool."
