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He knew he shouldn't do it. He felt it in his bone marrow, but something drew him, he simply couldn't resist. She called to him, crawled beneath his skin, even when he was across the city. He slashed his sword down and the demon beneath it died with a hiss. He wiped the blade and put it back before doing just what he knew not to do, he headed home to Clary.

He knew she should be just about asleep at this time of night, Supressio demons slept during the daytime and dawn was coming in a few hours. He'd tried to keep away from her but it was impossible. She was tied to something deep inside him and he couldn't stay away from her. Not being with her was like cutting off a limb, it might be gone but you could still feel it.

He pushed the door open on the infirmary, making sure it didn't creak as it slid open. The light in the room was dim but he had no trouble making out the small form lying curled on the bed. He came closer and walked silently toward her. He noted that her hair, which last night had still had a lot of red, was now almost entirely blonde. Jace knew from Isabelle that her eyes were red all the time now as the demon took over more and more.

Clary had refused to let him near her in the last few weeks and every time he'd tried she'd pushed him away. At least while she was awake. When she slipped into the deathlike trance of the demon at dawn all she did was call for him and it broke his heart. In the last week or so he'd taken to sitting beside her and holding her hand while she slept. It was the only touch he'd been allowed and it nearly broke him.

He slid into the chair beside the bed and watched her sleep. She seemed peaceful during her sleep and he wondered what she dreamed of. He hoped her dreams were better than their reality. He raked his hands through his hair and pulled, not knowing what else to do. The silent brothers had been making connections around the world but no one seemed to know how to stop this. All jace could do was sit and wait for the woman he loved to disappear and it was killing him. He knew she kept him at a distance because her demon side was becoming more demanding but he wanted to be where she was no matter what.

He stoked her fingers as she began to toss in her sleep. She moaned and his head jerked up as his name slipped past her lips. Her eyes shot open and she growled. Her eyes searched the darkness and from his chair beside her he could see the ruby color of her eyes. He held on even when her blazing eyes met his own.

"Why are you here? " she said roughly "I told you to stay away." Her voice cut through him like a knife through butter and for a moment her guttural tone gave him pause. She pulled at her hand but he held fast even when it felt like his wrist was going to snap with the effort. "let go of my hand."

"No" he said simply. His mouth broke into a wide smile even though he knew she was probably picturing ripping his hand off to get free. "I'm not going to let you push me away anymore."

"Jace" she growled again " I told you to to stay away from me, get it through your head," she punctuated each syllable with a vicious tug. " I'm not the same girl anymore" she bowed her head and closed her eyes briefly, when she opened them she looked right into his golden eyes and made sure he listened "I'm barely a girl anymore."

Jace dropped to his knees and slid across the feet separating them. He knelt beside her and wrapped his arms around her even though she stiffened up and tried to push him away. He knew she could push him away or rip him in half but wasn't and it made his heart jump with hope.

"the problem with that is that I still love you, no matter what. You are still the girl I fell in love with inside there and I refuse to let you go." He rose and slid onto the bed beside her. "I refuse to let you push me away anymore."

She stiffened and turned on him faster than he'd ever seen anyone or anything move. Her teeth drew back and her fangs slid out. Her eyes glowed red and she pulled him to her.

"This is really what you want?" she snarled in his face "You want this?"

Jace reached up and cupped her face, pushing the blondish red hair away from her skin. He pulled her closer and looked into her eyes. He leaned in and gently kissed her lips.

"I want you, however I can get you. I can't stand to be away from you anymore, If you're going to make me leave again please just kill me. It's the only way I can stand this." The sincerity in his voice reached her and she felt the tears sliding down her cheeks.

"Jace , I can't resist you anymore, I need something to hold onto, something to make me feel human. I'm losing it."

Jace wiped the tears away and kissed her again as he folded her into his arms. He breathed deeply and smelled her scent, the same as always, that of his Clary. "Then hold onto me." He said softly as he molded her to him. "I'll be whatever you need."

"But Jace, I'm so different, I don't feel like me anymore." Clary knew the desperation was clouding her voice and quite simply she found it repulsive, but she simply couldn't help it. She needed him, she needed her beacon and pushing him away was not an option.

He gently cupped her face and forced her to look at him. He stroked the nearly blonde hair back and traced her extended fangs with a smile. His touch was so gentle that it made Clary's heart race in expectation. He wrapped his beautiful pianist hands in her hair and gently pulled her to him.

"You're still you, and I love you, fangs and all." Jace whispered this a breath away from her lips a second before he took her mouth in a gentle yet urgent kiss.

Clary and Jace fell into it, their mouths greedy against each others. Clary wanted and needed him more than she ever had and she couldn't stop. She told the voice in her head to shut up when it screamed that she had to stop before she hurt him. She pulled his sweat stained jacket and t shirt off and ran her nails down his back. Jace moaned and pushed her down and she went without a thought. The demon in her wanted the passionate sex his body language gave off, yet the gently artist inside her wanted the lovemaking his eyes demanded. Clary decided to give them both what they wanted. She pulled him down on top of her and half moaned half growled when she felt his erection against her.

Jace gave a very unangelic growl and pulled her think sleep tank apart in one rip, leaving her bare to his hungry gaze. His hands traced her breasts and tiptoed down to the drawstring of her sleep pants. Clary arched her back, begging for more but his clever fingers skated teasingly over her breasts leaving her wanting. His hands trailed down and under the sleep pants and touched her where she wanted him most.

Clary arched off the bed and opened her legs in invitation. Jace smiled and stood to shuck his jeans, weapons belt and boots. He came to stand beside the bed and looked at her lying there half naked. She quickly found her Claryness surfacing as she moved to cover herself. Jace smiled and pulled her hands free so that she was revealed to him. Clary didn't say a word as shyness and the very awe at the sight of a naked Jace stunned her into silence.

"don't hide from me, you're beautiful." He traced her nipples and worshiped each one with a kiss before licking and kissing his way down to the drawstring of her pants. He took the loose end in his teeth and pulled it slowly as his eyes locked with hers. Golden eyes took in the flush on her skin and the eyes that were ruby red. They made a startling contrast to her hair, but Jace had never thought her more beautiful.

Her pants fell open and he tugged them down hooking his hands into her panties taking them down with them. Clary shivered as the cool air of the room hit her but she only had a moment to be cold because the next moment the scorching heat of Jace's body covered hers and they both moaned again at the sensation.

Jace's hands touched her and lit her already scorching blood on fire. Clary felt the demon inside roaring to get out and she started to push him off because she wasn't in control of it. Jace grabbed her hands and held them by her head smiling in amusement. Clary's eyes met his and she could see the determination and desire in his eyes.

"Clary I can't wait anymore, I need to be inside you, right now." His breath whispered beside her ear tickling the inner shell of her ear drum. " It's probably going to be fast and a little rough, " he paused and enjoyed the tightening of her body " but I simply can't help it."

"Now " Clary commanded in a voice she barely recognized as her own. "Right now." She tried to pull her hands free to pull him inside her but Jace tisked softly and transferred his hold to one hand. She tried again, but not too much because something inside her liked being held down.

Jace pulled her legs open and stroked her already pliant body making her moan and buck against him . He let go of her hands and sat on his knees on the bed. He gripped her arms hard and pulled her up and astride him, joining them so fast it made her head spin. He pushed inside her with the exquisite skill of a master and he felt like coming home. He gave her a moment to adjust to his size then began to move. Clary gripped him with willowy arms and legs and held on tightly moving with him in perfect synch. Clary raked his back with her nails lightly as the tempo increased and she felt him bite her neck gently. They both tightened as their sweat covered bodies' neared climax. Clary began to scream but Jace swallowed the sound as they both climaxed together. Jace kept moving long after he was finished and Clary found herself climaxing again.

They fell exhausted onto the bed and slowly untangled themselves. They laid there together, letting the sounds of the city mingle with their harsh breathing for what felt like forever. Jace traced her arm and stroked her side smiling when she actually laughed.

"I didn't hurt you did I"? he asked softly as he rubbed her arm where he could already see bruises forming. He frowned and traced each march gently.

"No" clary said with a smile "I loved it."

"And I love you. Jace said softly as he leaned down and kissed each mark softly whispering against her skin. His kisses where the faintest whisper and Clary found herself burning again.

"maybe you shouldn't do that." She said breathlessly as his lips ran over her "You know I can't resist you."

"So don't," he whispered from somewhere around her navel "we have plenty of time till dawn." He continued to kiss down her stomach and showed her again and again what he couldn't resist.