Authors Note:

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Also when you guys tell me things like a certain chapter or scene made you cry, well my heart literally explodes. I love how passionate you are about this story, to think words that little old me put together are creating such emotions in you guys, is crazy.

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Chapter Thirteen

"Bella! Hey, Bella!"

I turn towards the entrance to the v.i.p area where I hear my name being shouted by a familiar voice.

I catch Alices eyes which stare at me in confusion. I stare back at her, just as baffled as she is.

"Who is that?" Edward asks.

"No-one, just a friend."

I climb off Edwards lap and walk towards Jake.

"What are you doing here?" I can't hide the anger in my voice.

"I'm here with Zack and I seen you, I thought we could talk, I'm sorry about how we left things."

I suddenly feel bad for being so angry at seeing him. This is Jake, my first crush, my first kiss, my first best guy friend. We were both older, both matured, maybe now we could put all of our shit behind us and start fresh. It couldn't be too hard, I used to trust this guy with my life, he meant the world to me once upon a time.

"Wait, Zack's here? And no, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have blown up at you like that. I was just... You just caught me off guard."

"Yeah, and I know, I was being stupid. So, that's him isn't it?"

He nods towards where I was just sitting.

"Jake..."

"No, it's all good. I just figured I should meet the first guy you've ever dated, that is unless there was someone while I was away?"

"Nope, plus I'm not really dating Edward, we haven't been on a date yet. It's complicated."

"Well you looked pretty cosy up there."

"Like I said, complicated, come on. Text Zack and tell him to come up here too."

He follows me towards the group and all the girls get up to greet him. Tanya goes red when she hugs him, I've always suspected she's had a crush on him, then again who didn't?

"Edward, this is Jacob my uh, uh-"

"Bestfriend. Hi, nice to meet you."

I look at Jacob who's smiles ablaze at Edward, we hadn't been bestfriends in ages, obviously he thinks differently to me.

"It's always a pleasure to meet Isabellas friends."

Jacob sits next to Edward, so I sit next to Jacob on the outskirts of their conversation making sure nothing too crazy comes up.

"So Jacob, how long have you known Isabella?"

"Erm three years now?"

"Four."

They both look at me, it's almost as if they've forgotten I was sitting there.

"Wow, a long time."

"Bella here used to have a little crush on me back in school." He says it playfully but I know it's meant to put Edward off. It's obvious that Jake is doing some manly thing, what's that saying? Where dogs piss on their territory to stake claim or something?

"She did, did she?"

"He's lying, it wasn't a crush, I was a stupid fourteen year old. Shutup Jake."

I try and match his playful tone but I can tell the bitterness is obvious.

"Oh don't be shy now Bells." Jake pokes me in the ribs before slinging his arm around my shoulder.

I watch Edwards reaction trying to decipher any of his movements but he's calm, a little tense maybe but he doesn't look jealous at all. Maybe I was a mere conquest to him?

I shrug myself out of Jacobs arm and excuse myself before going to sit with Alice. There's no need to witness how awkward that situation is going to get.

"Look who we have here, playaaaaa!"

I laugh before putting my head on her shoulder. "Shh, you're drunk."

"Not drunk, just a little tipsy. But I do have a question for you, that blonde guy you sat next to? He's hot right? It's not a bad case of beer goggles is it?"

"Insanely hot."

"What's his name?"

I look up at her and follow her gaze to Jasper who's entranced by his phone.

"Jasper Whitlock, nice guy, flirty, have you spoken to him?"

She gasps as if I've told her to fuck him right here in the open. "No way! I can't just go and talk to him."

"Why not? He doesn't know you fancy him, you merely just want to conversate with him, right?"

"Don't confuse me with your big words, introduce me then!"

"Come on then."

We're seconds away from him when he looks up from his phone and acknowledges us.

"Bella, where did you run off to? Oh, and who's your friend?"

"Oh it was nothing, and this is my best friend Alice."

"Alice Cullen, nice to meet you."

"Jasper Whitlock, pleasures all mine."

She sits down next to him and I find myself wondering where I should go next, there's no way I'm sitting with them and becoming a third wheel.

"Bella, that you?!"

For the second time tonight I hear someone shout my name. Who the hell was it now? I turn once more towards the entrance to the v.i.p but this time I'm happy at who I see.

"Oh, my God, Zack!"

I run upto him without thinking and fly into his arms. Now I'm not one to express obvious affection unless it was Alice or the boy infront of me. Zack was an ex of Alices, but it didn't work out and they remained friends, partially because we all seemed to get on so well. Oh and because he turned out to be gay.

"Jake said you were here, why didn't you tell me you were in town!"

"It was supposed to be a surprise, I was coming over tomorrow. How are you?"

He puts me down on the floor but keeps his arms encircled around my waist.

"I'm good, yeah, I'm good, how about you? How's Swansea treating you?"

"It's great, accent was hard to get at first but I'm all settled in now."

"Ooh does that mean there's a man on the scene now ey?"

"Well there might be someone." He winks at me while walking back towards the seating area. "Forget that though, Jake told me there's someone you've been dating. Who is he?"

"We're not really dating but erm, 12 o'clock, the guy speaking to Jacob."

"The one with dark copper hair? The one that's staring daggers at me? God he is lickable, where did you manage to find him? So moody but sexy at the same time. Please tell me you've fucked him!"

"What?! No-no! Well, we've kissed but that's it."

"You need to ride that disco stick fast, damn he makes me want to be a female, he doesn't happen to be bi?"

"Erm, I'm not actually sure, he could be. We haven't spoken about that. We haven't actually spoken a lot at all."

"Honey with faces like yours two, there's no need for words."

I laugh and for once I feel good about it. Zack is one person I know I can speak to with ease, he makes me forget about everything that goes on. But sadly we don't ever get to see eachother, at least not as much as we'd like too.

"He's coming over, I can literally smell how beautiful he is, is that weird?"

I laugh again but I'm quick to lose my smile as I take in Edwards face. He's angry, again. God, what the fuck was his problem?

"Let me guess, another friend of Isabellas?"

He puts out his hand for Zack to shake who's eager to comply.

"Zack, and not just a friend, best of friends!"

"Wow, you have a lot of best friends Isabella."

My laugh is nervous, but then I realise there's nothing to be nervous about. That was unless Edward didn't like gays? Well then he could fuck off, I wasn't going to part with Zack for him.

"Zack! Omg get over here! When did you get here?!"

Alice is jumping up and down, waving for Zack to go over to her.

"It was nice to meet you-" "Edward Masen."

"Nice to meet you Edward."

"You too."

He leaves us alone and I suddenly want to be anywhere but here. How does everything go from 0 to 100mph within seconds.

"If you're going to be angry with me I'd rather you just leave now. I've had enough of your mood swings tonight."

"Why? So you can go back to Zack? Or even Jacob at that?"

"Are you serious? They're my friends!"

"You're friends with your crush?"

"He's not my crush, I just- I had a little crush on him when I was younger, nothing happened."

"But you wanted something to?"

"At the time of course I did, that's what a crush is, isn't it?"

"Why didn't you go out with him then?"

"He didn't like me as more than a friend, so you can calm down. He always said I was more of a sister to him."

"Wait, so you're telling me you weren't the one to say no, he was!? Well this just gets better and better. That means you must have unresolved feelings for him, right?"

"What? No! It's been four years Edward!"

"Do I have to worry about any other ex boyfriends or crushes showing up and claiming you're bestfriends?"

"I don't have any ex's and I never crushed on anyone else, so no."

"You don't have any ex's? At all?"

He's smiling that annoying smile of his, he's literally gone from angry to happy within seconds. I cannot keep up with this mans moodswings at all.

"None, I've been really busy focusing on school for the past few years, I don't have time for boys."

"It's a good thing I'm not a boy then. So that's why you're still a virgin?"

Well he just had to bring that up didn't he.

"I'd rather not be having this conversation with you."

"Wait, so if you haven't had any boyfriends and you never had any other crushes, who was your first kiss? Zack?"

"Zack's gay, we'd never kiss eachother."

"That's reassuring, so who was it? It couldn't have been me?"

"No! I have been kissed before you know!"

"Well then? I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours."

"Jake." I mumble it low, hoping he won't catch on but then realise I'm being stupid, he'll want to know now that he's asked. "It was Jake."

I look up from under my gaze and watch as Edward tries to connect the dots in his head.

"What?! Are you telling me that guy over there was your first crush aswell as your first kiss? I thought you said nothing happened between you two."

"Nothing ever did! But I was sixteen and I still hadn't been kissed, so I asked him to kiss me."

Edward is absolutely livid now, I can literally feel the anger emanating off him.

"You asked him?!"

"I just wanted to know what it felt like ok! I'm sorry for acting like a normal teenage girl! You're a right prick sometimes, you know that?! If you don't want to know, you shouldn't fucking ask!"

"I'm obviously a fool aswell for thinking an eighteen year old girl would be right for me!"

"Don't be so modest, a fool is considered clever compared to you!"

"To think, I thought you were far from childish. I guess I was wrong."

He turns and walks out of the club but his words have got to me, this is not the end of it, it's finished when I say it is. If he thought I was childish before he'll think I'm a baby now.

I run after him out into the cold air, it takes me a while as I'm not used to running in heels, but I manage to keep track of him.

He's walking upto a car when I yank him from his shoulders and pull him back. Seeing him this angry forces my mind to go blank, suddenly I don't think following him outside was such a good idea.

Focus on your anger Bella.

"Don't you walk away from me!" I push at his chest with my open palms.

"I'm not in the mood Isabella, just go back inside."

"You think that's ok? You think you can just walk into my life and create this fucking frenzy and then walk away? I fucking told you to go! I fucking told you! That day, on the field. I told you to leave me alone, but no, you just had to prove to yourself that no girl could resist you. Well Mr Masen, you were right. No girl can resist you, not one. Especially not this one standing right here."

At this point tears are streaming down my face, I have no control over it. Just like I have no control over any other aspect in my life. I probably look like a crazy heartbroken girl, but even though my heart is going crazy right now. This isn't love. This is the stages just before love, and I'm wise enough to know, it's best to get out now before I get hurt for real.

"But that doesn't mean I can't do something about it. You're gonna' get into that car, it's going to drive off and I'm gonna turn around and walk back into that club and neither one of us is going to look back. Maybe in a couple of years, I'll look back and laugh at how pathetic I was, but right now I just need you gone. I need you out of my life. This may not have meant much to you, I mean, you probably get crazy girls telling you they love you all the time, don't get me wrong though. I don't love you. I'm not stupid, but I'm in danger of falling in love with you and unrequited love is something I'm all too familiar with, and it's definitely not something I want to go through. Thank you though, thankyou for making me realise why I never bothered to open up to people."

His face is something I don't understand now. I can see the initial shock but everything else, it's almost as if there's so much emotion it's hard to decipher what he's exactly feeling.

I turn and around and I don't look back. Not once.

Sometimes I kick myself for not forcing him to speak up. I'll see him on a billboard or on the tv, or on a magazine cover and I'll stare at his face. For seconds, minutes, maybe even hours. I don't know.

Did I ever really know him? Was it all nothing to him? Did I make a mistake? Should I have stayed and let myself fall in love with him? Would it have taken more to walk away from him if I loved him?

Probably.

But I guess I'll never know.

Authors Note:

Hmmm...