Warning: Cussing, OOC, human name and AU

Summary: Loving someone might be slightly harder than he thought...


-A thousand cranes-

You were always alone and I can't help but noticed it.

Those smiles that you gave the nurses, the doctors...those 'I feel great' with a laugh...were all lies. I could saw right through you...It frustrated me.

The day I met you wasn't a happy one...my bruder was in a car accident and was in a critical condition...he was the only one I have...I would have bread down back then if you weren't there for me.

Such kindness and honest smiles...you cheered me up, yet why don't I see that anymore?

I found out you were very weak since the day you were born...you would stay in hospital for a long time and made no improvement.

I came to see you one day and found you sobbing in your hands...you know crying alone is really sad.

I only hugged you, forgive me because I didn't know what else to do... I came to see you everyday after that.

You showed me your favorite book and smiled widely when talking about the 'miracle' the book mentioned. 'A thousand cranes' was it?

'If you can make a thousand cranes, you will be grant one wish' You said, eyes shimmering with hope.

I bought papers for you and we started to make these origami cranes.

You didn't fake your smile again...I was happy, really...but that didn't last for very long.

You called me one day 'Let's go out, I got the doctor's permission...I want to show you something'

We met outside the hospital. Your pale face flushed because of the cold. You wore a big scarf and coat but they weren't enough to blocked out the chilling air. I didn't know why but suddenly you look so vulnerable in my eyes... I started to feel fear.

You smiled happily as I came up to you, you wrapped your arm around me and said 'I made it.'

'What?' I buried my face in your shoulder and held you tightly.

'The thousandths crane' I looked up to you.

I didn't ask if you got your wish or not, because we both knew the answer right?

It was just an illusion that we were drowned in.

Yet I wanted to believe in that miracle, perhaps then... there will be"us".

You smiled and took my hand, leading us to... 'This is where my mom was buried'

Eh?

'You know I would love to be next to her when I die'

'Why would you say that?' I grasped your hand tightly.

'Just in case' Don't say that please... you will get better …

'YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DIE!' ….I didn't know why I started to scream... the tear just won't stop.

'Of course I'm not going to die, silly' You smiled again. That goddamn smile...liar...Why do you keep lying to me?!

'You know, my wish was granted a long time ago.'...What?

You smiled sheepishly… 'I wanted to have someone to love.'

'And the person that god sent to me was you.'

Such a dork...'How can you say those cheesy thing without blushing idiot...' My dork.

'I love you Gilbert... a lot' I didn't even get a chance to reply before you kissed me...

Your lips were cold, tasted like nothing... it was strange and I wanted more.

'WHAT?' A day later, I raced to the hospital after got a call from your doctor. Your condition got worse, he said.

The snow got thicker and disrupted traffic...Waiting in my car, I could do nothing to stop the weight pulling my heart down.

'IVAN!' I busted in the room, you greeted me with that fake smile again

'Hi, how are you?'

'How are you my ass? If you weren't feeling well why didn't you tell me yesterday?... We would have return sooner...the cold must have got to you somehow' He only motioned me to come.

'I'm okay really, the doctor just exaggerated stuff...and I didn't really want to come back here.'

I took a seat with a sigh...You took my hands and kissed it gently...you said something, but I was lost in your eyes to be able to hear it properly... then we kissed again.

Then you left me a few days later... We lost to fate, ja?...

I didn't cry...I didn't know how to react...

That was just until I saw your picture engraved on the tombstone that the fact finally got in my head.

You were dead.

You didn't even let me say it. Did you not want to hear it? Or did you not want me to?

Maybe you knew that I won't be able to let you go when those words are spoken?

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

But no matter how much I said them, it was too late. You can't hear me now...

I loved you.


Hope you like it.

I like the idea of Ivan dying lol I seriously don't know why

angsty? Nah it wasn't that sad.

:3 Thanks for reading.

-Mii