Authors Note:

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So this chapter isn't that long but it's necessary, the reviews have been crazy good, you all say such nice things! I've been thinking about how to involve you all more because your thoughts and opinions do mean a lot, and I came up with this little thing where I'd love it if you guys could come up with a sentence.

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Chapter Ten

Present Day

"Right well I'll leave you guys to catch up." I look over his shoulder to see Alice head out of the room.

I pull myself from his arms and walk so that he's at least a couple strides away from me.

"How long's it been? Six months? Eight?"

I shrug my shoulders.

"Not sure, probably eight."

He nods at me before going to sit on my bed.

We stay silent for a few minutes but it's awkward now. We're not the same people as we were before.

"What happened to us Bella?"

"What are you talking about?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about, a couple years ago I could sit with you in silence and it would feel like the most normal thing in the world, now it just feels wrong."

"We were kids back then, times change, people change."

"Yeah but we promised we wouldn't."

"Well promises were made to be broken."

"Touché Bella."

We fall into another silence, I find myself fidgeting with anything I can touch.

"You gonna' tell me what happened to your face."

"It was nothing."

"You know, I know that's not true."

"I don't want to talk about it."

"Fine, what do you wanna talk about?"

"How's Janice?"

"Don't."

"Don't what?"

"Don't ask me about her."

"I didn't realise she was off limits."

"She's not, but I know you don't want to hear about my love life."

"You're right, I don't."

"Always so straight to the point."

"Well there's no point in sugar-coating stuff is there?"

"I guess not." He grins at me and I get that familiar feeling in my heart that I got all those years ago, but it isn't like it used to be.

That grin used to make my heart stop, it used to make me want to jump up and down and scream that it was mine, but now? Now it just makes me remember the memories that we had. The memories that I know will be nothing more than fleeting thoughts in a couple of years.

It's sad, but it's comforting knowing that I had that experience. Even though it was unrequited, I'm glad I got to experience what I thought was love at the time.

I'm also happy that after all this time I could finally admit to myself that I had liked Jake as more than a friend. Had being the main word here.

"So are you here for the rest of the holidays?"

"Yeah, till university starts up in September. Where you planning on going?"

"Erm, I'm inbetween Durham and Cambridge."

He laughs loud, that loud laugh he did the first time we met properly.

"Damn, I always knew you were destined for big things. You're inbetween two of the best universities in the world, dating the captain of the England football team, wow."

"I'm not dating Edward."

"Sure does seem like you are according to the tabloids."

"Well tabloids lie."

"You don't have to lie to me Bella, it's ok if you are."

"It's ok? I don't need your permission Jacob, and I'm not lying, me and Edward aren't together."

"He's not good enough for you anyway."

Was that a hint of jealousy I heard in his voice? Who was he to be jealous after all this time?

"And who is? You?"

"I'd love to say yes but no, I'm not either."

"Are you kidding me? You can't come here after a year and say things like that to me! We were friends Jake, you made it pretty clear that was all we were ever going to be."

"Well I was stupid ok! I was a kid, I didn't know what I wanted, and then I left and I wake up one day to see your face all over the papers and it hit me."

His words shock me. He was always the one to make sure people knew we were just friends, he was the one who had girlfriend after girlfriend, he was the one who upped and left me after I was stupid enough to confide in him, and now he thinks after seeing me with another man, he can just waltz back into my life and stake claim.

"Remember the first time we met? I told you that boys were commitment phobes and that we were intimidated by girls who were clever because we're insecure, well that was me. I didn't realise what I had untill I didn't have you anymore."

"You were the one who left, you're the one who had girlfriend after girlfriend, while I had to stand on the sidelines and watch, so don't go on like you suffered all these years."

He gets up from the bed and walks upto me. His near presence makes me feel suffocated, I find myself finding it hard to breathe.

"I suffered because none of them were you Bella."

His lips are on mine, I can feel the desperation in them. This kiss is different to our first kiss. It isn't what you think though, I was sixteen and I still hadn't been kissed, I'd asked Jake to kiss me because I wanted to know what it felt like. We kissed and it was sweet. It was slow, gentle and nice, but then I had nothing to compare it to, that was until Edward.

This kiss was nothing like Edwards, this kiss was sloppy, frantic and it feels like I'm kissing a cousin, wrong on so many levels.

I pull myself away, and push at him but he grabs at my arms.

"Come on Bella, one chance. We could be so good together."

"No, Jake." I push at him harder and move from his grip.

"It's him isn't it? What, is it because he's famous? Rich? A football player? I have money Bella."

"You bastard! You think I'm only interested in him because of his money? Get out."

His face drops and I can see he's upset but I don't care, not anymore. This isn't the Jake I thought I loved all those years ago.

He walks out and I go to lie down on my bed, the fight has left me exhausted and I'm out before my head hits the pillow.

Authors Note:

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