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A/N: Sooo here's chapter two let me know what you think and thank you for the wonderful reviews, follows and favourites this story has already gotten. :) Enjoy

She had never been so sure she didn't say anything just gazed down to his lips then back to his deep blue eyes and leaned in to close the gap. As soon as their lips touched it was electric nothing either of them had felt before it was slow at first until Kate moved closer placing her hand on his cheek letting out a soft moan as he pulled her onto his lap holding her by the waist. To keep her from falling off she whimpered into his mouth begging for him to open his mouth as soon as he did the tongues joined in a hot, slow kiss full of sorry, love, forgiveness, future.

Kate knew they had to break soon as she could barely breathe but after touching him connecting with him she didn't want to part from him she slowed the kiss down and started kissing the side of his neck up to his ear teasing the bottom of his ear lobe causing him to let out a moan. Realising that they may be a bit too loud considering the two red heads had only just made their way to their bedrooms. He lifted Kate up as she continued to kiss his ear "Rick… where… what" she panted hot heavy breathes in his ear.

"Shh it's okay... God Kate…. Tis amazing… just can't wake them up…. Office sofa" was all he could manage to get out. Kate just pulled on the bottom of his ear lobe soothing the sting with her tongue then capturing his lips again as he closed the door to his office he made their way blindly over to the sofa slowly placing her down on the sofa lips still connected she pulled him slowly down on top of her. Now it was his turn to tease her he started to nip at her neck taking his delicate time focusing on the crook of her neck and shoulder finding the spots that made her squirm and gasp as she ran her fingers through his hair.

"Wow…. Rick oh god…. Who knew your mouth could do such wonderful things" he sucked on her neck making her squirm both of them falling onto the floor Kate now on top of him when Castle noticed the smart board looking back into the eyes of the woman he loved he knew he had to stop he needed to tell her.

She was looking into his eyes, he was looking back eyes full of love promise and here she was sitting on a lie that she knew he deserved to know.

"Kate wait…" he sat up slowly as Kate followed he pulled her in to his arms "as amazing as that was I can't do that not without being honest this, us means to much for it to end badly I need to be honest" he breathed in a shaky breath,

She pulled away enough to look in his eyes "Cas.. Rick what is it?" just the use of his first name made what he was about to do even harder because he risked losing her forever.

"Kate please what I'm about to show I know I shouldn't have done it but you need to understand I did this to protect you from all the evil so please hear me out because I refuse to lose you"

She scrunched her eyebrows up scared and confused at the same time as to what was exactly going on. "Rick?"

He breathed in closing his eyes then started "after you were shot a man came to me he said that Montgomery had some files, evidence on the ones who killed your mother he told me that as long as I got you to stop the investigation they wouldn't kill you"

Her face was full of betrayal hurt, how could he be so stupid! Risk his life for hers when he had a family "How…. What…" the tears that trickled her eyes now were falling down stopping on her cheek bones.

"Kate" he reached out to her but she wasn't having any of it she went to move to the office door just as she opened he pulled her back "Kate please" he was in hysterics now he wasn't losing her!

"No you kept this FROM ME my MOTHERS case" she tried to fight her way out of his grip but he held on tighter "Rick pleahaease" she was panicking barely able to breathe but he wasn't letting go no matter how hard she punch at his chest he wasn't losing her. He just held onto her his arms holding her in his embrace who was not letting her go, he knew it was wrong to do that but he had to keep her alive. Until she calmed down and wrapped her hands around his back letting the tears out saturating his shirt but he didn't care he moved over back to the sofa pulling her into his lap.

Her head still pressed against his chest her fists digging into the back of his shirt while he rubbed circles into her back soothing her, whispering words of love, promises. When she calmed down she looked up at him "Rick they could have killed you!" she exclaimed shaking her head "Alexis your mother what are you thinking what about your family!" she squeezed her eyes shut again leaning against his shoulder.

"Hey, hey Kate look at me" she finally looked him in the eyes "I would risk my life for you always if it meant saving you I would hand my life over in a second". She started shaking her head not wanting to believe what he was saying how he could choose her over his mother and daughter. "No Rick, you—you can't do that what about your family you can't die because of me do you have any idea what that would do to me, if I had to knock on that door and tell them that you died fighting my fight! Rick…"

He wiped the few tears that fell from her eyes, lightly running his thumb along her cheek bone "because if you die than a huge part of me will too Kate you might not want to hear this yet but I love you! I have loved you for nearly three years! And if they were to kill you they might as well kill me too because I would never be the same I can't imagine my life without you and okay sure that might be selfish of me to keep this from you but I'm not letting you go they are not going to kill you!"

Kates heart stopped he said again she didn't know what to say "Kate…I'm sorry I… I uh shouldn't have said that, it was out of line" she needed to tell him the truth too he was being honest it's time she was as well.

"Rick" it was a whisper he almost didn't hear her he moved her so she was facing him "Kate talk to me" he lightly kissed her on the forehead holding her against him.

"I… the shooting Rick I lied" she was panicking, "I… I remember everything" she started crying again.

"Everything…but" if he was being honest he had his doubts these last few weeks but now hearing it but he knew he needed to hear her out because he had also gone behind her back.

Their foreheads were still resting against one another "Rick" it was a hot whisper against his lips, her hands still placed in the nape of the back of his neck.

His hands still holding onto the back of her waist "Kate… why?" she breathed in he was mad but he didn't leave she didn't know what to say all she knew is she needed to just come clean.

"I was so scared, Rick… I—I just didn't know if what I heard was right I guess I just didn't understand how someone could love someone like me, no Rick please let me finish" she added avoiding Castle from cutting in. "The thing is Rick ever since my mother was killed I've shut my heart off from everyone so I could never risk getting hurt that bad again" she broke out in tears again "I'm just…. So scared I—I can't lose—lose you". She officially felt like she was crying a river now he pulled her in so her face was hidden in the crook of his neck while he rubbed her back.

"Hey—Hey Kate, listen to me I'm not going anywhere sure I'm upset and angry that you lied but a part of me understands but you need to know I'm staying Kate I will fight with everything I have because I love you and don't you ever! Think that you are unlovable you are extraordinary Katherine and I want no I need you to know that I am going to fight with everything. That I have to show you how much I love you I want this Kate, us."

A/N: Let me know what you think, working on next chapter now :)