I am so sorry for the late update! My life has been very hectic recently and my computer also decided an update was in need when I was writing the newest chapter of If I Die Young. I lost everything, so I had to start all over! Its completey different then what I first imagined it would be because my first time writing it the chapter would take place in season one. But since that was all gone I decided to go another direction. So in the next chapter we will go into season one! :)
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If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river , at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby
The hysterical crying made it almost impossible to hear the song that played, it had some lyrics with a rainbow in it that was all five year old Alexandria could make out between the loud cries. She sat highly uncomfortable on her uncle Ian's lap who had wrapped one of his arms around her tiny waist to hold her close as he rubbed her mother's back with the other who sat next her sobbing loudly. She didn't know why her mother was crying, but it had something to do with brother and father. They were just gone for the weekend weren't day? Suddenly she received a kiss on the top of her head, she turned her head towards her aunt Sarah who was looking at her with teary eyes. Her aunts mascara was smudged under her eyes giving her a funny look, almost like a panda. Alexandria wanted to tell her aunt how funny she looked, but reminded herself that now wasn't the time to make jokes. Because this was a funeral, whatever that meant it was a serious thing for the grownups. It had something to do with her daddy and Luc, they were gone to Heaven her mommy told her so. Alexandria had wondered what Heaven was and why she couldn't go, she had found it quite unfair that she was left behind. Her daddy and Luc sometimes went away together for a weekend to go fishing, Alexandria always wanted to go to but her daddy said it was a 'Real guy weekend' meaning it was only for stupid boys. This is probably another one of those weekends, well when they come back she will tell her daddy that she wants an 'Lexi and daddy weekend'. She couldn't help but pout as she thought about the many times her daddy went fishing with Luc and she got left behind with her mother, it only seemed fair that it was her turn now.
Not that her mother wasn't any fun, her mommy was lovely. In fact, her mommy was the best! They always baked cookies together, she always watched her favorite Disney movies with her and she could play dress up like the best. But her daddy played hide and seek with her, always gave her candy when her mother said no, scolded Luc when he was teasing her and he could tell bed time stories like no other. Alexandria simply found her daddy amazing and already told him she would marry him when she was older. She wanted a big white princess dress like the one her mommy had worn in the picture that stood above the giant fireplace with all the other family photos. Her mommy had told her she couldn't marry her daddy because he was married to her and that she should pick out another nice boy to marry. Alexandria had huffed in response and had told her mommy that boys were stupid, she would just marry her daddy and nobody could change her mind on that matter.
'Lexi, honey we've got to go.' Uncle Ian said softly as he set her down on the floor, she blinked for a moment as she was snapped out of her thoughts by the sudden movement. Her daddy always said she was such a day dreamer, it would surely get in her trouble when she was older. Her uncle grabbed her tiny hand in his and squeezed it lightly as he looked down at her with a weak smile. Alexandria smiled back as they started walking out of the enormous church, as they walked down the aisle she could see a lot people standing up also. All wearing similar black clothing, she was wearing black too. A black dress that matched her black Mary Jane's. Alexandria found black a sad color, she much rather liked pink or purple. Her room was pink with purple and with Disney Princesses and lots of other fairytale characters that decorated the walls.
Alexandria turned her head to look behind her, she could see all the people that had sat down in the church walk in a slow pace behind them. Her aunt Sarah had tightly wrapped on of her arms around her mother who was still crying hysterically as they made their way out of the church. 'Is mommy going to be ok uncle Ian?' Alexandria said in hushed tones as she eyed her mother with concerned eyes. Uncle Ian sniffled before speaking, his blue eyes full with tears. 'Of course baby, she just needs some time to heal. We all do. But It will take a while before mommy is happy again.' Alexandria frowned in response as she was greeted by the warmth of the sun, it was a beautiful afternoon in Shreveport, Louisiana.
Her mommy needed to heal. Was she hurt? 'But if mommy is hurt then we should go to the Doctor!' Alexandria yelled out in full panic, she immediately turned around towards her mother who hadn't noticed her small outburst and had buried her face in Aunt Sarah's neck. She needed to help her mommy! 'Lexi, honey calm down.' Uncle Ian suddenly lifted her up and rested her on his hip, she automatically wrapped her arms around his neck as he walked down the stairs that leaded to the street. 'Bu- but mommy is hurt, she needs a doctor.' She tried to wiggle free from his strong grip, all she wanted to do was help her mommy. A small smile appeared on her uncle's face but it didn't reach his eyes. 'No doctor can heal mommy, only time can. Mommy is sad because daddy and Luc have gone to Heaven.'
Was that why her mommy was so sad? Because they were gone fishing in Heaven? Well then they needed to come back so her mommy wouldn't be sad anymore. 'Then tell daddy and Luc to come back.' Alexandria said shrugging, if that was what all it took for her mother to be happy again why didn't they call her daddy? Hot tears made their way down her uncle his cheeks, for a slight moment uncle Ian looked at the sky. 'If only it was that simple baby, I would've have called daddy immediately. But you see, daddy and Luc are gone to Heaven and they aren't coming back. I thought mommy explained all of this to you.'
Her mother might have mentioned something about Heaven a few days ago but it never occurred to her she was talking about her daddy and Luc never coming back. She didn't tell her they needed to stay there, did she? Well if they were staying there she wanted to go too and her mommy needed to go also, her mommy needed to be happy again. And besides if daddy was staying in heaven who was going to read her bedtime stories? And if Luc was staying in heaven who would tell that stupid boy Jackson from across the street to stop pulling her hair when she was playing outside. No they needed to come back or take her mommy and her with them, they couldn't just leave them behind could they?
'Well then mommy and I will go to Heaven too!' Alexandria stated, the determination could be heard in her voice as she spoke. Uncle Ian pushed a strand of hair behind her ear before fishing his car keys out one of the pockets out of his black suit. 'I'm sure you will go to Heaven baby, but not yet. You need to stay with your mommy, you two need to take care of each other. Will you take care of mommy when me and aunt Sarah are back in New York?' He asked her as he putted her down on the ground on the small parking lot behind the church. Alexandria nodded in response, she couldn't let her uncle down. She would take care of her mother and her mother would take care of her until they both could go to Heaven too, to her daddy and Luc. 'I will take care of mommy, I promise.'
The young vampires eyes shot wide open as she awoke instantly from her slumber, the soft tone of her own child-like voice still haunting her mind as she tried to calm herself down. If she still was human her heart would be racing right now, she couldn't remember the last time she had such a dream, it felt so real. Her brother and father, the funeral. It all had been something from the past which she pushed so far away in the back of her mind because it was too traumatizing to mourn over, it was simply all too much. She was glad that she refused to sleep in one of the coffins down the basement, she felt sick at the idea of lying in such a thing, the image of her father and brothers coffins flashed through her mind making her almost wanting to throw up.
Alexandria had slept for most of the night in one of the booths at Fangtasia, it was highly uncomfortable and she woken up a couple of times but she would take anything over a coffin any night. Eric first refused her to sleep anywhere else but it seemed he had become tired of her, in his eyes she had been a burden and she had only had to stand her ground a little before he told her to do as she pleased. It was a small victory combined with the loss of her friend that night. Her Kate. She couldn't help but feel the anger rise within her as she thought about the the events of the night before. Eric had erased Kate her memories and all Alex could do was beg him to make her remember, the countless times she told him Kate would understand in time but Eric refused to listen saying he wouldn't change his mind on the matter. Alexandria was completely powerless. She had never felt more alone then now the ones she loved the most were all gone. An eternity of loneliness awaited her. Tears bubbled up again but she refused to let them fall, if she would start crying she knew she couldn't stop.
Quietly she sat up deciding the booth wouldn't function anymore as a sleeping spot and looked around Fangtasia, it was completely dark except for a few lights behind the large bar that created countless of shadows, it looked more creepier then usual if that was even possible. The clock on the blood red wall said it was four in the afternoon, disappointed Alexandria her gaze fell on the floor she couldn't go outside yet.
She hadn't fed since yesterday when Eric and her first arrived in the bar and the burning feeling was coming back, Alexandria was hungry. Going outside was no option, unless she wanted to burn in the sun. The young vampire had to do it with the horrific true blood. Annoyed she stood up and made her way towards the bar, grabbing two bottles of the surrogate blood from the shelve behind her she opened them. The sour scent filled her nose trills, her face scrunching up in disgust.
As Alexandria set the bottle to her lips a sudden tiredness washed over her, making her stumble in the progress of drinking the sour drink. She held onto the bar for support as she set the true blood down confused, had the surrogate blood this effect on her? The first time she had drank it nothing had happened. The young vampire felt her legs become weak as a strong headache started to kick in. In response she groaned as she left herself softly fall to the ground. Was she dying? Again?
Suddenly Alexandria felt a wet substance above her upper lip, groggily she touched it with her fingertips. Blood. Yes this truly was the end, well the immortal life surely had been a blast. She had woken up in a cemetery, lost her best friend and here she was dying in a vampire bar. Fantastic. The young vampire rested her back against the bar and closed her eyes as she felt more blood dripping out of her nose. How did vampires die? Was she going to bleed to death or turn into dust like in those movies? Maybe she'll become a statue just like in Interview With The Vampire. As long as it didn't hurt so much she didn't care.
'Is the floor comfortable enough?'
For a second Alexandria was slightly confused, who was that? O right, of course Eric who else would it be? He was surely here to watch her die, couldn't he just leave her alone? He already took her best friend away from her, was it too much to ask for having her death to be hers alone? The young vampire forced herself to open her eyes and tilt her head into the direction of the voice of her maker. He was towering over her, like he usually was in the short time they had spend together.
'Just leave me alone and let me die in peace.' Alexandria mentally cursed herself how pathetic her voice sounded, it had to sound like a command but it came out more like a plead.
Eric bended forward resting his hands on his knees, his lips curling up into a small smirk. 'Dying?' He said with raised eyebrows as he tucked a few strands of hair behind her ear before touching it softly. He showed her his hand which had a few drops of blood on the fingers before licking it away. 'You're having the bleeds. Its because you didn't get enough sleep and because its not night yet. Vampires should be dead at daytime.'
'We-ell how come that you're awak-ke, shouldn't you be snoring away in your-r coffin?' She sleepily said as her eyes began to flutter once again.
'I am over a thousand years old, I do not require so many resting hours. You on the other hand mitt barn need lots of it.'
The young vampire had her eyes closed, the headache became less if her view was complete darkness. She didn't get much of Eric's words all she knew that she wouldn't die again and that was more then enough to know. She would just sleep and everything would be okay. But before she could object strong arms were wrapped around her small body lifting her up from the floor, her head resting against Eric his chest as her bare feet dangled freely in the air. Alexandria groaned slightly before opening her eyes, it was hard to concentrate with the painful headache starting again. 'I'll walk, I'll w-walk.' Eric's laughed loudly at her words, his eyes glistering with amusement as he looked at her. 'Walk? You can barely talk, I highly doubt you can even stand up.'
'Don't l-laugh, S-still m-mad at-t you.' The young vampire groggily said as she tried to break free from his grip with the last strength she had left. The struggling was no use and Alexandria could feel her makers mood changing, the same blood that rushed through both their veins told her so.
'Shouldn't I be the one who should be mad?'
Alexandria shook her head in response, he shouldn't be. She had apologized multiple times last night, more then she could remember. He had been unfair, he had no right to decide what would become of her friendship with Kate. Surely it had been wrong that she attacked her but she couldn't help it and she was grateful that Eric had stopped her. But he erased everything, all the love, sadness, the memories they had together were gone. And for that she was mad.
'K-kate. K-kate was ev-verything I had.'
And it was nothing but the truth, it had been a long time ago since she had considered her mother or anyone else family. She was just someone that she shared a house with. They barely talked more then ten words on a day together, she couldn't tell her a single thing or ask for any advice on any matter. Her mother had neglected her on so many levels, Alexandria decided to do the same. Now they were nothing to each other, just related by blood. But Kate had always been the sister she never had, they one you could tell about boys, ask advice about things you actually should ask you're mother about. The only person in the world who genuinely loved her and cared for her and equally so did Alexandria for Kate.
'Eventually Kate would have died, so would have your other friends and family. Is that what you would have wanted then Alex? Watch everyone move forward, watch everyone die as you stand still in all of it?' Eric asked as started to walk.
The young vampire closed her eyes again, the headache fading giving her time to think. Is that what she would've wanted? Watch her friends go to college, get married and get kids? Watch them die as fetal diseases and old age slowly would take them away from her and she would still be there, still seventeen. Fine perhaps not but she rather had made that choice herself instead of get it forced upon her.
Before Alexandria had time to answer the silence was broken by a phone going off, the young vampire assumed it was her makers phone. She could feel Eric walk in a fast pase before hearing the sound of a door opening.
'Lie down here for a moment.'
Eric carefully placed her on something soft, to Alexandria surprise it was a couch well it felt as soft as a couch and she could stretch her legs completely so she just assumed it was a couch. For a few seconds she forced herself to open her eyes, curiosity getting the better of her to know her surroundings. It was an office. Well someone tried to decorate it as an office and failed miserably at the job. The furniture all looked out of place. Stacks of paper were spread out on the large wooden desk that was placed in the middle of the room, hadn't it been for the glowing Apple icon Alexandria wouldn't even have known there was a laptop underneath it all. Was this Eric's office? I didn't suit him at all, he seemed like such an organized type of person.
'What is it?'
Alexandria tried to focus on the voice of the other person on the line, but she could barely make out a thing that was said. His voice was low, so she assumed it was a man but she couldn't discover more then that.
'Tonight at eleven.'
The young vampire had her eyes closed again as the phone call had ended, she didn't want to look like she had been eavesdropping. The small conversation had ended, she could hear him walk towards her again. 'You need to rest, come.' Her maker said as he lifted her once again in his arms. Panic washed over her, was he going to make her sleep in the coffin? As fast as she could Alexandria shook her head before speaking. 'N-no c-coffin, please.'
'I'm afraid it is necessary, sleeping on one of the booths and one the floor didn't do you any good.' Eric said as he started to walk once again. She grabbed onto his shirt as tightly as she could trying to get his attention as he walked back further. 'C-couch.' She said, her voice almost nothing more then a soft whisper. She wouldn't sleep in a coffin, sure she was dead but not that dead. It was creepy, it made her think of everything she tried to forget in the last few years. Images of the dead bodies of her father and brother filled her head which made her even hold on tighter to his shirt.
'I have work that needs to be done it will only keep you awake.'
'P-please Er-ric.'
She could feel her maker had stopped walking, she wanted to look at him but she had no more strength to open her eyes. Alexandria could have sworn she had heard him sigh before he spoke. 'Very well.' In less then seconds thanks to Eric his supernatural speed the young vampire was rested on the couch once again, the soft cushions felt like paradise to her tired body. 'T-thank y-you.' She mumbled before drifting off into a dreamless sleep.
'You're very welcome, mitt barn.'
Mitt Barn= My child.
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Love Ami C:
