On the settled day, I walk my way to the southern area of Wall Rose, near the gate. This area is perfect. Not many people here, beautiful scenery on sights, such peacefull time will let us share moments. Since I don't know why she suddenly cares to anyone other than Eren, I'll take it as our first and last date. Usually, if a date is success, there will be another. If she having a good time with me, we sure will getting closer. And one day she will forget completely about Eren and I will become her boyfriend before a titan devour me, or devour her ...
Wait, Jean, why are you thinking so far?
I need to stop feeding on my excitements right now. For this date, I cleaned up everything from teeth to nails. I took a bath longer than I used to be. I wear my best white garb, cover up with dark green doublet. This is the most expensive doublet I have, I only wear it when I have to meet someone's important. On my way here, I found a garden of wild roses and pick one for this special girl in my life.
Life? Geezzz ... aren't you getting too serious? And flower? Are you kidding me? Do you really think a girl like her will likes it? She will think you as whimpy sissy!
Oh, right. I think I'll just throw away this rose ... wait, no. It's ok. My dad also bought flowers to mom when I was kid back then. And mom likes it. Probably I just give her just like that, no need poetic words, or songs like people in plays do.
As I heard horse footsteps, I turned over and saw a beautiful girl with orientalic beauty riding her horse. The 3pm sun light flashing through her black hair. I can see her dressing like a real young lady. I can't believe my eyes, she dressed for me! She wearing a beautiful linen dress in color of red, as red as roses, with yellow border on it's edges. She looks so beautiful, I pretified myself like an idiot holding on the red wild rose.
"Wow ..." I whispered unconsiously. For a second, I thought I saw a goddess vissiting a mere peasant on earth.
"Where's your horse, Jean?" She asks.
"Ahh ... I forgot." What am I saying? Why didn't I told her, I don't expect to bring horse? I just want to met her here and take a little walk through the woods and after dawn, I walk her home to the dorm.
"Oh, when you said southern area of Wall Rose, I thought it's about riding horse across the plain."
Well, you could mount on me, baby.
No, no, if I keep the pervert thoughts, I will be damned forever. She will hates me. "Ahhh, I'm not planning on that actually."
"So, what are we going to do now?" She dismount her horse, now I could see her from close range. As she walk closer, I could smell the scent of her hair, and my heart beat faster.
"Y-y-you looks so beautiful, Mikasa."
Her eyes widen, "You think so?"
"Yes. Of course. I'm a honest man." I grinned. I couldn't control this smile on my face. I just hope I don't look like a stupid donkey right now. I present her the wild rose.
"Thank you."
"For your birthday, I bought you this ring." I give her a wooden ring. Seems like she didn't reject my gift, she give her hand and I put the ring on the middle finger. "Wow ... it fits perfectly in your finger."
"Thank you, Jean." She just gave me the thank yous and smiles, as if she don't know how to react as a normal girls. But that's why I love her, she looks more dedicated and more disipline among the other female soldiers I ever seen.
For a few moment, I really don't know what to do. I'm 15 and this is my first date ever with the girl I really like. None of us know what to do, I guess this is her first date too. So, for a seconds we just stares to each others. My shaking hand still holding her hands with my present embraces her middle finger.
"Jean, your hand is wet."
"Oh, uhh... sorry." I let go of my hand.
"What do we do now?"
I don't know, Mikasa. I'm just here to gave you ring for a birthday present, I don't expect you to look this perfect, if only I knew, I would make it earlier like 12 pm or maybe 10 am and we can have a walk in bazaar to see things or eating in some restaurant with delicious cuisines. "I don't know, care to take a walk?"
She don't mind at all.
We talk about small things happens around us. Mostly, I talk about our comrades such as Armin, Connie, or the potato girl, Sasha, but when she starts talking about Eren, I quickly avoid the topic and talk about my perspective about this war, about titans, about humanity. But eventually it will only lead us back to the topic about Eren.
"He has a dream. He wants to see the ocean, he wants to go see the world. But titans become the barrier between him and his dreams, they also eat his mother in front of his eyes about five years ago."
I give up changing topics. I really hate it when she talking about Eren. Not that I hate Eren, but I just ...
Jealous.
No, it's like ... yes, it's jealousy. Because it makes me feels like she tries to told me that she knew Eren too much. As if only Eren inside her mind. I can't let this happening, why would she get dressed for this date and care to spend sometime alone with me but all we doing just talking about another guy that she really cares? But I just can't leave her right away. Aside that I don't want to left her behind, I don't bring a horse with me.
"If he gets stronger and stronger, soon he wouldn't need me anymore. I will left behind alone. He kept practicing his skills so he can protect himself. He will not need me anymore." I'm so sick of this and about to walk away and leave her behind.
But then I saw her painful face. My heart gets really hurts to see her that way.
"Mikasa ..." I lift my hand to touch her face. "You're not alone."
To see her eyes staring back at me, somehow makes me stronger inside. This is really, really weird.
It's getting dark before we realize. She won't leave me behind, but mounting the horse together will makes the situation getting weirder-for her. So we walking through the woods, looking for a way home. But when the moon getting higher, bugs starts cricking, and fireflies surrounds us, we don't reach the wall at all.
One thing that worries me, Mikasa's horse sounds weird. It starts to breathing and sometimes it about to ready to jump somewhere. "Your horse sounds panic."
Mikasa tapping on her horse gently, "I don't know, she used to be calm and gentle."
"Ride it and go home." I meant it.
"No. I won't leave you behind."
We continue to walk. The horse is getting more weirder, I knew it's getting late and we still get to nowhere. "Uhh, Mikasa, you know where you're going, right?"
She stop walking all of a sudden. In shock, she stares at me, "I following you."
Wait. So I following a person who following me?
Suddenly Mikasa's horse rebelling. She went berserk and jump out on her own left us alone in the wood.
"Mikasa, are you alright?"
"I'm fine." She holding on her legs, but it seems she's really fine, she get up on her foot, we could only watching the horse disappear into the darkness night.
"What's the deal?" I'm talking about the horse, when I heard a steps on the ground along with shaking ground.
Me and Mikasa freeze our neck as we realize what it is.
"Titan?" she hissed.
This is fucking night time, for wall's sake. But the guts told me that it is indeed titan's footsteps.
