6th grade


Phoebe told me over the summer that Helga was at boarding school.

I can't stop thinking about her. But I don't get it. How come... How come you couldn't just tell me what you knew? Why'd you have to make up all this crazy secret identity? I can't help but feel that she was always playing a role. Not just as Deep Voice. That's a pretty amazing thing to do for someone you claim to hate. I kinda think she was always watching me, always helping me. I don't know how, but my luck just isn't the same with her gone. Yeah, well, I'm a pretty amazing person, football head.

Gerald and I trained to get on the sports teams next year. We played less with the kids in the neighborhood. But Helga, you just risked everything to help me save the neighborhood. It just wasn't the same without Helga there anyway. We practiced making shots in the higher baskets in the middle school gym every Monday when it was open for volleyball practice, but there were always a few hoops open and the coach didn't mind we came by. We would also go to the batting cages at least once a month and stay all day.


I let Phoebe tell him where I was.

I can't stop thinking about him. But I don't get it. How come... How come you couldn't just tell me what you knew? Why'd you have to make up all this crazy secret identity? I didn't let her tell me his reaction. I couldn't bear it if he responded poorly… That's a pretty amazing thing to do for someone you claim to hate. Or if he responded well either. Yeah, well, I'm a pretty amazing person, football head. What a crock.

I miss playing with the guys. I even miss Harold. I miss Gerald Field, baseball, and basketball. But Helga, you just risked everything to help me save the neighborhood. I would gladly play football again at the hands of Wolfgang and Ludwig just to spend some time with everyone again. Even Lila looks good compared to the girls I have to see here at school. This school doesn't even have sports teams for me to play on, they are not becoming of a lady. As if I care what is becoming of a lady.