A/N - Here we go with part 4. Sorry I took me so long to upload this chapter. I took a nap after work and didn't realise the time. Also i couldn't quite capture Nicki in the way I wanted to at first. A bi thank you to all that have read this story and to NothingLeftToSayImaineDraons for taking the time to leave a review. (sorry I made you cry).
As usual I don't own Waterloo road or any of the known characters in this story :)
Christine guided me back into the building with hand arm around my shoulder. As we walked through the hall I looked round to see the distraught faces of many of the teenagers. All of the seeking comfort among themselves. Tom had clearly touched the lives of so many of the children here. We walked trough the dark corridors and up the stairs until we reach the heads office.
Christine had left the light on earlier so as we opened the door we were basked with the warm and comforting light. Christine sat me down on one of the chairs opposite hers and went to do something. I wasn't paying attention to what she was doing and couldn't tell you if she was talking to me or not. I was trapped in my own head reliving the fall and the last moments Tom and I had together over and over in my head. It was if the needle was stuck on the record not letting me forget any detail. I was finally broken from my thoughts when Christine put a comforting hand on my shoulder and passed a steaming mug into my hands. "Here you go a nice sugary coffee will make you feel better." She said with a weak smile. The smell of the drink in my hands soon invaded my nostrils forcing me to place my cup on the desk and make a mad dash to the nearest waste paper basket. Once I had finished emptying the contents of my stomach, and had wiped my mouth, I walked back over to the chair and plonked myself heavily into the seat. "I'm sorry." I say running a still shaky hand through my wind mussed hair. "That's OK it's probably just the shock of it all Nicki. It's to be expected." I shook my head. "No it's not the shock Christine." I say feeling the tears brew in my eyes and taking a deep breath to try and calm myself down. "It's the smell of the coffee." Christine looked confused. "Sorry Nicki I thought you liked coffee." I sighed. I knew I was going to have to tell her at some stage. "I'm pregnant." I didn't think I had any tears left to cry but soon enough they were steaming freely down my cheeks.
Christine's face had a shocked expression on it. I was sat there trying to no avail to stop these tears from falling. Christine passed me a tissue that I gladly took to attempt to dry my eyes with. A couple of minutes later I had managed to stop crying and calm myself down. "Thank you." I said to Christine gesturing to the tissue I held in my hand. She smiled softly. "The least I could do. So how far along are you?" I manage to put a smile on my face and start to rub my ever so slightly rounded stomach with one of my hands. A habit I have seemed to of picked up quite quickly. "Exactly ten weeks." She smiles at me again. "I am guessing that the baby is Tom's." I nod tears forming at the mention of his name and the baby but I successfully managed to stop them from falling. Christine sighed and spoke again. "Did he know about the baby Nicki." I nodded. "I think so. I told as he was laying there on the ground. He looked so happy when he found out even in his weakened state. We were going away at the weekend to celebrate the summer holidays. We booked a little cottage in Ireland to stay in. I was going to cook him dinner and tell him then. I wanted it to be perfect and now thanks to my own cowardliness and selfish nature he only knew about the existence of his child for no more than 5 minutes. God what sort of a woman am I!" I said thumping my hand on the table in frustration. Christine spoke calmly. "An upset one right now. You need to calm down Nicki. Think of the baby. Getting worked up is not going to help either of you right now" I nodded taking some deep breaths and rubbing my stomach again. "He was going to propose to me as well. He told me whilst laying on the ground. Apparently he has the ring and everything. Life must really want to screw me over! Just as I was happy and settled I loose the only man who I have ever loved and I am bringing his child into this world all on my own. I can't do it without him Christine! How the hell can I bring up this baby without Tom?" I ask her needing advice and assurance. She got of the chair and crouched down in front of me and took both of my hands in hers. "Listen to me Nicki. You can do this and Tom will be looking over you. Your baby is going to be so lucky to have a strong and loving person like you as their mother. And if I can manage to bring up a child you can!" She said smiling causing me to giggle slightly before my face dropped again. "But what to I tell it when he asks where daddy is?" I say the odd tear falling out of my eye. Christine sighs and squeezes my hands. "You tell him the truth Nicki. That their daddy was a brave man and died trying to save somebody else. Tell him that although their daddy may never of met him he loved them so much and was proud of everything he does with his life." Christine said having to stop herself from crying. This women in front of her had tough times a head but if anybody could manage it she could she thought to herself. I release myself from her hands and run mine over my face. "Your right Christine thank you." I smile Christine gets to her feet and sits back at her desk. "So you think it's a boy then?" She asked me smiling slightly. I smile and look down at my stomach. "I dunno it's just a feeling I guess." Shrugging my shoulders not really knowing why I had reffered to the baby as him. Just then I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket. I fish it out to check the caller to see if it was any one important. I really was not in the mood for talking to anyone right now. I looked down at the screen and feel my heart sink into my stomach as I swipe the screen to answer. "Josh.."
I'm still not mad about this chapter but as this is the 4th rewrite I think it is as good as it is going too get. Next part is shorter and is hopefully going to be up soon. Pleas leave me a review as I would love to hear what you think about the story so far (the good and the bad!). I don't know how far I am going to go with this story as it depends on how many of you are actually reading and enjoying but i will continue to write until you get bored! :)
