I find it funny every time you guys say how good/great my writing is yet I fail English I my freshman year in college, guess my bitch professor didn't agree.. Or it could have been because I rarely went to her class but who knows right?
You guys don't like me messing with Sofia huh? Let's see what happens.. Jouir De !
Seeing Sofia get hit by that car made my heart stop. I felt it stop beating. And I don't know if it's because she's so little or if the car just hit her that hard but it sent her flying up in the air. This is not happening. This can't be happening. It has only been seconds since Sofia took off after that damn dog and got hit by a car. I'm running as fast as I can to get to her but I can only go so fast. I see Savvy fly past me, her being more athletic than me and all, and catches Sofia before she hit the pavement head first, Snoopy still held fiercely to her chest. "Is Snoopy hurt Mommy's friend?" I hear her ask Savvy.
Savvy lets out a watery laugh and says, "No Sweetie, I don't think he's hurt, but I'm worried about you. Are you hurting anywhere?" I see Sofia shake her head no before I snatch my child from away from Savvy. I didn't mean to snatch her, it just happened. And I didn't mean for Snoopy to get dropped in the mix but that also happened. The doctor in me knows I shouldn't be squeezing her to me like this in case she has some internal injuries but the mother in me is telling Doctor Torres to shut the fuck up. I have to comfort her and make sure she's okay. I pull her away from my chest long enough for me to look her in her eyes. "Baby what hurts?" I already know her answer, having heard it when Savvy asked but I had to ask again, for my sanity.
"You. Too tight." she whines as she tries to get down out of my arms but I don't let her. She may feel fine but I know that's just on account of all the adrenaline coursing through her veins because of the impact and if she stands she may risk doing more damage. Thankfully Savvy was able to get to her before she hit the concrete. I don't want to think about what kind of head or neck or any other kind of injuries she could have gotten if she had actually fallen after the hit.
"Sofia what have I told you about running into the street?" I ask my daughter, trying not to yell at her but I still end up doing it. I just need her to understand the seriousness of this or she'll do it again.
"Don't do it without you or Momma. I'm sorry Mommy, I was just following Snoopy." She says as she starts to cry, thinking she's in trouble and about to be punished.
"Shh, okay baby Mommy's sorry for yelling at you but you gave me a heart attack. Don't ever do that again okay?" she nods and sniffs. "Pinky swear?" I ask and hold out my pinky to her. She wraps her little finger around it, squeezes, and nod. I kiss her lips and go back to holding her tight to my chest, thank God for not taking my little girl away from me and continue my speed walk back to my apartment and my car. I have to take Sofia to the ER. She may feel fine now but I know something in there is broken. She's too small and that car hit her too hard for something not to be but I'm both a little worried and thankful she doesn't feel it. I don't know if Savvy is following, I would imagine she would but I can't worry about her right now. Once I get to my car I sit Sofia in the back and strap her in the way she likes. That's when I see Savvy again as she's rounding the car to the driver's side and Snoopy hops in the back and sits in Sofia's lap. "I'm sorry Savvy but I have to go. I need to get her to the Lodox machine at the hospital, the car hit her too hard she needs medical attention." I say in a rush and try to get in the driver's seat but she beats me to it.
"Go on the other side or get in the back. Look at your hands, their shaking, you're in no condition to drive. Hurry up." I don't argue with her and does what she says and get in the back with Sofia. I can see a dark bruise starting to form on her left shin. That means it's something with her tibia. That's understandable seeing as the car hit her legs. I look at her face and the way she's looking at me I can tell the adrenaline is starting to wane and she's starting to hurt and I tell Savvy to drive faster. The car barely comes to a stop before I unstrap her and bolt out of the car with her, making my way to the Lodox machine. Fuck waiting for someone else to come look at her, I'm a doctor, an orthopedic doctor at that, I can handle this myself and I dare someone to try and stop me. I know she has at least bruised, if not fractured her tibia, but I need the Lodox to make sure that that is all that is wrong. I lay her down on the bed and tell her to be a brave big girl for Mommy and try to steady my hands long enough to get this machine to work. "Callie?" I hear behind me. I turn around to see Arizona looking from me to Sofia with wide questioning eyes. "What the hell happened ?! Why does she need a full body scan Callie?" she asks as she rushes over to Sofia's side, taking in her face contorted in pain and the swelling and growing bruise on her leg. I ignore her questions and continue fumbling with the machine.
"How do you work this stupid thing ?!" I growl in scared frustration. Arizona pushes me out the way and presses one button, bringing the machine to life. We both silently count the thirteen seconds it takes for a scan and look at the screen showing my baby's insides. Just as I guessed, incomplete tibial fracture. I leave Arizona with Sofia and go to the nurses station and tell the nurse manning the desk to bring me what I'll need for long leg splint to trauma room 2, along with pain meds. I also tell her to schedule Sofia to come in in two days to get a cast, once the swelling has had a chance to go down. Thank God she doesn't need surgery. I go back to my child and see Arizona trying to comfort Sofia who now has tears streaking down her face. Arizona hears me coming and turns around, looking pissed. I pick up Sofia, careful not to jostle her injured leg and carry her to trauma room 2, all with Arizona hot on my heels.
Once in the privacy of the trauma room she starts attacking me. "You want to explain to me how you let my daughter end up in the ER with a broken leg? And you didn't even have the decency to have me paged? I'm her mother too Callie, I need to know what's going on." Just as she says this the door opens and Savvy walks and stands in the corner, you can clearly see she has Snoopy under her shirt. If the situation were different I would find the fact that she smuggled a dog into a hospital full of sick people a little funny but this situation isn't different and nothing about any of this is funny.
Arizona's right though, if the roles were reversed I would say the same thing to her. But in the thick of things I couldn't think about anything else but Sofia. "We were out walking the dog around the block. Sofia wanted to hold the leash, she was doing great until the dog took off after a stray cat. Everything all happened so fast. Sofia ran after him before I could stop her and she ran into the road and a car came out of nowhere and hit her." I say as fresh tears replace the ones that dried up on my cheeks as I'm hit with a ton of guilt.
"SHE WAS WHAT ?!" Arizona yells, causing Sofia to jump, and I'm pretty sure the entire hospital heard her too. "How did you let my daughter get hit by a freaking car ?! What the hell were you doing that you weren't watching her? Who the hell lets a three year old walk a dog anyway. If you weren't so busy playing tonsil tennis with her then you would have paid better attention." She says as she points at Savvy. I don't have time to care if she saw us kissing in the hospital earlier or if someone told her or if she's just talking out her ass because her yelling is scaring Sofia and that is not okay. I grab her by her arm and drag her out the room and into the next free room, slamming the door once we're inside.
"Look, I get that you are scared and upset but-"
"No. I'm not 'upset' Callie." she says, interrupting my attempt to be the level-headed one of the two of us. "I'm livid! While you were hanging out with your little girlfriend in there you took your eyes off my baby and she ran into the street and was hit by a freaking car Callie! Now she's in the hospital with a broken leg and you didn't even think to call me. I know you don't like that I'm her other mother but I am and I have the right to know these things along with who you're having around her. This wouldn't have happened if you weren't distracted by that woman in there." Arizona continues to yell at me.
"Okay let me stop you right there Arizona." I say, trying real hard not to scream back at her because my daughter is hurt and having a screaming match with Arizona is the last thing I want to do right now. "If you were so concerned about the well being of Sofia around me and my company then you should have stayed home with her on your night. You could have found someone else to cover Karev's shift. You're the head of Peds, delegate, then none of us would be here. But you don't see me blaming you for this, unlike what you're doing to me. And it's funny how you're her mother now. You can't pick and choose when you get to be a parent Arizona. I couldn't get you to say boo to Sofia a few months ago and now all of a sudden you're mother of the year. Did you forget that I'm her mother too? I've been the one constant in her life and I will continue to be that when you bail on her again like you do everything else. I didn't call you because I was terrified for my daughter and you were the furthest thing from my mind. Should I have? Sure, and I'm sorry for not thinking about you. But before you go labeling me as a bad mother then I suggest you look in the mirror Arizona." I say and go to storm out of the room before she can speak, like I always do, when something else she said comes back to me. "Oh, and that woman in there, my little 'girlfriend', saved your 'daughter' from a whole hell of a lot more injuries because she was there so you should be thanking her, not blaming her." I say and storm out.
I don't go right to Sofia's room because I need to take a moment to breathe and gather myself. Arizona has a way of pissing me off to the point I can't think straight. I already feel guilty enough on my own without having her blame me too. Even if she was scared and probably didn't mean it. You know what, I'm need stop assuming I know what Arizona thinks or feels, look where that's got me. She meant it. I thought parents were supposed to come together in their child's time of need not drift further apart. And who gave her the right to question who I have around my daughter? By the time I get back to the room Arizona has given Sofia something for the pain and I'm just glad to see she's stopped crying. Though that could have something to do with the dog she's holding. I'm glad Savvy was able to sneak him in for her, even though I never want Sofia around him or any other animal again. I don't say anything to anyone as I set and splint my daughters leg. Arizona must have given her an anti-inflammatory as well because I see some of the swelling has gone down already and I might only have to wait for a day to put a cast on it instead of two.
There is so much tension in the room I can hardly breathe. I'm normally not one to fill silence with conversation but I don't want Sofia to pick up on anything being wrong so I talk. "Savvy I didn't have a chance to introduce you to.." I almost said my soon to be ex-wife, and I totally would have if there weren't tiny human ears listening. "Sofia's other mother." I say, to make Arizona feel better since I might have made her doubt that's what she is. "Savvy, Arizona. Arizona, Savvy. Woman who saved Sofia's life tonight. I haven't had a chance to thank you with all the running around so, thank you." I say sincerely, looking her right in the eye. "I wish I knew some other words to describe how thankful I am that you were there and did what you did but there aren't any so.. thank you." I say and look away before I start crying and upset Sofia. I know Savvy feels guilty too but I want to assure her that I don't blame her. Sofia's my daughter, I'm responsible for her and I should have prevented this, not her. I'm so busy kicking my self in my head that I don't know if they spoke or if Savvy replied to me and I don't care. I'm just ready to get my daughter home and to sleep.
"Why don't you let me take her home? It is my night after all. And I interrupted your night already so let me take her." I hear Arizona say.
"No. You brought her to me so I'm keeping her. You'll get her when it's your turn." I hate fighting over my daughter like this. Something has got to change. We need a better schedule, a more permanent schedule. Like one decided by a judge. I'm looking into that first thing tomorrow. No one says anything while I finish putting a long leg splint on Sofia's leg. I'm gonna have to take off from work until she gets her cast on so I can make sure she doesn't break her leg all the way by standing on it. I tell no one in particular to get me a wheelchair for Sofia and a few minutes later we are out in front of the hospital waiting for Savvy to bring the car around. Once I get Sofia and Snoopy situated in the back and close the door to tiny human ears Arizona pulls me to the side.
"I'm sorry about what I said earlier. I-" But I cut her off. I don't want to hear another half assed apology from her. I'm tired and my patience is non-existent.
"It's already forgotten." I lie, her words running on replay in my head. I turn to really face her and lower my voice so only she hears, "Don't ever scream at me like that in front of Sofia again or it'll be your last time with her." I hold her gaze so she understands that that stunt she pulled in front of Sofia will not be tolerated and get in the car once she nods.
Once we got home and I gave Sofia the meds I prescribed her she fell asleep quickly. I stand at my bedroom door watching the rise and fall of her chest as she sleeps, thankful she's still here, I couldn't have handled losing her. After a couple of minutes of watching her I hear someone moving around the kitchen and I remember that Savvy is still here. I close the door some, leaving it cracked and grabbing the baby monitor just in case. I go into the kitchen and see Savvy heating up the baked ziti and garlic bread sticks I cooked earlier. Was that even today when I cooked it? I feel like I've aged ten years over the course of a couple of hours. "Sorry, I'm hungry." she says when she notices me watching her. I was hungry but all of this has made me lose my appetite.
"It's okay," I tell her. "I did make it for you didn't I?" I ask and walk up to her. I wrap my arms around her and rest my head on her shoulder. "It's not your fault." I tell her, making sure she really believes me. "I don't blame you for this. You didn't push her in the street and you definitely didn't hit her. She's my responsibility, it was my fault."
She pulls me back and I see her eyes were a little watery, "Thank you." she says, thanking me for not blaming her, I know how that feels, to be blamed for something and actually think it's your fault, it's a horrible feeling and she shouldn't have to feel it. "But if you're not gonna let me blame myself over this than I'm not gonna let you do it either. It was no ones fault, it was an accident. And I promise you I'm gonna find who hit her." She says, and I realize I hadn't even thought about the driver, I didn't notice him not even stop after hitting Sofia. I'm glad to know that Savvy is gonna take care of it. I lean in and kiss her lips softly, trying to comfort myself and it works, a little. Would it be wrong to have sex when my daughter just got hit by a car a few hours ago? Yea, I can't have sex with her, I'm still married, technically.
"You're welcome to stay if you want, but I'm tired so I'm gonna go turn in. Thank you again Savvy, goodnight.." I say and with another peck go get into my bed with my daughter.
AN: If it's bad it's because it was rushed. I didn't want y'all too worried about Sofia so I wrote this real quick for you guys. Hope it wasn't bad though. Thanks for reading.
