Ok, it's hard to write this as we get new episodes every week, but I've tried to weave the scenes we got from ep 6 into the story. At this point I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. But my aim is still to get Arizona and Callie back together. CALZONA 4-ever! However, I think this detour with Leah is a necessity. The character is actually starting to grow on me, and I hope we get to see some good scenes between the two of them. Also, thanks for all the reviews, you guys are awesome!

/mli


Chapter 4

Arizona was standing by the nurse's station, reading a chart when Leah walked up to her. Several days had passed since the night Arizona had cried herself to sleep in the other woman's lap.

"Hey!" Leah said enthusiastically and smiled widely at the blonde.

"Hey" Arizona looked up to greet the intern.

"Coffee time, you ready to go?"

"Yes... Let me just sign this and I'm all done" Arizona finished up and smiled, gesturing for the other woman to lead the way.

They hadn't hung out alone since that night, but they had shared lunch at the hospital cafeteria a few times and like today, gone for coffee.

"Do you wanna scrub in on my appendectomy later today? The blonde offered. She really saw potential in the younger woman and had come to respect her.

Leah nodded, smiling from ear to ear. Before she hadn't really paid her much thought, dealing with her leg and crumbling marriage but she was happy that Murphy was her friend now. Arizona couldn't deny that she also liked the attention she was receiving from the intern. The admiring looks, the innocent touches, the praise... Who wouldn't like that? And it didn't hurt that she was easy on the eyes as well. She knew she probably should feel guilty... And she did. But by now she'd lost pretty much all hope that Callie would ever forgive her and she was tired.

Tired of feeling guilty, feeling like a horrible person. That wouldn't help her. So she had decided that she would try to get back to being someone she liked. Even if it wasn't the person she used to be. Maybe she could be better? Who knew?

They reached the coffee cart and soon they were walking outside, sitting down on a bench. Sipping her coffee, Leah suddenly asked "So, I was thinking of cooking a specialty tonight, do you wanna come over and eat? Between the hotel food and what they serve in the cafeteria you could probably use a home cooked meal, right?"

Arizona pondered the offer for a second, not wanting to overstep any lines but then she thought that she'd already done that when she fell asleep on the poor woman next to her.

"Yeah, sure, that'd be nice. You did say you made a great impression on the kitchen. .." Arizona smiled.

"Yeah, well, don't believe everything I say... I was trying to let you off the hook for not remembering me... but if that's how you want to play it..." Leah smirked, challenging the older woman.
"No, no, it's all good" Arizona put her hands up, showing her a sign of surrendering.

"How about six at my place?"

...

The two women had just shared a wonderful dinner, and they both were sitting on Leah's couch, each with a glass of white wine in their hands.
"That was amazing, I'm impressed. I couldn't make a salad to save my life" both chuckled at Arizona's admission.
"Thanks. It's nice to cook for someone for a change; it gets rather dull just cooking for youself all the time."

Leah was starting to feel the effect of the wine and felt more confident than ever. She looked over at the blonde.

"I'm really glad that you came tonight, I like hanging out with you Arizona. " she took a chance and called the attending by her first name, hoping it would be ok since they weren't working right now.

"Me too." Arizona looked up and smiled at Leah. She was happy to be here. For the first time since the storm she'd gone almost a full hour without thinking about how she'd ruined her life. It felt good. She usually had a few panic attacks per day, the realization of what had happened hitting her hard and she'd have to excuse herself and run out into the nearest stairwell. She hadn't told anyone about this and no one had seemed to noticed so she was content. She didn't like to show weakness, she'd been taught that it was dangerous, 'cause then someone could use it against you.

She realized that she'd zoned out there for a second when she heard Leah say her name.
"Sorry, what?"
"I asked if you'd like a refill? " Leah looked at her expectedly.
"Yeah, sure, thanks." Leah grabbed the bottle sitting on the table and poured Arizona's glass almost to the brim.
Arizona wondered briefly if the younger woman was trying to get her drunk. She didn't have to wonder for very long because after placing the bottle back onto the table, Leah proceeded to move closer to her, now sitting with one leg under her, turning so she was facing Arizona. Their legs now touch and Arizona didn't know whether to be uncomfortable or open to this new situation.

"I need to tell you something Dr. Robbins, oh, I mean Arizona... Can I call you that?" Arizona could tell that Leah was nervous.
"Yeah, sure…" Arizona looked expectantly at the intern.
"Ok. .. uuuhmm. ..I wanted to tell you that...I can't stop thinking about you. I think you're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen... and..."

Her rambling was interrupted by a strong hand 'round the back of her neck, pulling her forward, and a pair of lips, crushing into her. Arizona couldn't believe that she'd just done that but now; as they were kissing she just couldn't stop. Hearing those words coming from the younger woman made her feel so good. There was one person in the world that didn't see a cheater when they looked at her. She desperately needed that. And this felt so good.
Leah put her hand on Arizona's arm and started to push forward, and soon she was lying on top of her attending, this without ever breaking the kiss. Arizona felt Leah's hands starting to feel her up, trying to get her hand under her shirt. She softly grabbed her wrist and derailed her plan, not exactly ready to go there yet.

Leah's head was spinning; she couldn't believe that she was lying on top of Arizona Robbins, kissing her. She'd been nervous to say those things but to be rewarded with this was beyond her imagination. She had gotten the subtle hint that the woman beneath her wasn't ready to go further than this and she understood; she could have all the time in the world; the important thing was that they were here now... And that she felt those soft lips against hers, and those strong, bur gentle, hands on her.


Arizona woke with a start, taking in her surroundings. She was in her hotel room. She put her head down against the pillow again but suddenly she felt a presence behind her. The night before came rushing back to her.

Telling Leah off, but then texting her in the middle of the night, asking her to come over...
"Oh my god… I have to put that phone in a safe before going to bed next time... I really do have the worst judgment at night…" She carefully turned around and her thoughts were confirmed. Next to her, sleeping, was Leah. She appeared to be naked. "This is so bad… why did I do this… I was lonely and she's so sweet… and hot. I thought that she was inexperienced but she really showed me, I really don't know what to make of her. She's clingy, but I get where she's coming from. As Alex told me she falls quickly and hard. She's probably met the wrong kind of people who always ended up using her and then tossing her away. Just like I did. Oh god… I really am a bad person. I just have to talk to her and tell her that I can't be in anything serious right now. But I like her, I really do. And what we did last night was pretty amazing…"

Arizona reached out and tucked a loose strand of hair behind Leah's ear. Her hand lingered on the other woman's cheek, lightly stroking it with her thumb. She looked so peaceful as she slept. Here was this happy, carefree, beautiful woman, throwing herself at her… and why would she say no? Because of Callie? Because they were still married? Yeah, probably both of those reasons. But Callie still wouldn't talk to her. She'd told people at the gala that her wife was dead. Things were so complicated it hurt her brain to think about it. She knew that starting something with Leah would probably be the last nail in the coffin for her marriage, but that thing was full of nails anyway and even if Callie and she would find their way back to each other, it would take nothing short of a miracle. And if that were to happen, she needed to be whole; she needed to find out who she was now if she ever would be of any use to anyone again. Maybe this was her new start?

The woman beside her started to stir and gradually opened her eyes. She saw Arizona looking back at her and gave her a lazy smile.

"Good morning", she stretched out her arms above her and yawned. Arizona thought it was adorable.

"Good morning yourself, did you sleep well?"

"Yeah, and I think it had something to do with what we did to get ourselves that exhausted…" They both chuckled as they remembered. Arizona couldn't help herself as she leaned down to place a sweet kiss on Leah's mouth. The younger woman moaned and they deepened the kiss. Her tongue darted out and Leah granted her entrance. The air suddenly got heavy as the kiss grew frantic. The blonde let her hand stray to the other woman's thigh. It was soft and warm and she began to drag her palm against the skin until she reached her hip…

Suddenly a beeper went off and disrupted them. Both letting out a frustrated grunt and then pulling apart. Arizona looked to see that it was her beeper and she cast an apologetic smile Leah's way. "911, I guess I have to go… do you wanna come with and I'll let you scrub in…?"

Arizona wasn't ready to let the woman go just yet. She was soaking wet between her legs so there was an off-chance that she wasn't using her brain to make decisions at the moment.

Leah happily accepted and soon they were both clothed and on their way.


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