Chapter 4
Sunday morning I woke up late again, it was 10:45 am by the time I woke up. I realized it was raining again today which was why it was so cold at the moment. I slowly got out of my blanket, unwillingly; and then stepped right onto my slippers, avoiding the cold floor. It was almost unreal how tired I still felt walking across my room, when I had slept for 8 hours.
In my bathroom, I was no faster, brushing my teeth slowly and then washing my face with luke warm water. I shuddered when the water touched my face even though it was luke warm. I debated whether to take shower right now or after my breakfast but I decided to take it right now since I knew there was no afterwards for a lazy person like me and I did not like to skip showers.
I walked to my closet and pulled out my jeans and turtle neck full sleeves, plain, leaf green T shirt. Slowly walking to the bathroom, I heard my room's door creak open so I went back to my room. "Good you are awake" Mom said with a grin when she looked at me, "Yeah, why, everything okay?" I asked, creasing my bows together. Mom put her hands on her slender waist and told me as shook her head "Your dad thought it would be a good idea to have a BBQ lunch today but of course we cannot have a BBQ in this weather, so your dad told us to get ready because we are going out for a BBQ lunch"
A smile automatically grew on my face, it had been a long while since we four had gone out for lunch or any other outing. It somehow filled me with energy the way looking at Jared's face filled me with energy.
My smile turned into a grin when I thought about Jared and passed one week! It had finally happened, Jared had finally noticed me! Oh swoon – wait did I really think 'Oh swoon'?! I am definitely going crazy.
"I will get ready quickly" I told mom and rushed to the bathroom. My speed had suddenly increased just by thinking of Jared. Though once in the shower, I zoned out for a few seconds, I started replaying the memory of Jared looking into my eyes, for the first time ever! His eyes were melting at the mere sight of me – or was it just my imagination? I shook my head and quickly took my shower, trying very hard not to think about Jared because that would mean zoning out and getting late.
I towel dried myself and my hair quickly and then got in my clothes. It was definitely cold outside, so I was going to wear my jacket as well. It was a plain black hood jacket that I wore it once I was ready. I ran downstairs to see everyone was ready and waiting for me. "I am ready" I announced entering the living room, "Let's go then" Dad said enthusiastically, and got up from the couch, followed by mom and Cami.
In another few minutes we were on road to Port Angeles for our lunch. Cami and I were in the back seat, she was talking animatedly about this short trip. She also told me how her friends went out every weekend, mom and dad were chuckling with me as we heard her rant how her friends "showed off" that they went to many places. It was really cute to see Cami huff every time she talked about something like that. It then went to how she was already loathing school! "You have to go to school for 8 more years" I laughed at her. "But it is unfair, school is so boring" Cami groaned, "If you don't go to school how will you get a job and buy a pony for yourself?" I asked her trying to sound serious, "Can't you buy me a pony Kim?" she asked targeting me with her puppy dog dance. "She cannot buy you everything hun" dad chuckled, "I guess I will have to go to school then" Cami mumbled as she crossed her tiny hands in front of her chest and looked out of the window making us all laugh.
After a few moments of silence I plugged in my earphones and started listening to songs as I looked out the window, watching the rain drops fall on the window. The music was just a background music, I was once again having my crazy fantasies. One of which was Jared kissing me in the rain and confessing his undying love for me – it was ridiculous, but of course there was no harm in imagining things right? Especially when it was never going to happen and no one would be hurt because of my imagination. I dreamt being standing on the first beach when Jared pulls me closer and holds me by my waist, the light showers of rain turn into a heavy rain and we both look at each other unwilling to move away. He would slowly touch his lips to mine and then give me my first kiss ever!
I tried to remember how to breathe after my fantasy. It was not like he would ever kiss me, I am just pushing my luck more than I should; but again I had dreamt of Jared noticing me, we were supposed to collide into each other and my books would fall down, he would pick it up for me and our eyes would meet, and in that moment he would fall in love with me. Now, that somewhat happened in reality as well, only my books fell because of me ogling Jared, but he picked up my books for me and then our eyes met, and since then he followed me everywhere, watched my every move. It should scare me really, Jared suddenly showing interest in me, but I have never felt so safe around anyone but him. I felt a sudden connection with him the moment he looked into my eyes, maybe there was something more for us than just being friends.
I should not go there because if it isn't that way then I would end up being hurt and lonely and Jared would most likely move on with some much prettier girl than me, he would be happy after all. Thinking of Jared with some other girl was like punching holes in my heart by my own hands. How was he so blind to not see my love even now? Honestly sometimes he makes me so mad at him, but then I would imagine his face or see his face at school and it would melt off my anger, I would even forget why was I mad at him in the first place?
What must he be doing at this moment? We were about to reach Port Angeles but all I could think of was Jared. Maybe he was having lunch with his family too, or maybe he would be with Sam. Can't I just see his face today as well? Maybe he could just show up at the restaurant and come up to me and talk? Well that will be a long shot. I was 99% sure we would not see each other today, I sighed at the knowledge and tried to focus on the scene outside my window.
We were about to enter Port Angeles in a few minutes, and my stomach was already burning with hunger. I saw my mom turn around to look at me and her lips were moving too fast for me to read, so I yanked my earphones out of my ears and said "What?"
"I was asking how come you girls are so quiet back there, but now I know" Mom said shaking her head, "Cami is already asleep, so that is why I was listening to my music" I explained looking at Cami, even mom looked at her. "She looks so cute when she sleeps" Mom cooed and I could not help but agree. Cami's chubby cheeks were to die for, and her big doe eyes were too beautiful to be true. "You remember Kimmy, you would not put her down even for a second when she was born?" Mom asked grinning. Mom and dad loved to narrate our baby stories, it was really embarrassing some times, but I did not mind.
"And now she is always acting so mature" I sighed, "Well, that's just her age, she loves you no matter what" Dad told me as he looked in the rear view mirror, and mom nodded in agreement. "Was I like that too?" I asked with a smirk, "You were too easy to handle" Mom laughed, "I agree, she would sleep so easily, not wake up in middle of the night, never put up a fight" Dad remembered looking straight ahead on the road. "I remember her waking everyone up in the middle of the night" I looked at Cami as those words escaped my mouth. "She is a spoilt one, isn't she?" Dad chuckled.
"That is partially Kim's mistake too, she loves Cami so dearly, it is actually heart melting" Mom cooed looking at us. Yes, I loved my baby sister to death, I remember coming back from school and Cami would run to hug me and I would tackle her with kisses on her chubby cheeks. She did all this even now but there were also those days when she would not run up to me when I came back from school or let me kiss her chubby cheeks.
I could not help myself, so I leaned in and kissed Cami on her cheek while she unconsciously scooted over to me and I kept my hand on her tiny waist. The rest of the ride was spent remembering my and Cami's childhood, it was really amazing to hear and remember about Cami more than hearing about myself, I assume it is because I was there to witness all of Cami's childhood and I cannot remember a single detail about mine, but that was okay since I was a baby then.
As far as my last year is concerned, it is engraved on my mind and heart, especially everything related to Jared. Oh why cannot I go an hour without thinking of him?! I needed to get a life, he surely did not think of me every second of his day, he had many more important things to do than think about a plain girl, who was in love with him.
There was no signs of rain outside this restaurant where we were going to have our little family brunch, well now lunch. So I woke up Cami, and she excitedly jumped out of the car and opened mom's door, pulling her out excitedly. I got out of the car too, but as soon as I stepped out, I shuddered at the cool breeze hitting me. "It is pretty cold isn't it?" Dad asked, considering it was January, it wasn't that cold at all! "Let' go" Dad said and we four walked into the restaurant together.
The lunch was amazing, we all ordered whatever we wanted to and shared our food with each other. The food as always was very delicious, and our conversation the whole while was very interesting, it started from the weather to forests, then turned into a political issue, finally to the food and then at the end it was school and friends.
"Kim, why don't you and Lily have sleepovers anymore?" Dad asked curiously, "It hasn't been that long since we had sleepovers" I told him looking at my food. "Kim has made new friends" Cami joined in, "New friends?" Dad sounded surprised, it was very discouraging to hear that amount of surprise in his voice, "Yes, mom what was his name?" Cami asked innocently and my head shot up suddenly, "Jared Cameron" my mom was smirking as she spoke his name, "He isn't a friend, he is just a classmate" I mumbled, "No, he said he is your friend when he came to return your notebook yesterday" Cami protested, "Is he one of Sam Uley's friend?" dad enquired, "Yes, the same Jared" mom answered, "He is a nice kid, always helping others" Dad said with a smile, oh so Jared always helps everyone, that was heart breaking, because it meant I was no different from other's for him.
"Yes, our Kimmy has been helping him catch up with school work" mom told dad, "That is good, people are actually freaking out because they have suddenly changed, it is not like they aren't the same underneath, they are even more helpful now" Dad joined in, "It's sad to think people are freaking out because of their appearance but they are still helping us all" mom agreed, "I don't think he looks bad at all, he looks handsome" Cami said seriously, it actually made me blush a little.
Mom and Dad just laughed at Cami and I joined in only half-heartedly. Did Jared really helped everyone by going out of his way like he was doing for me? Then I wasn't really special I guess, I sighed at the thought but tried not to let mom or dad see I was affected by our conversation and kept my smile intact while eating my food. The topic suddenly changed to Cami's school life, for which I was really glad.
The rest of the day was a blur for me, since I was trying really hard to keep Jared out of my mind, he was not supposed to be so important to me! I would honestly start losing my mind if I kept thinking so much about Jared.
At night however as I laid in my bed awake all I could think of was Jared, I knew I should have not let his sudden attention get the better of me. I knew something was wrong by the way he was giving me so much attention, first I thought he was playing a prank which was less heart breaking than to realize that I was not special for him at all! He was just helping me the way he would help anyone, I thought long and hard for a solution since I was going to see him tomorrow as well and it would break my heart even more.
The only solution I could come up with was to avoid him altogether, yes, I would avoid him. I did not wanted Jared Cameron's help at all, I was perfectly capable of helping myself. So it was decided then, I would avoid him at all cost.
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