I do not own Durarara...

and this is a very long flash back.

17 years ago...

A five year old raven was watching kids play during recess. Enjoying his solitude in the corner of the playground.

He never really had any friends, and kids picked on him because of his strange eye color. Red like rubies, or as they would call him, red like the devil.
They would run around pretending to exorcize him from evil. And laughed when ever he got hurt during their stupid games, saying that the devil would be the only thing that would get hurt because of the wooden stick crosses they made.

Izaya greatly disliked the kids, but at the same time. He admired them, for being so human. And he loved humans.
Seeing an abnormality in a person, and acting against what it was. Such human nature that it alone made him smile. He wasn't the devil, in his mind he wanted to be their god.
To the small child it was fascinating, watching the kids pick on each other and with a few spread rumors he was able to watch them tear each other apart, though at times it was painful.

He was always lonely.

Until a kid joined him one day.

"Hi." The brunette says, "my name is Shinra." He holds out his hand.
Izaya who was busy watching the others was shocked that someone dared to approach him.

"Oh...hi..." He takes Shinra's hand," my name is Izaya."

"Izaya, that's a cool name!" Shinra says, adjusting his glasses and sitting next to the raven.
Izaya smiles at the compliment,"thanks..."
Shinra did a double take looking at the smaller child's eyes," Iza-kun your eyes are red!"
Izaya flinches and lowers his rubies, until Shinra speaks again.

"That is awesome! I heard that only kids with albinism could have red eyes! But you have blackish brown hair!" He started to rant on about something that Izaya never paid attention to. Though he was quiet sure it was brought up multiple times over their school days.
As the year passed Izaya found himself becoming friends with the kid with the glasses.

They sat with each other at lunch, and did almost every group project together. Almost as in Izaya did most of the work while Shinra colored.

Shinra, though nerdy and dorky, Izaya quickly realized never got bullied.
Which was interesting, for he was a walking bully me target.

It wasn't until third grade did, when Izaya was seven that he found out why.

Shinra was on the swing set seeing how high he could go, while Izaya was under the shaded trees behind him.
The red eyed kid had all his attention on the psychology book he had nicked from the library.
Until it was knocked out of his hands.

"So, red eyed dunce" A bully corners the silent boy.

"So, blue eyed wussy" Izaya says in return picking up his book.

The kid turns red from the come back.

"Freak of nature... You're weird." The kid states.

"And you're smart, are we just going to list false facts?" Izaya says with a bored expression on his face.
The kid frowns and goes to hit Izaya, but is stopped by another. The boy had orange hair and was frowning. "Why don't you go pick on some one else like your twin Yeinji."
The bully grunts taking back his hand. "I'm getting my brother!" He ran off.

The orange haired kids turns to Izaya and grins for a moment,"my name is Otiraka..."
Izaya stares at his savior,"I'm Izaya..."

"I like your eyes." The kid says suddenly.

Izaya freezes for a moment,"wait...what?"

"They're red like my fake brothers hair, and I love him." He repeats turning red from blushing. "So I like you!"

Izaya's eyes got bigger, surprised. This is liked him?

"Yo! Otiraka! What are you doing around freak of nature!?" The bullies return,"Trying to get up in life Izaya-chan?"
Izaya didn't pay attention, all the other boy was doing was getting on his nerves. He stands to leave, even after seeing Otiraka's hurt expression.

"Hey, don't ignor me you red eyed runt." The bully grabs Izaya's collar,"why? Are you afraid of a few simple kids." He laughs, Izaya rolls his eyes, thoughts thinking about how much more stupid can this lovely human get.

He gets slammed on the tree trunk. "Why don't you just die already you freak. Nobody wants you or your ugly face here."
Otiraka glares at the newer attacker.

"You do know that, that does not make sense right?" An older voice says. Startling the bullies."He's much better looking than all of you idiots."
A taller boy, with light brow hair and carmel eyes grabs the kid. He picks him up with one hand.

"That's right Shizuo! He was picking on Iza-kun." Shinra was cheering on his destructive friend.

"You are going to leave him alone from now on get it, Reinji, Yeinji" Shizuo threatens holding up Izaya's bully," and you too, Otiraka, go near him again, and I will throw you across the world." The orange haired boy nods face going paler and paler. Watching the bully being manhandled.
"Now go away. Izaya is mine." Shizuo says tossing the frightened boy aside.
Otiraka ran away crying to his older brother that day.

~|_x_|~

"Kai-nii-San! Kai-nii-san!"

"What Otiraka-kun?" The red head ten year old says to the saddened eight year old.

"Izaya...Izaya and..."
The older red haired boy sighs,"you were messing with Izaya-kun again? Why?"

"Be..because." The orange haired boy blushes," he has red eyes!"

Kaitoya grins at his little brother,"yeah, so? I have red hair."
Otiraka nods, letting tears slip off his face.

"Shizuo... He says that Izaya is his! But I want him!" The orange haired boy cries.

Shaking his head at the young broken heart Kaitoya hugs him,"if you want Izaya to like you, don't bully him. You cannot own him, he is a person."

"No he isn't!" Otiraka shouts suddenly," he's the devil! He has ruby colored eyes! He's weird...and I like him..." He blushes turning redder than his older brothers hair.

Once again Kaitoya grins,"you still should not bully him. And he isn't some sort of procession."

"But..that's how Daddy treats Mommy...He treats her like...property..."

"That's...just...how he..." Kaitoya couldn't fit the words into the sentence.
He knew that his father was the head of the human trafficking trade, and that their mother was just another bought whore.

"You should still treat Izaya nicely." He says trying to calm the sad tears away from his little brother. "Become friends with him, instead of those kids that don't like him."

"...but Shizuo will kill me if I go near Izaya. He just as strong as you!" Otiraka says," I've seen him throw things even bigger than what you have thrown!"

Kaitoya smiles and pats his brother head,"show Shizuo that you are not going to hurt Izaya. And be nice."

Otiraka nods.

For Izaya that was the last time he was bullied.
And for Shizuo that was the first time he felt like his strength did good.

"Izaya-kun, this is Shizuo. He has massive strength!" Shinra was ranting introducing his two best friends.

Shizuo looks over at the raven, noticing his red eyes, and pale features. Izaya was the prettiest person he had ever seen.

"Hi, ignore the strength." He says with a smile, hoping he didn't sound too stupid.
Izaya smiles and blushes,"hi, ignore the red eyes." He giggles, feeling nervous around the light haired brewnett.

Both had a deep feeling that they knew right then, they would always be with each other.

Shinra was elated that both of his friends were connecting quickly.
Though he did get a little annoyed when they hung out without him.

Shizuo and Izaya were everywhere with each other.
School, diners, parks, houses, even sleeping in the same bed when they had sleepovers.

But it all changed when Shizuo was moving.
Summer of their fifth into middle school was closing.
Izaya was ten and Shizuo was eleven.
They were both in the park.

"Ne, Shizu-chan, do you think I will grow as tall as you are?" The raven asks leaning against the older.

"Maybe, if you drank milk you would be taller than me. But I wouldn't like that." Shizuo says, they were both just leaning against each other under the greenest tree in the park.

"Why?"

"Then I wouldn't be able to pat your head." Shizuo messes up Izaya hair with a laugh.

Izaya glares at him, then breaks out into a smile. "Meh..."

He looks into Shizuo's deep Carmel coffee colored eyes.
The eyes on the person he realized long ago he loved.

"So you wanted to tell me something...what?" He asks leaning back again, entwining his and Shizuo's fingers.

Shizuo was staring at their hands, lifts them up and kisses them.
Looking at Izaya blushing face he sighs.
"I...I can't do this Izaya..."

Izaya looked stunned. "Wait...what?"

"I...I'm moving." Shizuo felt dreadful when he saw Izaya's face.

It turned red, and his usually happy red eyes, turned into red shattered glass as tears fell from his raven's face. "Wh..when?" He tries to calm down.
Shizuo embraces him. "In three days...I should of told you-"

"Sooner. You should of Shizu-chan..." Izaya cries,"now..now I only have three days left to be with you."

Shizuo nods,"please, just stop crying Izaya." He wipes away some of the slaty tears. "Please..."

"I..I can't Shizuo..." Izaya was sad and angry."will you ever come back?"

Shizuo shrugs,"I donno, maybe."

Izaya only cried more.

"Listen I'm sorry, I should of told yo-Aah Izaya!" Izaya took off, running from Shizuo.
Shizuo felt something deep inside him break, and tears pooled in his own eyes. "I..." He ran after him.

Izaya ran until he reached the park in Shinjuku. Wishing to forget those Carmel eyes. The eyes he was hoping held something more, but now he would never know. He would never see him again.

"Stupid...protozoan...he..he should of told me, than I would of told him." He was still crying, then he bumped into some one.

"Oi, Izaya-kun!" Otiraka was blushing," sorry...eh, why are you crying?"

Izaya shakes his head,"I'm not crying..." He looks into Otiraka's coffee colored eyes.
"Was it because of Shizuo? Is he hurt again?" Otiraka thinks back to all the times he saw Izaya crying, all of them were because of Shizuo. The man he had learned to hate.
Izaya shakes his head,"he's...he's moving..."

Otiraka couldn't help but feel a little glad, but was still saddened because Izaya was hurt.
"I'm sorry Iza-kun...here wanna hang with me for a bit? My brother isn't home right now, so I'm just hanging here." He asks suddenly feeling really embarrassed.

Izaya thought for a moment, then looks into the coffee eyes again.
He nods,"sure...Taka-San."
Otiraka smiles, and leads the raven to one of the many hiding places he had found in the years of playing in the park.
And all they did was talk.

Izaya found himself calming down thanks to the orange haired boy. Listening to him talk about his older brother, who really wasn't his brother, Kaitoya. Apparently Kaitoya had strength like Shizuo, but was much calmer about his well... Everything. But kept things bottled up, never showing much emotion about anything.
He also noticed how when ever Otiraka talked about Kaitoya, he was blushing and admiring.

"Do you... Do you love your brother?" Izaya asks when Otiraka wasn't talking for a moment.

"Yeah... Do you love Shizuo?" He asks right after.

Izaya blushes,"...I geuss so...yeah... I do." Izaya blushes and hides his eyes.

"No! Don't cover your eyes, they're red like my brothers." Otiraka grabs Izaya's hands.
They both stare at each other, the same thought forming.
"Shizuo is moving...and your eyes are red like my brothers hair...but...he doesn't like me like that..." Otiraka smiles and hold Izaya's hand."Wanna be my more then special friend?"
Izaya was taken aback, then looks again into those brown eyes. "You have eyes like him...so..." He nods, "sure."

They both laugh, then Otiraka does something unpredictable.
He kisses Izaya.

Izaya was shocked during the kiss, then he saw Carmel eyes glaring at him and Otiraka.

"So is this who you're running to?" Shizuo growls, pissed off beyond pissed off.

"Shizu-chan..." Izaya says but was cut off.

"Stop calling me that you...flea!"

Izaya flinches at his new name. Then anger rises,"why do you care who I go to!?"

Growling Shizuo steps forward,"I...You know what, fine! Go running to your new. boyfriend!"

Izaya's eyes went wide, then he yells back,"fine! I hate you!"

"I hate you too! " Shizuo shoves past both of them, and leaves.

Otiraka held onto Izaya as he broke into pieces, crying and wishing that. Things had been different.

Middle school went by fast, and the both of them staid together.

When summer came for between Middle and highschool, Izaya looked into those brown eyes, and gave him everything. Until Otiraka began getting sick.

Coughing, and progressively getting worse.

The first day of Highschool.

"Iza-kun!" The orange haired teen hugs the raven from behind, kissing the back of his neck.

"Taka-San, I thought you had a doctors appointment." Izaya turns around in the tallers arms, hugging him back.
Otiraka nods," I do but, I still wanted to see you off to your first day of highschool."

Izaya smiles, looking deep into the brown eyes.
Otiraka stares deeply into the red color.
"I wish I could beat this thing so I could join you in school."

Izaya kisses him,"you will, and can join Shinra and I once you come back!"
The school bell rings,"I have to go."

"I'll see you later Iza-kun!"

Izaya waves and runs into the school. Meeting Shinra at the entrance.

Otiraka smiles watching his red eyed demon run into the school.
Then he felt pain in his chest, he started to cough.
Blood came out of his mouth.

"Otiraka! Otiraka!" A voice was calling, a red head caught him as he was falling.

"Kai...Kaitoya?"

Kaitoya nods,"hold still, I'm taking you to the hospital! You shouldn't of come to see him!" Picking up his brother, he ran.

~|_x_|~

Izaya was sitting next to Shinra, bored as kids introduced themselves to the class.
Shinra had already gone, and was jumping all over telling Izaya that he had some good news.

"Orihara, Izaya."

Izaya stands, and goes to the front of the room.
"Hi. I'm Izaya, I like ootoro, I dislike anything sweet. An interesting fact about me..."
He looks around the room but freezes when he meets a set of familiar eyes.
The teacher ignores him going silent,"next, Yairu, Otiraka."

Izaya sits, still feeling those Carmel eyes on him.
"Yairu?" The teacher calls again.

Izaya speaks up,"not here today."

The teacher nods. "Fine, Heiwajima, Shizuo."

Izaya freezes, watching a handsome blond with Carmel eyes go up to the front of the room.

"My name is Shizuo, I like anything sweet like strawberries and chocolate, I hate anyone who messes with my stuff. And my intresting fact is that I have nothing interesting to say." He sits back down in the back of the room.

And all the raven and blond could think about was each other.
Izaya couldn't help but to glance over at the bleach blond, and admire how much he had grown. He loved the look of blond on the older teen. It brought out his eyes, and fit well with his demeanor.

Shizuo couldn't keep his eyes off of Izaya. Thoughts thinking about how much the raven had matured. From the feminine face to how he was leaning back in his seat, and most of all. He still had the same mischievous look in his ruby eyes that only made Shizuo realize, he still loved Izaya Orihara.

When school ended they were told by Shinra separately to meet him at the field.
Shizuo was waiting for his long time friend. When he suddenly heard voices, that really pissed him off.

"I bet you that, Izaya and Oritaka have gotten a little too comfortable with each other."

"Ha, the little slut probably opens his legs for anyone who want him." Another says.

"Wait, didn't you see? Otiraka completely fell over, I bet you he will be dead by the end of this week." A males voice.

"Ha! Who else does that red eyed freak has?" The second male voice.

"Not even his family." Another spoke.

"So once his hubby is dead from whatever he has, we can finally get rid of that freak!" Back to the second voice.

Shizuo felt something in his anger snap. Sort of like the pole he had just ripped out of the ground.

"You talking about Orihara?" He growls startling the gang that was gathered there.

"Yeah. What's it to you?" One says.

"Dude, that's Shizuo, Yeinji!" The third voice, a teen with black hair says.

Yeinji smiles,"wait, don't you hate the bitch too?" He says sneering.

Until Shizuo hit it off his face with the metalic support. All the others either try to attack, or they ran away. Drawing the attention of a red eyed teen and a future unground doctor.

"I see he hasn't lost that ridiculous strength." Izaya notes as he and Shinra get closer to the field.

Shinra nods, and they watch as Shizuo takes out everyone in the vicinity.
He drops the pole when he sees them, and calms down enough to greet his friend.
"Shinra..."

"Shizuo! You remember Izaya right." The glasses wearing male says with a smile.

Shizuo looks to the red eyes that have haunted him for years. His heart flutters, he he remembers those thugs. 'Izaya and Oritaka...' He couldn't get the thought out of his head. His raven with another in...bed.
"You piss me off." He says with venom.

Izaya's smile faulters, "that's too bad..." He sneers, finding himself mocking Shizuo."We could of been, more than special friends."

~|_x_|~

Izaya was seeing his past he realizes. The past he wished to forget...

It was two months later when Izaya saw Otiraka.
The orange haired teen was on his death bed. His brother at his side, nearly in tears when Izaya ran into the room.

"Taka-San!" The raven was out of breath,"Otiraka..."

The memory was fuzzy, and was slowly fading.

"Why did you come?" Kaitoya growls suddenly,"I know... I know you have only been using my brother. Pretending he was a certain brute!"

The memory skips a few minutes.

"Did you even love my brother?"

Izaya opens his mouth, but was answered for him.

"No...but, he was still my red eyed demon." Otiraka says opening his eyes to look upon his brother and Izaya.

Izaya nods, looking into the eyes he had been pretending for too long were some one else's.

"Izaya...let's stop...pretending now..." Otiraka smiles painfully," please...find those eyes that you were really looking...for."

Izaya nods, feeling tears prickle in the sides of his eyes.

"You must find the true red then..."

"I'll wait forever if I have too."

The memory skips. And suddenly Izaya is being held down by Kaitoya. Three years after Otiraka had died.

The new informant was investigating a slave trade, which happend to be connected with a person who he knew by then was stalking him.

"Izaya..," the gruff voice was almost demanding entrance.

Izaya struggles, unable to get his blade.

"Is this really how you want to your brothers last and only friend?"

Kaitoya sneers,"I loved my brother...but, I have learned to love you more...my pet."

Izaya gasps when cold lips touch his neck.

Izaya then watches as Kaitoya gets body slammed by a vending machine. Fallowed by the classic call of a pissed of blond.

Running, he could hear Kaitoya's voice.
"So...everyone else can have you but I cannot...let's see how that does in the end...my dear pet."

Izaya remembers that he kept a closer eye on the trade after. Kaitoya took over.
So he set everything in motion to ruin it all.
And he did.

But, Kaitoya escaped arrest. But Izaya thought that he had learned his lesson enough, his mind was on other things. On another certain blond.

He never realized Kaitoya was planning to destroy him in to to break him, like how he saw his brother was broken.

"All because you loved Otiraka..."

~|_x_|~

Modern time.

"It's your choice..."

Kaitoya holds Izaya closer as Shizuo grinds his teeth together.

His thoughts on the syringes. His thoughts on how he was going to save Izaya.

"If I kill myself...you will let him go." He states, almost threateningly.

kaitoya nods,"more or less... After he pays back for what I lost... If you die for him, oh the shame...if you leave him, well hes been alone all his life...if you try to save him, well...that won't turn out well..."

Shizuo growls, the needle gets closer to Izaya's flesh.

"No, fine! I want you to release him now, then I will kill myself."

Kaitoya breaks the cuffs on Izaya's wrists.

The still fearful informant sees Shizuo pull up his white sleeve.

"NO!" Izaya shouts, he yanks the syringe from Kaitoya,"don't you dare Shizuo! DON'T YOU EVEN TRY IT!"

Shizuo sees the other syringe broken on the ground and drops his.

Suddenly Kaitoya was laughing,"you think I hadn't thought of that, I-za-ya...?" Pulling out a gun and grabbing Izaya, he continues to laugh. "Now who to shoot first? The brute whi has broken Izaya before? Or the freak that ruined everything I loved..."

Along tense silence passes over, none making any moves. Until it was broken by Izayas hoarse voice,"This...is all because you...love Otiraka."

Kaitoya's face goes blank at the name. Stirring memories long forgotten.

"This is because you broke him...and me." Kaitoya growls,"Izaya...do you still love Shizuo?" He asks.

Shizuo snaps into attention. His thoughts were on the orange haired teen he disliked until his death.

"The beast who had torn your heart out? Time after time? And now he is unabled to save you! You see...in truth he hates you. If he loved you he would of gotten here the first time he looked at the video pad." Kaitoya grips Izaya tighter, going delusional. "Why...do you love him?"

Izaya closes his eyes.
"I have always loved him...I never stopped...even when I was with Otiraka..."
He looks at Shizuo. "But...you..Kaitoya...have lost your mind."

Kaitoya punches Izaya.

"Because of you my brother is dead!" He shoves the informant to the ground before yanking him back up by the hair. "He didn't die of TB, he died of broken heart syndrome! You brought him down, so I'm brining you down."

Izaya winces in pain but speaks louder. "He died because of you! He died because he loved you!...It, in his mind, was something that could never be. It was too much for him!"

"Then why were he and you -!?" Kaitoya was shaking in anger and grief.

"To get over you! He used me..to get over loving you...and I used him. To get over..." Izaya looks to Shizuo. "To get over...Shizuo."

Still to stunned to move Shizuo makes eye contact with the flea.

Kaitoya growls and pulls Izaya to his feet, grabbing his ruffly. "You are the only thing I have left of my brother...the only one who can pay... Pay for everything you caused and ruined! My brother being dead, my business being ruined... You owe me everything!...I am never letting you go... Your are my pet. The one who will give me back what I lost with Otiraka... You are mine..."

Shizuo growls, " he is not some sort of procession! You will release him!"

"NO! IF I CANNOT HAVE HIM, WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO HAVE THE SO CALLED GREAT IZAYA ORIHARA!?"

"BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!" Shizuo shouts,"if you honestly loved him...if you loved Otiraka... you wouldn't of put Izaya through any of this."

There was as silence. Izaya was frozen, eyes wide, his body shaking.

Kaitoya sneers,"he deserved being fucked all over for what he had done to Otiraka, to me to all the people he manipulated!" Even Shizuo could see the man going mad. Insane thoughts were written all in his expression. He grabs Izaya harder, causing more bruises.

"No...if I cannot have my revenge...if I cannot have the ones I love, you won't have the one you love either." Kaitoya was speaking silently, but they all heard. He aims the gun, "If he is allowed to ruin me...I will ruin him...until he dies...mind and body, he is mine."

"NO! Kaitoya don't!" Izaya shoves the deranged red head. The gun cocks back.

Shizuo yells.

Shots are fired.

~|_x_|~

Red: I am sorry! It took me a while to write this...and sorry for the horrible writting because I was studying for Bio... And sorry for the odd story^^

Izaya: (°_°) ...o.O; you have some serious issues...

Shizuo: ...* un impressed*

Red:I WAS BUSY! And couldn't really come up with a good reason to have the guy take a gun and #/!;:)'!*spoilers*

Otiraka: o.o? What am I...ok...fav comment to find out...who got shot...*waves arms in air awkwardly* I died already! why am I doing this!?