Cursed

Well the last chapter went really well! I liked it and that's saying a lot! I usually don't think my readers like my stories. But even still I shall keep posting till the end of the story or till the day I die! For once though I am really enjoying typing this fanfic cause it gives me something do when my partner on Strawberry Gashes is busy with her parts and I am gushing with ideas for this wonderful fanfic ^_^!

Song for the chapter is called Deep Within by Ferexes on youtube (watch?v=LxM5-hvtnBg) hope you all enjoy. Also if any of you are confused from these last four chapters feel free to ask next chapter I will be doing a little Q&A before the actual chapter cause I know I have some confusing parts here and there.

So here is just a little filler like chapter for everyone to enjoy. It still holds importance though.

**Warning There is a Lemon in this chapter**


I was so happy for no apparent reason actually, well there was a reason. A month has passed since my identity crisis and I was finally back to my complete normal self. It was Road's birthday and here I was trying to be as quiet as possible to make her breakfast. It was way before dawn and I still don't know how I had managed to slip out of Tyki's grasp by using only a pillow. It's an old trick, but still he is a very light sleeper now, because I am always trying to sneak out! Well, other than that Road and the other Noah family members will be waking up soon at sunrise to start preparing for the day. At the moment it was 2am so I still had quite a few hours to get this meal made for my favorite person in the whole world! There was only one problem though and that was, I loved food and all but…I had no idea how to cook. I knew I was going to need to learn one day so I guess this could be my crash course! Sneaking into the kitchen quietly I flipped the light switch on and if they could my eyes would be sparkling with excitement as I ran about the room gathering everything I would need to make breakfast.

I began to mix the ingredients for pancakes in the mixing bowl following the recipe in the cook book. I was lost within my own little world thinking about things that transpired a month ago. How fast it went from being a lost little orphan boy to a boy with a family. I was allowed to keep my name Allen since it would be easy since everyone and their mother called me that, even the Earl and Lulu Bell thought it'd just be easier. I turned to the stove where you were supposed to cook the pancakes on and just stared at it. Now how do you turn this on, I wandered to myself. Shrugging I pulled out a flat pan out and using a butter stick to lather the bottom of the pan before putting the batter on the pan in little round circles. After I was complete with that I went over and set the oven to 400 degrees before leaning back and waiting for it to heat up.

"Maybe I could stick the pot of coffee in with it and it will keep it heated up." I muttered to myself yawning and stretching a bit as the oven dinged signaling that it was heated up. Grabbing another pan I set the coffee pot onto it before sticking the pan of pancakes on the middle rack and the pot of coffee on the bottom rack. After closing the oven door I headed out and sat at the dining room table at my chair near the head of the table messing around with the Earls chess board playing a one sided game. I looked up to the clock on the wall and noticed that the Earl would be waking up here soon, I decided to take a nap until my timer would go off. The nap didn't last long. The first thing was the smell of something burning before the loud resounding boom that sent me jumping four feet into the air. Something from the kitchen cam flying out and crashed into the wall across from me; I gulped seeing that the oven had been meters from hitting me. Not even moments later everyone ran in, Mama Lulu Bell was first over to me examining me completely to make sure I was unharmed.

"You tried to cook didn't you?" Cross asked and I found myself looking to the floor and I hid the wince that I wanted to let out when I heard him sigh heavily.

"I just wanted to do something for Road since it's her birthday. I thought I could accomplish it." I said rubbing my arm trying not to feel horrible. I scrunched up my nose when my Shishou ruffled my hair.

"Come on you deranged twins we have clean up duty while Road and Allen go out to go get breakfast from town." Cross said grabbing Jasdero and Devit and dragged them into the probably now destroyed kitchen.

"Come on Allen." Road smiled hugging onto my arm and dragged me off, not before Tyki and I shared a quick kiss before I was ultimately dragged off.

"You know Allen you didn't have to do anything for me. A happy birthday would have brought a smile to my face." She said as we walked through one of her doors.

"I know but you and everyone has done so much for me and I just want to do something for everyone. Mostly for you, you've been helping me since before that horrible night." I said looking up at the sky seeing that the sun was beginning to come up.

"I had a feeling you'd say something like that. Still next time ask Tyki for help, he is a great cook….Not that he'd ever admit that or tell you. He's as self-conscious about things as you are. Ask him to cook for you one day, you'll regret it if you never do." Road smiled the two of us jogging across the street leaning our elbows onto the railing of the bridge watching the sun slowly rise into the air.

"So how much of your past do you remember, if you don't mind me asking that is?" Road was first to break the silence, the inevitable question I knew everyone was dying to ask me.

"I know my real name is Kokoro. I was born into a family of Noahs' and not only that I was born with innocence in my heart then later on when I was three the innocence in my arm had appeared. It was then that the villagers from the town 2 miles from our forest home began calling our family Witches and would always try to hurt Mama or me. They never tried to hurt Papa, because he was a powerful man. They learned that quickly after they were caught hurting Mama." I explained like I was reading from a book. It had happened so long ago and I hadn't had these memories for so long that they no longer bothered me.

"But why did they continue to harm you?" Road asked leaning her head against my shoulder and I could only sigh.

"That place was first of where I was continuously called the demon child sent from the devil himself. It was the curse bestowed upon my mother for doing witchcraft. We all know that, that accusation is full of horse shit." I hissed out taking deep breaths to keep my anger in check.

"I never told Mama and Papa, and to this day I don't believe they know. The villagers were always careful never to really leave extensive marks that would suggest foul play and well…I just kept my mouth shut about it. Then the day the villagers set our house on fire with me inside, after Papa saved me I guess he chose at that moment it was best I was sent away for my protection. I don't believe anyone ever suspected I'd be in more danger than what was anticipated." I finished intertwining my fingers together feeling that sad smile grace my lips. I slid my eyes closed when Road wrapped her arms protectively around me.

"Have you told Tyki?" She asked and I nodded my head.

"I tell him everything Road, I keep no secrets from him." I added and I heard her sigh as she released her hold and stepped back.

"Confide in your parents, especially since it's been since you were 8 when you last saw them. Lord Millennie is the one most worried about you. Lulu Bell worries for you to but, she knows you have Tyki there for you all the time now. I just think you should talk to them about these things so you can start a bond that was never fully formed." Road explained giving me one of her small smiles, her head tilting to the left.

"Yea...I think I will." I smiled back before stepping towards her the both of us linking hands and heading down the street towards where the cafe was so we could get everyone breakfast. I stood waiting outside as Road ordered the food for everyone. I thought back to what she had told me, talk to Adam and Lulu Bell, I love the both of them but for some reason I felt afraid to speak to them. It has been so long since the three of us had seen one another. I guess in a sense I was afraid to bring up anything that had happened in the past, unsure of what they would think for me asking. I stood here my back leaned against the wall staring at my feet in deep thought.

"Allen?" I jumped at the voice and spun to my left seeing Lenalee standing there with a sad look upon her face and her hands linked behind her back. I slowly began to get ready to run or even fight if I had to.

"Please...don't run! I'm here alone for the time being, I saw you and Road walking down the road and I split off from Miranda and Krory. They'll be meeting me back at our hotel." She hurriedly said stepping back away from me raising her hands up trying to prove that she was in no way a threat to me.

"What do you want? If it's to convince me to return I won't do it!" I snapped and I watched as she winced from the tone of voice I had used. "I'm sorry Lenalee I didn't mean for it to come out so..."

"No you have a right to be angry with us to hate us. I just want to know the truth. I want to know what Kanda did to you the night you were revealed to be a traitor." She asked dropping her arms to next to her sides. I looked away from her and stared into the cafe where Road was giving me a quizzical look before sighing and giving Lenalee a sad smile.

"Lenalee...You may not believe me, but the night that I went to Tyki was the night Kanda had raped me from not choosing him." I smiled sadly looking down at my feet again crossing my left arm across my stomach and grabbing onto my right arm.

"Allen, I'm so...I'm so sorry!" She said her hands darting up to her mouth as I watched her eyes begin to tremble and shack as I knew tears were threatening to fall.

"Don't be Lenalee...you didn't know. No one knew and Kanda will just deny everything!" I said trying to keep me anger in check, trying to keep my emotions all together in check because if I didn't then Tyki would sense it and come to me to see why.

"The sad part Allen is that everyone would believe him over you despite everything you have done for us. I want you to know that Lavi and I are on your side, I'm going to be transferring to the Asian branch soon and working under Bak. My brother surprisingly approved, but it's because he knows I can no longer fully trust everything that is going on around at the Black Order. I want you to remember that if you ever need help hiding, call on me. You and Tyki both and this is from Bak and I both." Lenalee explained walking completely over to me before wrapping her arms around me. I felt my eyes widening before they softened and slid closed and I slid my arms around her as well.

"You will always be my best friend Lenalee, never forget that. If you ever need me or if you need help from the Noah's just call out for me in your mind and I'll be there for you. Tell that to everyone who is still on my side." I smiled as we stepped away from one another.

"I'll tell them, I wish for Tyki and you to forever have love and happiness in your lives." She said one last time before turning and jumping off using her Black Boots Innocense.

"Well her words were comforting for sure." Road said walking out holding up a bag of food to me which I took so she wasn't carrying everything.

"I agree...I always knew she was one of the many pure hearted ones." I said and the two of us headed back to the Ark door where we entered hearing yelling from the dinning area.

"Really? This early in the morning?" I muttered as we walked into the room to see Cross and the two Noah twins arguing.

"Don't ask, they've been annoying since the two of you left!" Sherryl said taking one of the bags from me before walking with Road and began taking things out setting them out. I stood there with a smile on my face shacking my head as I watched the three begin to wrestle in the back corner of the dinning room. Letting my sigh out I walked over to the three.

"Hey! If you three idiots haven't noticed but Road and I are back with food so could you three pause for a bit so we can have a nice family meal without any drama?!" I asked standing there with my hands on my hips still smiling.

"What's got you smiling Allen?" Jasdero asked with an arched eye brow which caused Devit to arch his eyebrow to. Cross just starred at me expectantly.

"Well I just found out I still have friends who support me and my decision in the Black Order. Also that if anything were to happen Tyki and I can call on Lenalee for help." I said matter of factly before turning around to walk to my seat only to crash into a hard chest and arms snake around me. I instantly knew who it was.

"Tyki! You're squashing my nose!" I whined my voice sounding weird.

"Who cares I want to hug you!" He chuckled and I only laughed with him as I wrapped my own arms around him, turning my head so I could breath.

"I'm glad that your mind is beginning to find peace again Allen." He whispered and I looked up at him.

"It's because I have you and my whole family by my side. Also after breakfast go ahead without me to our room I wanna stay and talk with Mama Lulu Bell and Papa Adam." I said and he only smiled before leaning forward and kissing my forehead.

"Do what you have to do Allen. Family comes first." He said before leading me over to our chairs where our food was.

"So I hear you had a run in with an old friend of yours." Adam said once he had sat down Lulu Bell on his other side.

"Yea, I was scared at first that there would be a fight, but a lot of people hate Kanda for what happened. I'm just glad I have friends and I'm also glad I know I can look to people if I ever need a place to hide." I explained taking a bite of the fruit salad I had Road order for me. Tyki was eating a chive and tomato egg white omelet.

"Hey Tyki, does egg whites taste any different from egg yellow?" I asked after I was half way through my large bowl of fruit, which was large enough to feed everyone in the room plus more.

"Sort of, but all in all it tastes like egg. Don't know how else to explain it to you really." He explained after giving it some thought, Jasdero and Devit let out a snort and I could only narrow my eyes at them.

"What kind of question was that Allen?!" They both laughed and I only puffed out my cheeks.

"What?! I was curious, you can't blame anyone from being curious about something so harmless." I sort of snapped and they only laughed more. I rolled my eyes and tried to dismiss their antics and go back to eating my breakfast normally. I caught Road looking to me and she looked away when she noticed I saw her. I found myself only able to pick at my food after a while, everyone was already back to conversing with one another. It seemed as if I was the only one really affected. I felt a hand lightly rest onto my shoulder and I looked up to see Lulu Bell standing there.

"Come on, seems like you and I are both done with eating out meals." She smiled and I smiled back before standing from my chair and following her out of the dining room and to her room.

"Don't pay Jasdero and Devit and mind Allen, they're only teasing you and you know it." She said after sitting onto her bed. She patted to the spot in front of her motioning for me to sit across from her, which I did.

"You seem to have a lot on your mind Allen. Is there anything you want to talk about? Anything you wish to ask Adam or I?" She asked sitting with her legs crossed and her hands lightly rested in her lap.

"There are lots of things I want to talk about and to ask...but...but I don't know where to begin mom." I said also sitting with my legs crossed with my hands in my lap as well. So many things were rushing through my head once more and I could feel Red becoming restless...becoming anxious.

"Allen, never be afraid to talk to us. We know there are a lot of hateful questions in your mind and we have mentally prepared ourselves for a long time for them. All you need to do is ask." She answered and I felt my anxiety diminish a bit now.

"I know papa and you suppressed my memories in hopes to protect me. But why give me up? Why didn't you guys just take me with you? Do the Noah's really hate innocence that much?" I asked feeling tears stinging at my eyes as I felt the first droplets fall from them. I watched Lulu Bell sit up onto her knees before leaning forward and wrapping her arms around my shoulders.

"Your father and I were new at raising children and we thought that giving you up was for the best. If either of us had known of the danger you would have been in, we would never have given you up Allen. Mark my words...that was the hardest thing I had ever down and the saddest morning of my life. I never wanted to let you go, because my parents had done the same to me. I wanted to keep you...I wanted to raise you...and so did Adam. He loves you very much Allen...we all love you very much." I couldn't help but let the tears begin to flow more after her words hit me. I felt even Red become very emotional as I wrapped my arms around Lulu Bell clutching onto her.

"For so long I wanted to understand but no one could ever give me any kind of explanation. I even went back to the orphanage I had been left at and still nothing! I wanted so much to find you and papa, but never did. I truly thought I was abandoned and unwanted." I cried I felt another hand on my back beginning to rub up and down it. I knew it was Adam immediately, the gesture was so warm and comforting.

"What your mother says is the truth. We all love you very much and want nothing but to protect you. And I believe that's what makes you the heart, you're so loving and understanding and all we wish to do is to protect your warmth, your light. Anything or anyone who threatens that light shall perish in the most painful way. This I swear to you Allen." Adam said sitting on the edge of the bed as my mother sat back and I saw that both of us had been crying.

"I'm the luckiest boy alive to have parents like you." I smiled and they smiled back.

"Yes you are lucky, but we are the most lucky ones to have the chance to have you back and to get a second chance at taking care of you." Adam explained setting his hand to on top of my head and ruffling my hair.

"And like Tyki and Road tell you, never be afraid to come to us. We are always here to listen, no matter how dumb or trivial it may be." He said and I only nodded my head. The three of us sat there for the majority of the day talking about everything in our lives that we had missed. Once more I felt a weight lifted from my shoulders as I left the room. The sun was beginning to set and today everyone was on their own for dinner today.


Walking back into Tyki's room I noticed that the door to the bathroom was slightly open and steam was coming from it. Smiling to myself I tiptoed over and peered into the room to see he had just turned the water on, Tyki was still dressed.

"You don't have to stand in the doorway you know Allen." He said in that silky voice of his and I couldn't help the shudder that ran up my spine, after I slipped into the room and shut the door, making sure it was also locked just in case Jasdero and Devit decided to make their annoying presence once more. Walking over to Tyki I felt his hands slightly slip under my shirt and glide along the skin of my waist until his arms were loosely wrapped around me.

"I can't hold back anymore Allen." He whispered leaning forward and pressing his lips to my forehead.

"Then don't, because I don't think I can either Tyki." I breathed out my hands slowly running up his clothed chest until they loosely linked behind his neck, our lips met in a heated kissing. Lips parting, and our tongues battling for dominance, which he won in. Our breathing so heavy you would have thought we just ran a marathon. Tyki raised his left hand until gently rested onto my right cheek while his right hands fingertips glided down the left side of my jaw, down my neck and began down my chest but stopped at the rose ring. His fingertips lightly touched and I felt both of our bodies twitch from the electricity that coursed from it, signaling the bond each of us shared.

"Together forever..." Her whispered as his right arm snaked around my waist pulling me closer to him his left hand maneuvering my face to look more up at him. Our lips still hovered only inches away and I felt the breath of his words dance over me.

"Yes...together forever Tyki." I breathed out and our lips were upon each others once more. I don't remember our feet moving until I felt gentle hot water cascading around us soaking our clothes as I was pressed against the shower wall. Both his hands now upon my cheeks as he deepened the kiss even more. I tangled my fingers into his dark wavy hair feeling him press more against me running his tongue along my bottom lip begging for entrance. I parted my lips just enough for him to slip inside and I let out a tiny moan in pleasure feeling my knees becoming week. Tyki's hands instantly left my cheeks and lowered to behind my knees lifting me off of the floor making my legs wrap around him. He then slipped his hands under my black cotton shirt before slowly lifting it up over my head as I fumbled with the buttons of his white shirt both of us discarding the shirts somewhere along the shower floor.

"Oh god Tyki I want you so bad." I moaned out as his mouth attacked my neck and he began to fumble with the buttons of my pants allowing my legs to slowly drop back to the floor. My own hands fumbled with the buttons of his pants as well my mind in a haze that I couldn't fully concentrate. Tyki captured my lips with his own as I felt my pants and boxers fall down my legs and his hands guided my own with removing the rest of of his clothes..

"Moan my name again Allen." He whispered in my ear his hand running ever so slightly over my hardening length and I let out a small gasp.

"Tyki...please..." I begged throwing my head back when his mouth kissed the skin between my neck and shoulder his tongue swirling around in circles along the skin. Then he began to kiss down my chest leaving small nips along the way. I leaned my head back against the shower wall my eyes half lidded as I starred blurrily up at the ceiling. I let out a gasped moan when his mouth suddenly took me completely in and he ran his tongue up the entire shaft.

"Oh...god Tyki!" I moaned out biting my lip as he ran his tongue back down the shaft of my full length. I felt his lips begin to move up and down my length as he also began to suck his tongue swirling around me. I slowly began to feel a building pressure as he continued to bob his head up. Suddenly he just stopped and was instantly back at kissing and sucking on my neck has hand lifting me off of the ground making my legs wrap around his waist.

"Tyki please...please take me." I begged and he froze before gently kissing my lips.

"It will hurt a little." He whispered his hands resting on each of my butt cheeks.

"I know it will, but I also know that this isn't going to be like the other times. I want this and I know you're not going to hurt me like that damned person." I whisper back cupping each of his cheeks before leaning forward and kissing. I felt myself twitch when one of his fingers slipped inside of me moving it slowly in and out of me a few times before adding a second finger and making scissoring motions spreading me some then finally adding a third finger causing me to moan more as he spread me even further.

"I love you Allen." He whispered into my ear as he fingers pulled out of me and he slowly pushed himself inside of me. I threw my head back and let out a pleasured scream my hands grabbing onto his shoulders. He began to slowly move in and out of me and I let out moans each time he thrusted back into me. Tyki's mouth was once again latched onto my neck sucking on the skin. I felt my hips trying to move with his thrusts but with me propped up against the wall it was hard.

"I never want to loose you Allen. I want you to be forever by my side." He panted his forehead now resting against my own. I could only smiled wrapping my arms around his neck before maneuvering my lips to his lightly kissing him. He kissed me back and we stayed that way as he thrusted into me one of his hands sliding down my chest to my hardened length and began to pump it.

"Oh god Tyki please!" I begged after pulling away from the kiss, he only kissed me harder this time. My eyes widened and I let out another pleasured scream when the hand on my hardened length phased through my skin sending even more waves of pleasure through me, his thrusts speeding up.

"Scream my name Allen, for me." He whispered by my ear his teeth gently taking the skin of my ear lobe between them as he teased me. My head was thrown back and I could feel both him and my self building up, Tyki coming to the final thrusts.

"TYKI!" I screamed out I felt myself come and he come inside of me. Tyki kissed my cheek before lightly kissing me on the lips pulling me from the wall and walking directly to under the water.

Once I was able to stand Tyki set me on the floor the both of us washing each other as we had a soap fight in the shower. We soon climbed out and Tyki wrapped a large fluffy white towel around me completely he himself already having one wrapped around his waist. He stood there behind me with his arms wrapped around me.

"You have no idea how long I have been waiting to do that." He said lifting me up bridal style into his arms carrying me into the main part of our room.

"I think I have a feeling Tyki, you and I have been waiting for as long as the other." I teased leaning forward kissing the tip of his nose as my arms wrapped around his neck and he laid us both onto the bed.

"From this day forward we will fight for one another side by side. Starting tomorrow Cross and the rest of us will begin your training. I will ensure that if ever comes a time and we're separated you'll be able to hold your own." He said and I smiled before snuggling into him. That night the both of us fell asleep without dinner, but neither of us was hungry and that suited me fine. I was just happy that I was beginning to have a normal life.


Well there you have it chapter 11 is finally out! YAY! Sorry about the long ass wait, I was dealing with some really personal issues and it had me away from the computer for a very long time and I apologize. So yea I hope you enjoyed reading this like I enjoyed typing it up for you guys.