Jasper's POV
"Why did you do this now?" Peter asked me.
"Because you were drifting," I answered honestly. "I thought that maybe if you had your mate, and one I didn't mind, then you would stay with me."
After seeing Bella I tried to survive, but I was doing a fucked up job at it. Using Jane and her gift was proof of this. I needed Peter plain and simple. I don't want to lose you, Peter. I am nothing without you. I wouldn't be able to survive. I tried to send to him my thoughts, but I wasn't sure if he had Edward's gift anymore. I just wanted him to know what I couldn't admit out loud. Things were changing, I was changing and I couldn't handle it. I had been running for so long now and I wondered why... Why I denied myself? Why I had run from my mate? Why I was the way that I am? But I didn't have the answers.
"Peter?" I asked when he didn't say anything. "Aren't you happy you have your mate?"
I watched as Peter looked at Jane. I knew they were mated due to my gift. I could see another vampire's emotions and when you're with them for long enough, like I had been with Peter, then you get to know them really well and when I first met Jane, after we had connected, I could tell that she was Peter's. I didn't tell him because I was selfish. I didn't want him to have his mate when I didn't allow myself to have my own. I know how stupid that sounds now, but at the time I justified it. I didn't want to be alone when Peter had his mate. I couldn't think of anything worse. But now looking at him and Jane and seeing just how well their emotions lined up I was sorry for keeping them apart.
I know Peter didn't blame me. He didn't know his mate existed until I had told him. He thought it was Charlotte, deep down I know he did, and it haunted me for so long, but once I found his true mate I calmed down. I was happy that I hadn't killed his true mate. Jane was it for him, not Charlotte and I was so thankful for that. They would be good together. I didn't know Jane as well as I did Peter, but what I did know about her convinced me that they would be evenly matched and it would be good to watch. I was pleased that Peter would finally have his mate and a small piece of happiness and love that I could never give him.
"Peter, you need to make a choice," I said, looking at him.
He was yet to accept Jane as his mate and this was not good. I knew he thought too much, more than me and that was saying something, so I would give him some time to process this. I felt the moment he accepted Jane as his mate and it was beautiful to witness. He closed the distance between himself and his mate and ripped her clothes off. I laughed at him. We had been naked in the wars so often that it wasn't even a concern anymore. I turned from them to give them some privacy regardless.
"It's good to have you back," I said and it was true. I felt more complete when Peter was by my side. I think it's because I thought of him as my son, either way he was the only vampire I had never tired of. Garrett on the other hand I got sick of far too often. I wondered where he was. I was sure he would have retaliated by now. Ah, not to matter, my concern was on Peter and his new mater. I needed to make sure they were happy and that this relationship lasted otherwise I would undoubtedly lose Peter and I couldn't have that.
