Authors Note: I'm getting all my things sorted, i will be updating on Be my friend and then maybe something more and Never Know what she means to me, i fell for the girl that's on tv (woah that's a mouthful) hopefully before the end of this week, so stay tuned. And as always, reviews are much appreciated, very much so... i thrive on them and update faster because of them *wink* *wink* nudge nudge. "Who said that?"


Much later that week, You received in the mail the tickets-and an itinerary your assistant had it sent up to one of the studios where you had been working non-stop for almost 48 hours, tweaking some of the vocals in one of the mixes.

Too tired to even request for a coffee, you close your eyes and lay back on your cushioned chair.


"Beca stop staring and just come to bed"-Chloe says teasingly.

She's lying on her bed in Aubrey' and hers apartment back at Barden. it's amazing how in the dream you can recall everything in detail: her sky blue bookshelf stocked with all Medical books as well as the many ChickLit Young Adult novels (the only one you deign to acknowledge at all is the Hunger Games-cos c'mon Katniss Everdeen 'nuff said. Yes you read-especially because films are just blargh so might as well get the real deal while using your IMAGINATION right?), the feel of the soft white comforter is also very clear memory, the one Chloe used even in the heat because she said blankets always made her feel protected. You see her extensive and surprisingly good music collection cds, even vinyl (you knew you loved this girl) but more importantly you remember how beautiful she looked in just a plain old loose top that came to her knees -comfy and ready for bed...but that was you getting ahead of yourself. Because at that moment you can't quite move stunned by her radiance, her beauty-

"Beca you've been standing there for five whole minutes, so you want me to have to drag you?"When you don't respond, she moves to get off the bed.

"Wait it's just, i'm afraid that this isn't real-no i know it's not i just...don't want to have to wake up." She comes closer to you know she takes your face in her hands-No way this was just a dream, you feel her warmth, you tingle everywhere where her bare skin makes contact with yours.

"Shh, if this is a dream why don't you and I just make the most of it-" She leads your hands to her breasts, prompting you to take the next step,

"Chloe-I" She stops you then when she pulls you into a kiss so soft, warm, inviting-you swear dream kisses don't taste this good, feel this real.

"Don't think, do. That's for waking...here it's all easy."She murmurs in between kisses, her voice turning husky as you finally move your hands firmly cupping, massaging her...you move to deepen the kiss-she grants you access with one swipe of your tongue on her bottom lip she groans her hands can't quite still themselves. Moving from your waist to grab your ass, then pull at your hair...and finally at long last you reach the bed.

She sort of throws you down onto it and clambers over you, your hands had long ago moved up and under feeling her taut abs-but you want more skin, pushing at her shirt needing it off. Her mouth she latches onto your neck-finding that one spot that makes you go crazy your sure your on fire everywhere with her grinding on to you her hands trailing downwards and all the while you are still fully clothed... but she's making quick do of your pants you're glad you wore loose jeans this time around-she moves up a bit granting space for both of you to remove all the barriers hindering you. Your almost too embarrassed as she sees that your pants is already damp-but she smiles that sexy smile of hers

"Beca, for me? No you shouldn't have... bit excited are we?" she's smirking and you thought you owned the corner market of the whole smirking thing but on Chloe Beale-Shit...could you possibly be even more turned on, the answer-yes.

But you quickly take advantage of her momentary distraction you flip her over-and you believe your going to stay there above her... at least in between her so you can wipe of that smug expression on her face "you have no idea Chloe, how long i've wanted this,what you'll be in for" You feel her whole body shudder when your lips begin a slow languid trail downwards now tasting what you had in your hands earlier-perfect now in your mouth the rosy tips you curl your tongue around, alternate between sucking with little nibbles here and there...you would like to stay there... feeling hearing Chloe's sounds, feeling her rapid breaths but you still have somewhere you have to go to. You stop at her navel you bite her there, but lick to soothe "I love your abs, the way you contract them...i'd always wondered how they'd feel like, and now i actually know how they taste" You see Chloe's eyes are a darker blue than you've ever seen before or as dark as it can be,

"And you know what..."you say in a warm deep tone you hardly recognize, your voice has gone all sexy

"What?" Chloe croaks out

"you taste even better than i imagined" you finally get to "the destination" and you smell her wetness before you actually feel or see it..."Hmm, now who's all excited"

Chloe doesn't even bother to respond-you rise up to take in her glorious features her whole face is one of desperation-her eyes are tightly shut a light sheen on her forehead she raises her hips into yours in an unspoken command...you want to freeze time, if you could- you would want this moment... her surrendering herself completely to you.

She leads your hand down...you feel it her heat, the wetness, where she is throbbing down there-and just before you enter her... you are gripped with wanting to tell her wanting her to know one thing "Chloe, wait chloe i just need you to know, I love... i've always loved-"


"Beca, wake up-Beca!" you are shaken out of heaven, and you are not a happy camper when you fall out of your chair at the same time.

"What the actual fuck-Jesse!" keen to remain as angry as him for as long as possible...can't you have one minute of peace around here?

"-don't touch me argh shit, my but hurts..." You roll onto your back on the carpeted floor hoping that it's clean it better be.

"I thought you were having a nightmare, you were groaning and stuff-" You see him looking down at you all puppy-doggy with his eyes...you almost immediately berate yourself, he didn't mean it-Jesse was like the goofy, well-meaning brother that you dated for a while but realized friendship was all you could ever have with him...yes, it was that uncomplicated. you really did excel in the usage of sarcasm.

Jesse gives up with the whole crouching down to talk to you-as he too joins you as he lays down on the floor. He nudges you, it's an apology. You roll your eyes inwardly at yourself as you nudge him back as sign that all is forgiven.

But in all truth...You guys worked together somehow, a team, not quite in the romantic sense but you were used to each other by now, so it saved you the hassle of hiring some person who would take forever too learn all your preferences, your little quirks and take it in stride. So really, being friends with you ex had it's pluses.

"No, i was um groaning like- in a good way you know..." and also their was always a potential for everything to turn out awkward, Jesse had never dated anyone after you told him that,"I also like girls..."

He grins at you though, "No wonder you were so mad, you have been a tad frustrated these days Mitchell..seriously i'll set you up."

"Dude, you did not just say you'll set me up-"you groan okay this was a total minus(?) to having an ex become a buddy "-i'm just busy theses days...and no one really catches my attention, you know, no one worth the effort-and i'm tired enough as it is"

"Hmm. Chloe keeping you up most nights huh-must be some wild dreams..."

"-What? did you just say...how'd you...know?" you are definitely hearing things, did he just

"Oh you said her name aloud, and well call me a creeper but when we dated and we use to watch movies all the time, and you'd fall asleep every single time i use to think subjecting you to endless movies was why you broke up with me, but i guess it's one of the reasons but anyway you should know um it's not the first time i've uh heard you having a 'chloe dream' "

What okay you had "Chloe Dreams" before? Maybe you forgot when you woke up, some sort of way to suppress those tendencies you had towards Chloe. And Jesse had heard and witnessed it before, okay, now that wasn't weird like at all. What did she even say or do when asleep.

You can't even think-You don't want to. God poor Jesse. And all the while you thought you were a master at hiding your feelings. But you'd given yourself away...was it weird to be pissed at your own unconscious self?

Jesse probably sees the look of utter horror on your face, so like the good friend he is, he tries to make you feel better-except he doesn't really say the right things.

"C'mon Becaw, you tell me that you...also like girls-and then you date a string of people with either red hair, bright blue eyes, and gosh it was sorta obvious at times-you always loved those girls, but you always loved Chloe best- so it's still Chloe huh?"

You turn to him you guys are parallel, facing each other, you wonder how everything turned serious suddenly, "I never, i didn't cheat on you..."

"I know, you aren't that type of person. I don't think you even realized- just how much you couldn't quite help yourself whenever she was around. I'm a lot more observant than you give me credit for..."

"I don't even know how to respond to that..." You can't quite look him in the eye-all this time he had known you had been that transparent.

"It's okay Becs...c'mon hey look at me-" he forces you to look up tilting your chin a bit he gives you that reassuring smile of his...you realize that sometime over the years, he had accepted it all- that he had moved on.

"Everything's just, it's really weird. Where's this all coming from, i haven't seen her in ages..."

"Well what about Amy's wedding aren't you going to see her then-i think she's flying in from London she was there on vacation with some friends" seeing the look on surprise on your face he begins to chuckle- the lightness once again restored "-i do have a facebook and the college acapella world had always been quite close-knit especially the Trebles and Bellas after Bumper finally left."

"Yeah..." you feel hollow have you really been that busy to loose contact with not only Chloe, but everyone? Jesse worked almost the same hours as you and still managed to have a social life away from their whole business.

"-Maybe...hey Jess you mind closing up I'm so exhausted I probably won't get anything done-so I'll start from where I left off tomorrow-I mean later in the day, it's already morning...I'll take a quick shower some early breakfast" you gather your things and you shut off all unnecessary equipment as you move towards the door both readying your things for later and getting ready to leave.

"Sure, sure-"Jesse gives you that awkward semi hug- the guy kind with the accompanying pats to your shoulder. Your sure he forgets sometimes that you're a girl."Bye bye becs"

You're at the exit of the studio when he calls out "better make the shower a cold one" you chuckle good-naturedly,

You can't believe you dated that ass.


The next time you're fully conscious and gone online, people have started liking and replying to Fat Amy's group message.

Aubrey Posen posted this status two days ago:

See you all in a fortnight (i expect you all to know that's two weeks from today) attached are all the deats for those who haven't been updated BecaMitchell

But you instead message her: Aca-excuseme, i am too, updated. you just can't resist-God, Aubrey in College was just...

Aubrey promptly replies: It's Aca-scuseme, honestly Beca-you have been MIA as of late, Chloe too. You take that back- Aubrey in whatever period in her life is always just...there are no words.

You want to ask about Chloe but now knowing that Jesse had known, you have to be cautious-maybe Aubrey had an inkling as well she always was good at piercing through you with her laser beam "all-seeing" eyes you swear your conscience even tends to sound like your old Bella captain- . Thank God she was on her laptop. Safe-you roll your eyes at yourself

Aubrey Posen: Don't roll your eyes, they'll get stuck one day. Holy...you look around, maybe you have cameras installed, you wouldn't put it past Aubrey.

You are tempted to ask if her father taught her that...But you type: I've been busy-but I'll make the wedding... wouldn't want the killer koalas to come find me.

Aubrey Posen: It's not koalas it's kangaroos and they're assassins... she fires back not too long after

Never one to back off from a fight especially with Aubrey, your fingers type with purpose- the competitive side coming naturally

Beca Mitchell: aren't they the same thing killers, assassins...

You pause for a bit as you see she's still typing... at some point you guys had to grow up...you decide to let her win this time-and you erase what you had started to type and instead write,

Beca Mitchell: whatever we are once again arguing- glad to know not much has changed, but we are arguing over something pointless

Aubrey Posen: yes, i'm just- i really miss our fights okay, the ones in person. I've been going through life unchallenged for far too long now.

Beca Mitcell: Are you inadvertently saying you miss me, My my Aubrey.

Aubrey Posen: Believe in whatever you want, Beca. It would be good to see all the girls, together again-especially You and Chloe...it would be good for us all to catch up

Beca Mitchell: I know what you mean, and i can't wait Aubrey-it was nice hearing from you but i gotta go...here i sent you my new number...you still keep the same one right?"

Aubrey Posen: Yes, it would've been better to ask if i had a new number before you sent it. But yes i received the message...i'll call sometime

Beca Mitchell: Yeah, yeah-not just too often i know you miss me but keep in your pants okay Posen?

Aubrey Posen: You are disgusting, Beca Mitchell

Beca Mitchell: What are you going to puke on me-through the screen

Aubrey Posen: HAha, I've missed this, okay go i know you're late for work-keep in touch yeah we need to start planning for bridal shower, bachelorette the works-i'll need your help in this one special surprise i'm working on

Beca Mitchell: Ha! Told you, you misss me! wait what the hell, how'd you know i was late? And no, i won't be a stripper for her bachelorette no matter how much you beg me.

Aubrey Posen: i said this, the talks-i mean verbal sparring. And second, you always were late to practices, what's stopping you know especially when you are the boss of your own company and therefore, not necessarily required to be on time-you would totally take advantage of that privilege. Last of all Ew-now i really did empty my stomach contents no one would beg you to be a stripper they'd beg you to put your clothes back on.

Beca Mitchell: Hey I'll have you know and too bad you'll never see it firsthand that i actually do have a rocking bod according to some...one

Aubrey Posen: Okay-rocking bod, who even says that...you totally made that up-and why would i accept some account of some stranger...of you

Beca Mitchell: Fine, then when you see her... ask Chloe

Aubrey Posen: Ask what? wait...Chloe. Chloe's seen you naked? When? OMG what-this is totally messing with my head explain yourself Beca Mitchell.

Beca Mitchell: This was back in Barden-you never knew about her going all out recruiting me- all the way to my shower?

Aubrey Posen: hmm...it shouldn't be surprising Chloe's just Chloe you know?

Yes and No the Chloe you knew before- was just Chloe but how would you know now.

You don not want to go into a conversation about Chloe-you don't really know how to act or reply if Aubrey starts telling you stuff about her. You don't want to be reminded of how much you've missed out on her life. And so you decide to abruptly cut the conversation short,

Beca Mitchell: Hey Posen...You won't miss the conversing with me if you keep doing it-give me some leeway I'll get back to you later...so g2g i do have to "work" P.S since we were talking about jobs... you know i always knew you'd be a great lawyer

Aubrey Posen: I smell trouble but okay I'll ask, Why?

Beca Mitchell: Because you never let anyone else get a word in with that mouth of yours and you were no still are a stiff, tough as nails bitch, Tata Aubrey, more where that came from ;)

Ha that was for her insult, Beca Mitchell does have a rocking Bod...okay it does sound lame, but you could totally be paid to take your clothes off.

You don't give her a chance to reply and quickly log out. You'll be getting an earful from her the next time you hear from her, you'll definitely hear a few choice words.


That was one relationship that would never change, the dynamic with the two of you, no longer loathing each other but having playful competitive bantering it was fun, you were glad for it, for that friendship.

You only hope yours and Chloe's could so easily be restored-and maybe rekindled.

5 years was a long time though, Chloe might just be very different from the girl you saw, you see... almost every night in your dreams-it was nice to hold on to the past, your past selves...it saved from worrying about the uncertainty of the future.