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Chapter 8: Bad Blood
The whole conversation that transpired between the Cullen's and the pack had momentarily disappeared as I watched the greens and browns blur together. As if for just a moment the world was beautiful again and we didn't have to worry about the monsters of our nightmares. But as soon as the blur of brown and green became sold again, the threat trying to consume us was back In focus.
Jacobs's body was still shaking when he reappeared in front of me his fists clenched to his sides.
"Jacob, please...Talk to me" I said as I stepped in front of him trying to make his eyes meet mine
"Bella—just don't "
"NO! I'm done letting you be there for me every step of the way, when you don't even let me help you try to crawl. I'm not the broken girl from the woods anymore Jake. You made me better and I'm going to be here for you and you're going to talk, if you feel like it or not" I replied anger running threw my core.
"It's just that I don't trust them Bella! any of them, even Alice everyone was getting a weird feeling that they weren't telling us everything that we needed to know but we can't figure out what it is exactly and not one of us want to go into this fight blind Bella"
Jake looked into my eyes as he said my name, showing me all of the emotions that he was too scared to face on his own. Something we both knew about to well.
"I—I don't trust them either, but what else are we going to do Jake, if they don't want to tell us, were not going to know. All we can do is prepare for the worst and be there for each other" I grabbed his hand silently telling him that it would be alright.
Walking into the tiny red house my heart was heavy and my legs were weak, Jacob picked me up and I cuddled myself into his warm embrace as I listened to his beating heart as we walked to his room.
I knew the nightmares would come, but still tonight I hoped they wouldn't.
When morning came Jacob was gone, and the sound of voices filled the hall way on the other side of the wooden door.
Pulling my shirt over my head and sliding on a pair of Jacobs sweats I tiptoed over to the door trying to be as quiets as possible, even knowing that a pack member would have no problem hearing me at all.
Jacob and Sam's voices seemed to be the most prominent, opening the door the sound of groaning wood made their heads turn. A small smile was on Jacobs's voice as his eyes took me in.
"Hey guys, anyone want coffee? I asked as I walked into the small kitchen, opening the cabinet and pulling out four mugs, knowing the question that I had asked was unneeded but doing it out of habit.
Sam automatically replied followed by Jared and Paul I silently made their coffee as they talked strategy and patrol times. When I was finished I joined the rest of the pack in the conversation, listening to Jacob and Sam talk back and forth barely finishing their sentences before interrupting each other.
I could tell that each pack member was bursting at the seams for their turn to speak, but they waited patiently for their alpha and future leader to finish talking first. When they both finally stopped to take a breath I raised my voice and their heads instantly turned at me, making me feel like I was in some type of interrogation room waiting to be charged with a crime I didn't commit.
"I think you guys need to spend a good chuck of your day practicing" the faces in front of me seemed to be dripping with confusion.
'well, Alice said that they were going to come when we least except it, which means most likely that they're going to strike when your distracted with something more important than running patrol"
"What could possibly distract us Bella?" Paul asked cockily
"Me" I answered whole heartedly
"Think about it, they already know that your fast and strong, but they also know that you have a weakness, me"
"Bella your no-"
"No Jake I am, I'm unable to defend myself ,if one them were to get past you and find me, that's all you would be thinking about, you would no longer be thinking about your pack or the other lives that were in danger and you know that. That's why I should be there when it happens"
voices of the pack rang out in protest
"Hear me out!" I yelled
"Hear you out are you suicidal"
"or stupid"
"or both"
"guys I get it, but If I was there, you would know where I was the whole time there would be no worrying about if I was safe or not. I don't even need to be on the front lines, but close enough that if something was to happen someone could get to me, and that would keep them away from the reservation and the other imprints."
Many different emotions could be seen on the faces that were in the room, some were scared, come were hopeful and others were just empty and I think those were the scariest of them all.
The first one to speak was Jacob
"I don't like it Bella, not at all but it is a good plan" he said reluctantly
The others agreed with silent nods of approval
"I believe that it would work best if Seth was the one to watch you, he is young and none of us are really okay with him being in this fight, along with Colin and Bradley. They will be a little further ahead of where ever you and Seth are stationed. To give you extra warning to run if needed. If everyone else is okay with it then I am"
Words of approval were heard from most of the pack, besides Seth, Colin and Bradley that felt it was unfair to be pulled out of the action.
But the rest of the night went surprisingly smooth, or as smooth as it can go when one feels that the end of their idea of a world is about to end. Most of the pack stayed for dinner, besides Jared and Sam, who were feeling the need to be close to their imprints.
Jacob and I cleaned up when everyone left, working in a cold silence, both of us with too many words to say, but no way to say them. Standing behind me he wrapped his arms across my chest, and brought us to the cold wood floor. He pulled me into his embrace and I felt his hot tears hit the back of my neck.
Neither of us said a word, because we both knew what was being said.
Both of us were afraid
And both of us couldn't even handle the thought of losing the other.
We sat there and just cried silent tears that spoke the words we couldn't.
Today we just enjoyed each other's embrace.
Because we had no idea if it would be here tomorrow.
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