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"Someone somewhere will know my miserable heart

It's right in front of me but I can't find it like an oriole bird

I'm flying around by myself in this darkness, in this lonely night

I'm flying around by myself in this darkness, with a miserable heart

Why don't you know? Even if I'm a small existence

Don't trample on me but go with me

Your careless words and actions break me down"

Tiger JK (ft. Jinshil) – Reset


Chapter 2 – Don't you remember my child?

SILENCE

Apart from the soft sounds of nocturnal animals, it was completely silent. No one was outside at this late hour. The moon was up high in the sky but not even a single ray of light was able to break through the thick clouds covering the sky. Although being darker than it was normal it was a quite night. The streets and grass were still wet from the hard rain earlier and big puddles were left behind by the violent storm.

It was once again shortly after midnight that Mike awoke to the cries and screams of his only daughter and like almost every night he jumped out of his own comfy bed to calm down the seventeen year-old. He did this daily but for his daughter wellbeing the brown haired man would do anything. So it wasn't much as he grew accustomed to this procedure.

Mike and his daughter had tried everything to make Elli's nightmare stop but not even the weekly therapy the teenager had to visit had great success.

It all began nearly seven and a half years ago.

Less than ten years old the young girl had to watch the murder of her mother in the middle of the night. A burglar apparently had observed the house of the small family several days to strike when he was sure that the father of the family would not come home for the night. Not expecting that the mother of the daughter could last long should she choose to fight against him he got into the house through a window. In a short unexpected battle inside the burglar shot the woman right into her heart with a gun.

Hidden green eyes of a child watched all the action through a crack in a closet which her mother shoved her in after hearing the man you broke in.

Now years later this night followed the teenager into each and every one of her dreams. Elli feared the night because she feared her dreams. As the young woman with striking green eyes had a photographic memory she could never forget this experience.

Never

Elli never had a truly happy life in the United States after this incident and as her father it hurt Mike to see her clouded eyes. Moving out of the house where Lily got killed by an bulger was a must. Back then he hoped this change would make his little angel feel a little bit better but nothing really happened. With sad eyes the single father watched his daughter forcing herself to go to school where all those cheerful teenagers were. Elli had been as good as forced to go to a place where other children and teenager still had both parents. Everywhere on the street she was watching mothers doting on their daughters and sons and it was her biggest wish: To be able to have her mother in her arms again.

But nothing could be changed.

A new woman in his life would make things worse for his fragile daughter that was something what Mike was sure of. He was by no means an ugly man and had plenty of woman showing interest but he never acted on it although he wasn't completely opposed to feel the warmth of a woman in his arms again.

Even though many years had passed Mike still loved Lily. She would always be in his heart as cheesy as it sounded.

High School was not hard for Ellie because of her photographic memory so she was able to graduate a year earlier than those her age. Even at school Ellie didn't really have friends as she was quite most of the times if a teacher didn't ask something from her. The other kids kept their distance from her. They could not understand her problems and therefore were also not able to make sense of her behaviour.

All this didn't help the young girl.

Not hesitating Mike made a decision which would bring many changes to his life.

He just did not know how many.

Sadly Elli whose full name was Elisabeth had already given up on her life. She couldn't think of living on now that she had finished school. All those years living with such a horrible memory took a toll on her mind and body. Out of love to her father Elli never hurt herself she knew he would break should she have done what she always thought about. Until now the teenager never acted upon the desire to end her life with her own hands. She was already too deep into her plan to kill herself as soon as her father was sleeping to not really register the flight to her mother's birth country.

Lily had been born in Japan but was adopted and raised in the United States. Her birth parents left her without any note or name. But Lily had always been very optimistic Mike thought and smiled as he fell asleep in a completely different country and a new home. Hopefully this change would finally make his little angel happy again. He only wished the best for her. AT the age of forty-two he never once thought that his child's only wish left was to die and follow her mother into the darkness.

At the same moment in which the seventeen year old who lost her mother while she was still a young child was trying to kill herself using a much too high dose on sleeping pills, another young woman was succumbing to the deadly darkness which would have been her end.

And it would have happened exactly like this if it wasn't for fate deciding on the one hand to give a young adult the chance of a new life and on the other hand to finally give a seventeen year old soul her piece in death.

One world was reality.

One world was fiction.

And at this very moment those two worlds briefly build a bridge between them and two hurt souls were exchanged with no way out and back.

But only one of those two young souls truly lived on.

I woke up streaming. My cheeks were wet probably from tears I thought.

Why am I screaming?

Why am I crying?

I knew that I had to calm down as fast as possible. After slowly regaining my full conscience back I noticed that something was very wrong. Someone was talking to me in a soothing tone. Even only that was very strange. Over and over again a warm hand was stroking my head. Long hair was gently taken out of my face and put aside. Who was this Man? I knew it had to be a man, because the voice was deep and the hand rough.

When I was younger I imagined a situation similar to this. I dreamed of a loving family and a father who would come to me at any hour to help should I ever have nightmares. But in reality my father never cared enough about me. I cannot remember ever crying on his chest and feeling protected with his arms pressed around my little body.

Crying had never helped me instead it made things just worse.

But precisely in this moment just that happed. But this man who so lovingly whispered soothing words in my ears could not be my father. It had to be someone else, someone unknown to me. Crying in front of a stranger and then even lying in his arms was a terrible thought to me. But my body simply did not obey me. My head screamed at me to let go and try to distance myself from a danger, to get to a safe place, but my heart that seemed rule my body at the moment apparently wanted something else.

The whispered words of my heart calmed me down and slowly my panic ebbed.

And then my heart spoke to me with such warming words:

Everything is okay my child.

Close your eyes for a moment,

and enjoy this great moment.

Do not you feel this warmth my child?

The time of solitude and loveless days are over.

Don't you recognize the changes?

Enjoy this great moment.

And feel the warmth of the strong arms that wrap around your fragile body.

It is like what you have always dreamed of.

Your childhood dream became true.

Do you no longer remember that you've always dreamed of a loving father?

Of the warmth of a parent who unconditional loves you with all his heart?

Don't you remember your dream my child?

Mike smiled down at the seventeen year old lying in his arms. Although she didn't speak he easily felt when she was slowly calming down again. He was experienced in spotting those little emotion his daughter showed. They were small and rare but he could spot them. The man was happy enough knowing that his daughter at least still felt something and wasn't just a soulless body. There was still hope left in him.

Giving up on her is something he would never be able to this. Elli was just too important in his life.

She was his anchor in this crazy world.

Years ago he made the promise to be always at her side and Mike would never ever willingly break this promise.

NEVER

I never thought any of this would be possible. As a big family fan I always dreamed myself into those fanfiction where a simple girl or boy gets throws into a world which is supposed to be fiction. I have read so many stories like these probably because I always wished them to be true. I always dreamed of leaving this reality and exchange it for an anime world.

Anime´s and manga's were my escape from this world where I never felt completely happy. I didn't belong here, at least it felt like this to me. Sadly I knew it wasn't true. After my younger sister was born I often wondered if I was adopted and as soon as I was able to I had a genetic test made in secret. Well I don't really remember what I expected but I had gotten the proof that I was not adopted. …

Although I knew what the result would be y I wasn't happy.

While the scars of my childhood weren't physical they set deep inside my heart.

Then it changed completely.

As I was slowing taking my last breaths something changed my life.

When I woke up I was screaming and crying.

Slowly I was falling asleep with warm arms still wrapped around me.

In the next hours I was watching a different life. But instead of just watching I was part of those ´memories´. I saw a woman (my mother) being killed in front of my eyes and I saw a loving man (my father) doing his best to keep me happy. Like this I lived through seventeen years of memories. And those memories were similar to my own.

My name is still Elisabeth but my daddy calls me Elli

I am seventeen years old

My birthday is still January 1st

I have a cousin named Kimberly who I can't stand

My hair is black

My eyes are green

The murder of my mother shattered my heart

It made into a shell of who I should have been

My mother was Japanese but was adopted by an American couple

My father is American

His job is very secretive

Mike is a loving father

And he still loves my dead mother

Dad always refers to me as Elli

And today we moved into a lovely house in Tokyo

My name is Elisabeth Miller and I just awoke to my father softly stroking my hair and telling me about this funny kid named Conan Edogawa he just met on his morning walk.


From now on the story will just really start. Up into now it was mostly just introduction.

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