Bella's POV

"You're distant," Makka said, coming up behind me.

"Am I?" I asked, knowing it was true.

"Yes, I can feel your shield. Usually you take a little while to get used to me and then you drop it, but not this time. What's going on?"

"I've just got a lot on my mind, too much."

"You don't need to tell me that, baby."

"Makka, don't," I said as I felt hands roaming over my body, I couldn't do this, not again.

"I know you want it, I know you want me."

"Mackenzie, I said no," I said forcefully and she stopped touching me.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" she asked. "You come all this way to see me and we have a great time last night, but now… you're just not there. What happened? Are you having prophetic dreams again?"

I shook my head, even if I was I wouldn't tell her. I didn't trust her that much. There was a time that I did, but not anymore.

"Then what? You can't just use me, B."

"I don't know what the fuck I want," I breathed out.

"Well you better figure it out soon because you of all people know that I won't stand for this bullshit."

I turned to look at her. She was right, as always.

My phone rang and I pulled it from my pocket.

"Don't," Makka said, putting her hand on my own.

I looked at her, pleaded her not to do this right now.

"I have to," I told her, "it could be important."

I kept staring at her and she backed down. I answered the call, my shield firmly in place, so that Makka wouldn't be able to hear a word.

"What?" I asked.

"We have a tip on the Bringer of Darkness," Marcus said, "do you want it or would you rather work this all alone?"

"What tip?" I asked sighing, looking at Makka, she looked so dejected and I hated that I had made her feel like that.

"He's been spotted in Oregon, we have an address, but he won't be there for long. Do you want it or not?"

I looked at Makka again. Maybe I should be wise and just let her go. All she ever was to me was a good time, I never had any real feelings for her, and she felt the same, in the beginning, now I wasn't sure. I think she had fallen for me and I couldn't have that.

"Text me the location," I told Marcus before disconnecting the call.

I pulled back my shield and Makka looked at me expectantly.

"Well?" she asked when I didn't speak.

"I have to go," I told her and her anger rose.

"This is it," she told me seriously. "You leave me and this is it. No more booty calls, no more phone calls, nothing. Do you understand that?"

"Yes."

"Well?" she asked.

I was so close, closer than I had ever allowed myself to be to the Bringer of Darkness. I knew where he was and all I had to do was reach out and grab him. It would be so simple, so why was I still afraid?

"I need to go," I said strongly and her face fell.

"Then go," she said, turning her back from me, "and don't you ever come back."

I left and the further I got the more I felt like this wasn't a mistake. I had been using her as a distraction for too long. I would miss her, but not for long. I looked at the co-ordinates Marcus had given me and set off. The Bringer of Darkness was so close and I vowed that this time I would get closer to him than I ever had before. I would allow him to know I was nearby. I would bravely drop my shield and let him feel my emotions. I'd let him feel everything.

I arrived in time to see him tormenting an old lady. I wondered if he would he ever grow and give up his childish ways. I dropped my shield and he stopped, his head shooting up. Oh yeah he could definitely feel me and now it was time for him to feel how I really felt about him. I got the emotion ready to push towards him, making sure it was just right and then when I was ready I started to push it out, but the stupid fucker didn't even stick around long enough to get a good read on it. He ran, just like he had before, just like he always did and it pissed me off so much. I let out a warning growl. He may have avoided me for a century, but now that I had the Bringer of Darkness in my sights, Jasper in my sights, I wasn't going to stop until I caught him and finally got some answers from him. Like why the fuck he abandoned me after he realized I was his mate.