Note: I just feel like shit now, I'm trying my hardest to make you guys happy but all I get in return is having my ideas shut down all the time, I'm sorry I'm a waste of space, I should probably stop updating this


I don't know why Virgil said those things yesterday, it really hurt my feelings, the least that guy could do is let me hang on to the last strand of hope I have left, I didn't care that I got dizzy every few seconds, I got so dizzy at one point that I lost my balance and I fell backwards, hurting my back, my head still hurts because I didn't take any painkillers, what's the point I'm not good enough anyway, I was up early today, I went downstairs to find Gordon drying his hair after his early morning swim.

"I thought I was the only one up at this time" Gordon seemed shocked because I was up early.

"Yeah well you're not now" I was still grumpy after what Virgil had said to me.

"Ok well do you want to help me make breakfast" Gordon asked.

"No I'm going back to bed since my head is pounding" I groaned.

"Ok well I'll call you down when I've finished making it" Gordon sighed.

I heard someone walking down the stairs, I looked over to see who it was.

"Oh great" I muttered, it was Virgil, he obviously hadn't applied the butt load of hair gel to his hair as he had a severe case of bed head, he looked very sleepy, I still won't forgive him for what he said to me, he did walk over to me, he was inspecting the massive cut on my head, his face was very close to mine.

"It's getting better, just has some minor bruising, keep the strips on for a couple more days and then you can take them off" Virgil smiled and he left me.

"There's your breakfast" Gordon gave Virgil a plate, it contained pancakes, dried fruit and a little bit of whipped cream.

"Thanks, I'm gonna eat it outside, the sun is out and it's nice today" how can Virgil act like nothing happened.

"What do you want on yours" Gordon asked.

"Do you have any chocolate spread" I remember eating chocolate spread on pancakes all the time.

"Yeah, just don't take a lot because it is Alan's jar" Gordon lowered his voice, he smelled strongly of chlorine.

"Okie dokie" I smiled and I reached for the top shelf of the cupboard, I fumbled around blindly until I found a jar of chocolate spread, there was a label that read: "Property of Alan Tracy" with three red exclamation points, I took two teaspoons of the chocolatey goodness out of the jar, I managed to put the jar back.

"I hope you're not eating what I think you're eating" Alan growled.

"Hey I gave her permission, she didn't take a lot anyway" Gordon tried defending me.

"That's fine then" Alan mumbled and he sat down at the table.

I didn't sit down, I leant against the countertop eating my breakfast, screw the diet, I need food to survive here, I gave my plate back to Gordon, I should probably find Virgil and apologise to him, I found him eventually, he was doing yoga, something about him doing yoga in an oversized jumper is really adorable, he still hasn't sorted his hair out.

"Hey" I tried to get his attention, when I did he completely lost his balance and he fell head first into the pool, oh no, what if he drowns, he swam back up to the surface, he looked angry, I decided that it was best if I leave.

"Olivia wait" Virgil called after me, he was leaving damp footprints as he walked.

"Why should I, you obviously want me gone, you don't even care!" I yelled at him.

"No it's not like that at all!" Virgil shouted back.

Gordon and Alan were watching our argument, Alan was holding on to his cup of coffee.

"You act like it is!" I was angry with Virgil.

"Shut up alright!" Virgil snapped.

"What you said to me last night really hurt my feelings" I stopped shouting, he had won, I had to leave this place, I don't belong here.

"Can you just forget that ever happened" Virgil sighed.

"How can I, that really hurt" I mumbled.

It still hurt, it hurt a lot.